The Complete Malazan Book of the Fallen (1157 page)

‘You speak like an old man, a Barghast shaman. Riddles and bad advice, Onos Toolan was right to discount them all.' She almost looked to the west, past his shoulder, as if she might find her people and the Warleader, all marching straight for them. Instead, she finished the last of the tea in her cup.

‘Onos Toolan,' Draconus muttered, ‘an Imass name. A strange warleader for the Barghast to have…will you tell me the tale of that, Ralata?'

She grunted. ‘I have no skill for tales. Hetan took him for a husband. He was from the Gathering, when all the T'lan Imass answered the summons of Silverfox. She returned to him his life, ending his immortality, and then Hetan found him. After the end of the Pannion War. Hetan's father was Humbrall Taur, who had united the White Face clans, but he drowned during the landing upon the shores of this continent—'

‘A moment, please. Your tribes are not native to this continent?'

She shrugged. ‘The Barghast gods were awakened to some peril. They filled the brains of the shamans with their panic, like sour piss. We must return here, to our original homeland, to face an ancient enemy. So we were told, but not much else. We thought the enemy was the Tiste Edur. Then the Letherii, and then the Akrynnai. But it wasn't any of them, and now we are destroyed, and if Sekara spoke truly, then Onos Toolan is dead, and so is Hetan. They're all dead. I hope the Barghast gods died with them.'

‘Can you tell me more about these T'lan Imass?'

‘They knelt before a mortal man. In the midst of battle, they turned their backs on the enemy. I will say no more of them.'

‘Yet you chose to follow Onos Toolan—'

‘He was not among those. He stood alone before Silverfox, a thing of bones, and demanded—'

But Draconus had leaned forward, almost over the fire. ‘“A thing of bones”? T'lan –
Tellann!
Abyss below!' He suddenly rose, startling Ralata further, and she watched as he paced, and it seemed black ink was bleeding out from the scabbard at his back, a stain that hurt her eyes. ‘That bitch,' he said in a low growl. ‘You selfish, spiteful hag!'

Ublala heard the outburst and he suddenly loomed into the dull glow of the fire, his huge mace leaning over one shoulder. ‘What'd she do, Draconus?' He glared at Ralata. ‘Should I kill her? If she's being spelfish and sightful – what's rape mean, anyway? It's got to do with sex? Can I—'

‘Ublala,' Draconus cut in, ‘I was not speaking of Ralata.'

The Teblor looked round. ‘I don't see no one else, Draconus. She's hiding? Whoever she is, I hate her, unless she's pretty. Is she pretty? Mean is all right if they're pretty.'

The warrior was staring at Ublala. ‘Best climb into your furs, Ublala, and get some sleep. I'll stand first watch.'

‘All right. I wasn't tired anyway.' He swung about and set off for his bedroll.

‘Be careful with those curses,' Ralata said in a hiss, rising to her feet. ‘What if he strikes first and
then
asks questions?'

He glanced across at her. ‘The T'lan Imass were
undead.
'

She nodded.

‘She never let them go?'

‘Silverfox? No. They asked, I think, but no.'

He seemed to stagger. And, turning away, he slowly sank down on to one knee, facing away from her. The pose was one of dismay, or grief – she could not be sure. Confused, Ralata took a step towards him, and then stopped. He was saying something, but in a language she knew not. A phrase, over and over again, his voice hoarse, thick.

‘Draconus?'

His shoulders shook, and then she heard the rumble of laughter, a deathly, humourless sound. ‘And I thought my penance was long.' Head still lowered, he said, ‘This Onos Toolan…is he now truly dead, Ralata?'

‘So Sekara said.'

‘Then he is at peace. At long last. At peace.'

‘I doubt it,' she said.

He twisted round to regard her. ‘Why do you say that?'

‘They killed his wife. They killed his children. If I was Onos Toolan, even death would not keep me from my revenge.'

He drew a sharp breath, and it caught as if on a hook, and once more he turned away.

The scabbard dripped blackness as if from an open wound.

Oh, how I want that sword.

 

Wants and needs could starve and die, no different from love. All the grand gestures of honour and faithful loyalty meant nothing when the only witnesses were grass, wind and empty sky. It seemed to Mappo that his nobler virtues had withered on the vine, and the garden of his soul, once so verdant, now rattled skeletal branches against stone walls.

