To John (16 page)

'Dagger alif. Do you want to taste
what the real dagger is like?' (All from the Last Book)

Ana assumed that the auther must
had lost someone in those endless drones. She saw something on
Youtube. 'Decapitated 2 year old Syrian girl'. She wondered whether
the video is still there.

March 2015

1st Week March 2015

01 Mar 2015

'Now I know why I am here. I
needed a human body to work. I konw why I had and have so much
pain. I did not work properly. Pain shows the way to me. Basically
give me pain, I will suck you in. I think I did tell you before to
call me a Dieson. I should know better about the structure of my
body and how it works. Hard bones, soft bones and marrow kind of
stuffs. I am trying very hard not to break my own bones with my own
energy.'

'I do not suck the whole soul. Too
heavy for me. Soul is made of two components. Yin and Yang spirit.
You used to call Yang spirit a God. I am sucking this Yang spirit.
Then what happened? When you die, you die. You have no ticket to go
back where you came from. You might not mind while you are living
here. You would never know. All very silly... Yin spirit without
body used to be called ghosts. When a living form suddenly died
with shock or without reason, Yin and Yang spirits are just
seperated. Yin spirit is left. Stories about burning hell came from
this, I guess. Very sad state of a type of consciousness. Spirits
are in the main part of perception. So, even Yin spirit can
perceive at a certain level. Better not, but it does. I have no
experience of being this, so I do not know what it can perceive.
Can you imagine? I don't want to. What kind of consciousness does
my cat have if it is left alone? Hunger, pain and anything else? No
physical body. So permanent hunger, permanent pain. Anything else?
Sorrow. On its own usually. No communication with other
beings.'

'So, if you kill somebody, your
Yang spirit cannot accept what you did. This is called
conscientiousness. Yin spirit is more related to surviving as an
individual. So, American soldiers who came back from unreasonable
mass killing, either went mad or committed suicide. They could not
win their own spiritual battle. No concillliation. Their soul were
splitted. Human has this Yang spirit whereas other animals do not.
So, humans are born as a half God. Then look!' (From the Last
Book)

Ana spent her sunday cooking
cookies and named them Yin Yang Ooh La La cookies.

"There will be a room service at
10:00, Sir. # # ;"

5 minutes later, she found her
account closed. She could not see anything.

"I will kill you, Carl. How could
you do that?"

"Open another one, Ana. The same
condition. You will like it. Use crocodile."

She knows the crocodile. She used
to call it Kkattayo. She was tiny.

'Kkattayo is angry... Kkattayo is
coming slowly... Kkattayo eats you... Kkattayo...'

02 Mar 2015

"Just testing with compressed zip
code. Will let you know before 08:00."

"Not bad. Rather good. A few more
testing..."

'It should be clinically proved.
You can not go anywhere with compression arthralgia, can you?'

"I will fuck up this account if
it's ok with you, Carl."

03 Mar 2015

'An Act of Providence. What does
it mean? The example sentence can be something like this. 'It must
be an act of Providence that I came to marry you.' What does
'Providence' mean?'

'Does it have the same meaning as
Karma or cuase & occasion? Who said that? It was Dostoyevsky.
Dostoyevsky said God exists in details in Crime and Punishment. He
wrote The Idiot and The Gambler. I feel both. I love details too. I
feel that I am playing the God's game. Something is beyond me and
something is predestined. But I can quit if I get bored or tired.
Or I can choose a different game. Or I can create my own
game...'

"I need the detailed information
about ECB QE by Nomura Securities. Osewani Narimasu."

"0.15-0.6p ijoniwa narimasen.
Jannendesu. Diteruwa mailde okurimas. Matta."

'myalgic encephalomyelitis (ME),
post-viral fatigue syndrome (PVFS)'

"Carl, you will see how I can mess
it up."

'I thought somebody was drilling
my earholes. I should check with GP whether I have middle ear
infection. I miss my dad.'

He used to say

'I spent my whole life peering
into somebody else's ears or noses or throats.'

"I agree with NBC news research.
The size of bar matters. Clinically the size when it's erected does
matter for impotence."

