Unbroken Pleasures (15 page)

“You want me to
stay,” he said slipping his arms around my waist and locking my body tight
against his.

“I have so many
questions. I don’t know if I can even trust you.”

“You know me,”
he said placing a hand on the back of my head and looking into my eyes. I felt
dizzy and confused. He kissed me again and lingered against my lips. I enjoyed
the sensation of our mouths together and bodies so close. I ran my hands along
his chest, letting them trail over his stomach and along his waist. I felt a
tingle of excitement. I was standing in my bedroom alone with the stranger that
I had lusted over every day since I met him in the rain over a week ago. I felt
overwhelmed by desire not knowing where to begin.

“Wait,” I said
trying to break free from his hold, trying to regain some composure over my
senses. “We can’t do this.”

He slowly
allowed me to unravel from his arms but he didn’t move. I stepped back to allow
enough distance to remove the temptation to touch or kiss him again even though
my body screamed at me to give in to him. How could I let this man walk out of
my house a second time without sampling what I so desperately craved? I longed
to reach out and run my hands along the front of his jeans.

“I haven’t
stopped thinking about you since that night we met,” he said watching me as
though he could read the thoughts running through my mind.

“Why did you
come back?”

“Isn’t it
obvious?”

“Why now? Why
did it take you so long?”

“Maybe I’ve had
some of the same doubts that you’ve had,” he said, “but no matter what, I come
to one conclusion.”

“And what
exactly is that?”

“I need more.”

“I’m dating
someone now,” I said and then felt stupid for saying it. He sighed softly and
sat down on the edge of my bed. I waited for him to say something. The sexual
tension hung like a thick wall between us and I felt like I could barely hold
back. I opened my mouth to ask him to leave again but I couldn’t do it.

“I’m not asking
for anything,” he told me.

“I know.”

“Do you know why
I’m here?”

“No.”

“Because I can’t
stay away from you.”

“What were you
doing that night when we met in the rain?”

“You know what I
was doing.”

“You were
watching.”

“Yes. And so
were you.”

“I wasn’t. I
mean, I didn’t mean to. It’s not the sort of thing that I do.”

“Maybe it’s not
the sort of thing that I do either.”

“What do you
do?”

“I have a job, a
life, just like anyone else.”

“And a
girlfriend?”

“Does it
matter?” I could tell that he was studying me intently in the dim light, “You
have a boyfriend.”

“But I wasn’t
planning to…” I stopped. I couldn’t finish the thought. It wasn’t true that I
wasn’t planning to sleep with Reese. It’s the only thing that I wanted. The
more time that he spent sat in my bedroom, on my bed, the more dangerous this
situation became. How long could I resist reaching out to touch him? How long
could I endure not having his lips against mine? How could I let him walk out
that door without knowing the feel of his skin against mine? I shuddered with
the thought and hoped that he hadn’t noticed but I was pretty sure that he had.

“Your eyes tell
me everything I need to know. I saw the hunger in them when you kissed me.”

“Reese… this
isn’t a very good idea…”

But I wasn’t
going to tell him no. Whatever resolve I had felt when he first showed up at my
window had dissipated and the only thing that remained was him and me in the
night.

He closed the
distance between us in a single heartbeat and took both of my hands in one of
his large hands, pulling them up over my head as he pushed me against the wall
with my hands pinned over my head. Before I could dare to protest, he’d
smothered his mouth against mine and kissed me relentlessly. I made a feeble
attempt to pull away from him but we both knew that there was no turning back.

The weight of
his body crushed into mine and I moaned. His breath intermingled with mine as
we kissed each other. When he seemed satisfied that I wasn’t going to fight, he
let go of my hands so that he was free to explore my body with his. In one
smooth gesture, he yanked my nightgown up over my head and tossed it aside. I
tugged his shirt free from his pants and stroked the smooth muscles underneath.
He pushed my hands away and I opened my mouth to protest but he pulled his shirt
up over his head and tossed it next to my nightgown revealing his perfectly
toned chest. I longed to touch him, something that had been denied me during
our first encounter and completely absent from the dream that I’d had of him in
the restaurant. I wanted to caress every inch of his skin and never let go.