Where was his promise? What of the vows he had uttered, so sober and grim in youth, so shiny of portent, as befitted the broad-shouldered brave he had once been? Mappo could feel dread inside, hard as a fist-sized tumour in his chest. His ribs ached with the pressure of it, but it was an ache he had lived with for so long now, it had become a part of him, a scar far larger than the wound it covered.
And this is how words are made flesh. This is how our very bones become the rack of our own penance, and the muscles twitch in slick skins of sweat, the head hangs loose – I see you, Mappo – so slumped down in pathetic surrender.

He was taken from you, like a bauble stolen from your purse. The theft stung, it stings still. You feel outraged. Violated. This is pride and indignation, isn't it? These are the sigils on your banner of war, your lust for vengeance. Look upon yourself, Mappo, you mouth the arguments of tyrants now, and all shrink from your path.

But I want him back. At my side. I swore my life to protecting him, sheltering him. How can that be taken away from me? Can you not hear the empty howl in my heart? This is a pit without light, and upon all the close walls surrounding me I can feel nothing but the gouges my claws have made.

The green sheen upon the broken land was sickly to his eyes, unnatural, an ominous imposition that made the shattering of the moon seem almost incidental.
But worlds heal, when we do not.
Mustiness clung to the night air, as of distant corpses left to rot.

There have been so many deaths in this wasteland. I don't understand it. Was this by Icarium's sword? His rage? I should have felt that, but the very ground barely breathes; like an old woman in her death-cot she can but tremble to faraway sounds. Thunder and a darkness upon the sky.

‘There is war.'

Mappo grunted. They'd been silent for so long he'd almost forgotten Gruntle's presence, standing here at his side. ‘What do you know of it?' he asked, pulling his gaze away from the eastern horizon.

The barb-tattooed caravan guard shrugged. ‘What is there to know? Deaths beyond counting. Slaughter to make my mouth water. Hackles rise – even in this gloom I can see the dismay in your face, Trell, and I share it. War, it is what it was and always will be. What else is there to say?'

‘You yearn to join the fray?'

‘My dreams tell me different.'

Mappo glanced back at the camp. The humped forms of their sleeping companions, the more regular mound of the fresh burial cairn. The desiccated shape of Cartographer seated upon the stones, a tattered wolf lying at his feet. Two horses, the scatter of packs and supplies. An air of death and sorrow. ‘If there is war,' he said, facing Gruntle again, ‘who profits?'

The man rolled his shoulders, a habit of his, Mappo now knew, as if Trake's Mortal Sword sought to shift a burden no one else could see. ‘Ever the question, as if answers meant anything, which they don't. Soldiers are herded into the iron maw and the ground turns to red mud, and someone on a nearby hill raises a fist in triumph, while another flees the field on a white horse.'

‘I warrant Trake takes little pleasure in his chosen warrior's views on the matter.'

‘Warrant more how little I care, Mappo. A Soletaken tiger, but such beasts keep no company, why should Trake expect anything different? We are solitary hunters; what manner of war can we hope to find? That is the irony in the whole mess: the Tiger of Summer is doomed to hunt the perfect war, but never find it. See how his tail lashes.'

No, I see that. For the true visage of war, best turn to the snarling jaws of wolves.
‘Setoc,' he said in a murmur.

‘She has dreams of her own, I'm sure,' Gruntle said.

‘Traditional wars,' Mappo mused, ‘are fomented in the winter, when the walls close in and there is too much time on one's hands. The barons brood, the kings scheme, raiders plot their passages through borderlands. The wolves howl in winter. But come the season's turn, summer is born to the savagery of blades and spears – the savagery of the tiger.' He shrugged. ‘I see no conflict there. You and Setoc, and the gods bound to you, you all complement one another—'

‘It is more complicated than that, Trell. Cold iron belongs to the Wolves. Trake is hot iron, a fatal flaw to my mind. Oh, we do well in the bloody press, but then you must ask, how in Hood's name did we get into such a mess in the first place? Because we don't think.' Gruntle's tone was both amused and bitter.