Ana heard it somewhere that
impotance can be cured by acupuncture. She found it funny. The
acupuncture point for the cure was called the Dragon Gate. Where is
Henry?

"Carl, I like it. But it took two
days. Do you think it's ok?"

04 Mar 2015

"Transparency assessment instead
of stress test."

Ana got puzzled and thought she
might have dyslexia. She read Alabama as Alibaba. She got used to
her netbook's weird behavior. It clicks by itself in a miraculous
way. When it first happened, she thought either she is mad or she
is developing early Parkinson's. When it happened again, she
watched whether it's proper action or not. When it happened again
and again, she felt she met an old friend somewhere over there.
Very trustworthy, funny and notty. Annoyingly wise almost
always.

"Strengthen the security. Focus on
clarity."

'hung, BoE revolution...
something is not right. Revolution. If they let it slip, it will be
like 2008. They don't know it? Fed up. I can not go on like this.
Too many days... Currency works best for the economy when it's
properly moving and balanced. Week cunrrency helps? You will
see.'

'Hit it first and see what can
happen.'

"Release those hookers."

'I think this is the second
time Israel get back stabbed by America. Last year, when the
Israel-African fund got busted and there was a capital exodus from
Israel, America took their African customers at the back. Now,
Netan talked to the Congress but get totally ignored. Oh dear. I
like to know what that particular part of congress, of course,
texans, owe to Israel.'

'I remember Obama before
becoming a president, visited the Iron Dome and got impressed.
There was a photo somewhere.'

'Anyway, I am glad that I do
not have an Israli lover any more. I was about to move into Tel
Aviv, wearing a white dress or something. I am glad I didn't have a
gut to do it. I was scared of too much heat. My physical comfort
comes first than anything else. Full stop. But is first love always
sad?'

09 Mar 2015

"Router fixing: Plug off
everything. Turn off everything. Then, start again. Press the
button until both LED are on. One stays still, another one
flickering in orange."

"Full moon today. Let's do some
howling, shall we?"

"22 bn of Beffett's. Where will it
go if he is not happy with us taxation? Someone has to prepare a
nice resort for him, don't you think?"

'The roads we have to take are a
bit different. Did you know that? But as far as we stay here
together, you are very precious too me.' (A relic from South Korean
pop song)

'Well... then... the face of US
embassadar was slashed...'

09 Mar 2015

"Router fixing: Plug off
everything. Turn off everything. Then, start again. Press the
button until both LED are on. One stays still, another one
flickering in orange."

"Full moon today. Let's do some
howling, shall we?"

"22 bn of Beffett's. Where will it
go if he is not happy with us taxation? Someone has to prepare a
nice resort for him, don't you think?"

'The roads we have to take are a
bit different. Did you know that? But as far as we stay here
together, you are very precious too me.' (A relic from South Korean
pop song)

'Well... then... the face of US
embassadar was slashed...'

06 Mar 2015

'You can make a mistake at every
aspect of your life and can apologize for it. But if you make a
mistake financially, you have to pay back.'

'If you show up your face again, I
will slash it around. I am ready for a phychiatric hospital. The
South Korean missed the embassador's eyes. I might not as I am not
blind any more. My left side is still a bit dodgy. Maybe that's why
I have to swing it around.'

'Then again, I had better get
Masao in London. He is so good at razor. You don't know who is
passing by and what happens to you. Your face stings a bit. You
touch your face. Blood everywhere. So fast and so sharp. Old
samurai stories? You will see. In old days, they could do that to
internal organs. That is a legendary story.'

"Masao, genki? Jotto hanashiga
arukedo..."

"Ohisashiburi. Mada
Londone..."

"Oke. Joodo yokatta. Terebi do
denwaga machigaiyooni mada dekkirukana?"

"Oikura?"

'Good old Masao. And London is a
perfect place. There are so many people.'

"John, whoever is off sick on
Monday is a leakier. Never mind. It will take a few months for him
or her to come back to the office."

"How could you let this happen? I
wish you take this more serious. It does not sound ok to me."