“Wait,” I
whispered, feeling his breath against my neck as he nuzzled into my ear.

“I can’t wait,”
he said.

He turned me
around and guided me into my bed which now felt foreign. I didn’t dare to move.
He guided me gently to my back with his shadow looming over me. I could feel
his breath against my face and even though he hadn’t even touched me, my entire
body trembled. I knew that he could feel it too. He stroked my arms softly as
though to calm me before he leaned closer to touch his lips to mine. I savored
the touch of his mouth and the taste of his tongue. My body ignited with
newfound desires that I could barely contain.

“Are you okay?”
he whispered, breaking our contact just enough to speak the words.

I couldn’t
speak. I only nodded in agreement and put my hands to the back of his head to
pull his lips to mine so that our connection would not be broken. I was
determined to hold on to him but I shouldn’t have feared that he would try to
leave me again so soon. Our passion consumed us and somehow we managed to tear
away the remainder of our clothes from each other’s bodies so that we were
finally flesh against flesh as I had dreamed we would be for what felt like an
eternity rather than days.

Pulling away, he
knelt down beside the bed and took my feet into his hands, massaging and
kissing his way up my legs, tracing the line of my inner thighs until I felt
like I was on fire. He softly manipulated the skin of my legs with his hands,
reaching up over my hips to the hyper sensitive area of skin just below my
belly button. He quickly covered my flesh with his mouth, licking and kissing
and then exploring more of my body until he worked his way back to my inner
thighs. I nearly exploded with a single touch of his tongue against my core. He
nuzzled and sucked until I was grasping the sheets. He stopped and I cried out
for him to continue. I didn’t know if I was in anguish, pain, or falling head
over heels in love with this man but I needed more and I was determined that I
would get it.

He spread my
legs wide and crawled into the bed to position himself between them and I felt
myself quiver again. He didn’t hesitate to lower himself and press into me. I
wrapped my legs around him and pulled him closer, knowing that as much as he
gave me, it would never be enough. We’d somehow absorbed each other with every
thrust, a feeling that was almost magical. I clung to him with all my strength
as if by doing so I could persuade this moment to never end even though I knew
I was already on the verge of climax.

I don’t know how
long this went on or how many times I must have reached orgasm in that one
single night but by the time I opened my eyes to Monday morning and an empty
space beside me in bed, I was in no state to actually face the day. One fact
that I could not deny, it had been the most incredible night of my life and I
was sure as I showered and dressed and left for work that the smile on my face
would stay there for a long time.

Chapter 14

All I could
think about was him, the way he’d touched me, and the way he’d made me feel. As
I worked through Monday, I felt as though I was floating on a cloud as I tried
to focus the best that I could on the steady stream of patients that I was
seeing that day. Mary kept prodding me with questions when we had a few moments
alone but I was reluctant to give any answers. Besides, I still didn’t know
exactly what I was dealing with here either. So, he’d showed up in my bedroom
last night and so what, he’d given me the most incredible experience of my
life. I wanted to hold on to some hope that it wouldn’t be the end of it. I
wasn’t sure exactly what I hoped it would become but at that moment, I was
willing to settle for just sex if it meant that the sex would go on to infinity.

Just before I
was ready to head out for a quick lunch break, I had an unfortunate jolt back
to reality. Mary knocked lightly on my office door while I checked the messages
on my phone one last time. There were no missed calls.

“There is
someone here to see you,” she said with a strange smile on her face.

“Oh?”

“I think you’re
going to be pretty happy,” Mary said with a wink.

My heart leapt
in my chest. I’d never talked about my work with Reese. How did he find me?
Mary saw how flustered I was as I grabbed my purse and fished out my compact
mirror to check my reflection.