‘And so your dreams visit visions upon you, Mortal Sword? Troubling ones?'

‘No one remembers the nice ones, do they? Yes, troubling. Old friends long dead stalk the jungle. They walk lost, arms groping. Their mouths work but no sound reaches me. I see a panther, my mistress of the hunt, in these dreams, by the way – she lies gored and bloody, panting fast in shock, dumb misery in her eyes.'

‘Gored?'

‘Boar's tusk.'

‘Fener?'

‘As the god of war, he was unchallenged. Vicious as any tiger, and cunning as any pack of wolves. With Fener in the ascendant, we knelt with heads bowed.'

‘Your mistress lies dying?'

‘Dying? Maybe. I see her, and rage fills my eyes in a flood of crimson. Gored, raped, and someone will pay for that. Someone will pay.'

Mappo was silent.
Raped?

Gruntle then growled as befitted his patron god, and Mappo's nape-hairs stiffened at the sound. The Trell said, ‘I will part this company on the morrow.'

‘You seek the battlefield.'

‘Which none of you need witness, I think. He was there, you see. I felt him, his power. I will find the trail. I hope. And you, Gruntle? Where will you lead this troop?'

‘East, a little south of your path, but I am not content to walk at the side of the Wolves for much longer. Setoc speaks of a child in a city of ice—'

‘Crystal.' Mappo briefly closed his eyes. ‘A crystal city.'

‘And Precious Thimble believes there is power there, something she might be able to use, to take the Shareholders home. They have a destination, but it is not mine.'

‘Do you seek your mistress? There are no jungles east of here, unless they exist on the far coast.'

Gruntle started. ‘Jungles? No. You think too literally, Mappo. I seek a place at her side, to fight a battle. If I am not there, she will indeed die. So my ghosts tell me in their haunting. It is not enough to arrive too late, to see the wound in her eyes, to know that all that you can hope to do is avenge what was done to her. Not enough, Trell. Never enough.'

The wound in her eyes…you do this all for love? Mortal Sword, do your ribs ache? Does she haunt you, whoever she was, or is Trake simply feeding you the ripest meat? It is not enough to arrive too late. Oh, I know the truth of that.

Violated.

Raped.

Now comes the dark question. Who profits from this?

 

Faint huddled under her furs, feeling as if she'd been dragged behind a carriage for a league or two. There was nothing worse than cracked ribs. Well, if she'd sat up only to find her severed head resting on her lap, that would be worse.
But probably painless, all things considered. Not like this. Miserable ache, a thousand twinges vying for attention, until everything turns white and then red and then purple and finally blissful black. Where's the black? I'm waiting, been waiting all night.

At dusk Setoc had drawn close to tell her that the Trell would be leaving on the morrow. How she knew was anyone's guess, since Mappo wasn't in any mood to talk, except to Gruntle, who was one of those men it was too easy to talk to, a man who just invited confession, as if giving off a scent or something. Hood knew, she wanted to—

A spasm. She stifled a gasp, waited out the throbs, and then sought to shift position once more, not that one was more comfortable than any other. More a matter of duration. Twenty breaths lying this way, fifteen that way, and flat on her back was impossible – she'd never imagined how the weight of her own tits could crush the breath from her, and the gentle sweep of the furs threatened to close like a vice when she thought of settling her arms. It was all impossible, and come the dawn she'd be ready to snap off heads.

‘Then Gruntle will leave us too. Not yet. But he won't stay. He can't.'

Setoc had a way with words, the heaps of good news she stacked like the coins of a private treasure. Maybe the grasses whispered in her ears, as she lay there so gentle and damnably asleep, or the crickets and just listen to them – no, that was her spine crackling away. She fought back a moan.

So, before long, it would be the Shareholders and the barbarian, Torrent, along with the three runts and Setoc herself. She didn't count Cartographer, the wolf or the horses. Not for any particular reason, even if only the horses were actually alive.
I don't count them, that's all.
So, just them, and who among them was tough enough to fight off the next attack from that winged lizard? Torrent? He looked too young, with the eyes of a hunted hare.

And only one Bole left, and that's bad. Poor boy's miserable. Here's the deal, let's not bury any more friends, shall we?