Reasoning: Fed fears recession.
They have been playing with interest rate for some time. If they
raise the interest rate, it is so obvious they will have another
morgage backed up securities bubbles. Why do they work their ass
off to make the dollar strong?

I am not sure but this is just a
common sense assumption. As an individual when you are in a deep
debt, you do not want to show it to creditors. You are trying to
earn some time to sort out somehow. So, you pretend as if you have
still lots of money. Ok, I am stupid. So, US dollar strong, I
think, their economy must be strong. In fact, it's not, is it? I
don't know why I come back to the idea of partial government
shutdown. I can not think of any other reason. There is something
to back up USD. That's very weird and artificial. Government
shutdown is so close to sovereign bankruptcy.

"Let's go down together and see
what can happen, John. I like sliding too. Come on! Let's go
down."

'Even though I am deeply mad
inside, if I don't express it, who will know or diagnose me? A
silent madder. Even my husband, Henry would say 'you seem a bit
quiet, what's up?''

'Nothing.'

"Who is in now? One hour. Anybody
in? I'm in."

08 Mar 2015

'Amazon website.

Go to Your Prime.

Click 'Do not continue' twice.

There is no Log out button.

So, go back to website home.

Go to Your Account.

Change name, email add and
password.

Email add which you will never
use.

And check the date, for example,
whether Amazon take the membership fee on 27/04 (my case) to make
sure that they discontinued it. Otherwise sue them. There must be a
group already, I bet.'

Another reason, why I hate
Americans so much. They are Offspring of hookers. Ooh La La.

"John, play with Amazon, not
Google. Amazon only. You can get something very nice for your mum.
Let's say at least 1 carat pink diamond, tear drop shape. Hope she
does not mind that it's too vulgar. I think the color is ok and the
size is delicate too."

'I am usually the last one to
notice something. Today, I noticed that what a sucker Amazon is.
Once I noticed it, I will kill it.'

2nd Week Mar 2015

09 Mar 2015

"Hi John, you made at least 12.5%
profit today, no? You can take it easy but I just came back. I am
thinking of cooking some fish pie based on Cod."

"And I made it. Very creamy.
Everybody had second helping!"

10 Mar 2015

"CIPS. RMB is coming. 9:10 system
activated."

"El-Bardi said OPEC will not
reduce the quantity of oil output in order to save the shale oil
industries."

'I did not know the shale oil
industries are dying. That's Texas, isn't it?'

"Just Roll."

"I met a very old friend from
Kanagawa. Where is Kanagawa? It's betweeen Hakone and Yokohama near
Tokyo."

"I said to her to use
Roitsubo.

She said

'How do you still remember the
name?'

I said

'It's my profession.'"

She is going back to Japan next
Monday.

Ana read some online news.

'Prudential CEO left for Credit
Suisse. Why did the stock price of prudential gain 14%?'

'Reviving a company reeling from
U.S. penalties and under increasing regulatory scrutiny
(Reuter)'

'Does this explain the 14%? I
misunderstood. Not the stock price. Just their profit of last year.
Anyway how can I burger off this Microsoft cloud add? They are 1.
useless 2. not fuctioning 3. annoying 4. going to be vanished
fairly soon because of MS OS system. Still quite interested in who
will replace the guy. Well... something is going on with Credit
Suisse. Kick off an American, take in a French in order to revive
the company.'

Ana started thinking...

'There was something funny with
Credit Suisse. Their client list was licked, wasn't it? People
wants to have swiss bank account for secrecy. Then, that's the end
of Credit Suisse, no? American, German or French, whoever takes it,
their credential is broken. Like a glass, once it's broken, it's
broken. Credit Suisse took a guy from an insurance company? Did
people start suing the bank already? There must be terms and
conditions which the bank promised. Will an insurance guy minimize
the damage? How much money can be involved in these nightmares of
law suits? All very rich and all very upset.'

'I can see the beginning of a
religion. Rely on us. We will help you.'

"ECB will not buy US 10yr bonds as
they are 10yr notes. Notes are not redeemable."

CIPS: China International Payments
System: Expected to be activated at Sep or Oct in order to
internationalize RMB (KCIF)