“I can’t believe
he’s here,” I muttered. I couldn’t catch my breath. I’d just spent the night
with him completely naked and open but yet somehow facing him in the daylight
felt too overwhelming. I wasn’t sure if I could handle actually having a
conversation with him.

Mary leaned
against the doorway and folded her arms across her chest with a smug look on
her face.

“Well, well,
well, I always suspected there might be potential for the two of you but I
never thought I’d see the day you’d fall so head over heels like this.”

“What?” I asked
breathless. I dropped the compact mirror in the process and then breathed a
sigh of relief when I checked that it hadn’t broken. I wasn’t really
superstitious but why take the chance on seven years of bad luck?

“Look at you.
I’ve never seen you like this over a man, not even with that lousy ex of yours.
This Adam must be something pretty special to have that kind of effect on you.”

“Adam?
Wait…what?” I felt my heart sink into my stomach. Why hadn’t I even considered
the possibility that Adam might show up looking for me? He only lived right
around the corner after all. I shouldn’t have been surprised. It had been a few
days since we’d spoken and I knew that we still had that unfinished business
out there to attend to. I’d just been so caught up in my own little fantasy
world that I forgot to check back in to reality along the way.

The smile on
Mary’s face turned to confusion.

“I thought you
and Adam were dating?” she asked.

“We are, I’m
sorry, I just meant … of course, it’s Adam.”

“There is
someone else,” she said noticing the disappointment that I was certain I could
not hide from my face. I wanted to slam my head into the desk a few times to
put Reese out of my head but I had the sinking feeling that even that wouldn’t
help. For better or for worse, I’d gotten myself tangled in a mess and to think
that only a month ago, I didn’t even have a date. I sighed heavily.

“No, of course
not,” I lied as I left the office with Mary close behind me. No doubt she would
be watching my interaction with Adam closely for clues as to what was really
going on with me.

I smiled
probably a bit too enthusiastically when I saw him in the far corner of the
reception area with Tiger on a leash looking nervous as he sniffed around at
the scents left by my previous patients.

“Adam! What a
nice surprise. What are you doing here?”

He closed the
gap between us and kissed me lightly on the lips. I could feel Mary’s eyes
boring into my back when he pulled away.

“I had some free
time and I know that you usually go out to lunch around this time so I thought
maybe you’d like some company from Tiger and me.”

“That would be
wonderful,” I said although I couldn’t help feeling a sting of disappointment.
I had been planning on using the free time to reflect and relive the amazing
night I’d had. Spending the afternoon with Adam would mean an hour of pretending
that it never happened.

I played tug of
war with my conscience as we walked to the deli shop a few blocks from my
office. A part of me felt obligated to tell him that there was someone else
while another part of me felt that it was still too early in our relationship
to expect that we wouldn’t be seeing other people.

Reese was my own
little experiment in a world of sex where I’d been too afraid to dabble before.
I didn’t know at this point what exactly that meant but I wasn’t willing to let
go until I figured it out. Adam didn’t need to know about it and if I really
wanted to go all out in the art of rationalization, I could say that Adam may
actually end up benefiting from my new experience. That part actually made me
feel guiltier though so I let it drop and tried to focus on the conversation.
He was going on about something at work that had him a bit stressed.
Apparently, taking a break, getting some air, and seeing me were all part of
his plan to de-stress.

We sat side by
side on a bench outside the sandwich shop and enjoyed our lunch, which I
admitted was nowhere near as good as the sandwiches that he’d made during our
first picnic lunch together. Tiger didn’t seem to mind, however, and was
grateful when Adam tossed him a bite now and again.

I felt his arm
around my shoulders as I sipped my Coke. His fingertips grazed my arm lightly
reminding me of the morning in his kitchen and I flushed with embarrassment. I
felt like I should apologize but I didn’t know where to start or what to say.

“How was lunch
with your mom and sister?” I asked. I could tell by the look in his eyes that
he’d been thinking about that day as well but probably not about his family.