Vain (35 page)

But then I reminded myself that I deserved it even from a group as selfish and unaware as that one because I’d created them. I’d never really regretted anything I’d done before Masego but I certainly regretted many after.
              “So, Africa?” Victoria asked, her valley girl accent laughingly pronouncing it Africaw.
              “Yes,” I told their riveted stares, hoping one word answers would suffice.
              “Did, you, like, see lions and shit?” Graham asked.
              “Occasionally,” I told them.
              “Which one, lions or shit?” he added as if he was clever.
              “Both.”
              “Is that, like, why you look like you do right now?” Sav asked, making the table erupt in laughter.
              “What? Comfortable? Or without a nauseatingly noticeable amount of couture on?”
              “Did your dad lose all his money?” Sav needled, ignoring my own questions.
              “Not that I know of,” I stated.
              “You’re in serious need of a makeover,” Victoria added, her fingernails outlining a box around my face.
              “I’ve just had one,” I implied, referring to my heart and soul.

They each looked amongst themselves and pretentiously and silently acknowledged with single looks exactly what they now thought of me, except for Spencer. Spencer seemed blissfully unaware what jackasses they all were but he was clearly aware of how uncomfortable I was.

              “Sophie and I have to go, guys.”
He stood abruptly laying a few bills on the table and escorted me from my seat. As we left, a burst of repugnant laughter resounded from the table all at once. My shoulders sank into themselves but Spencer wrapped his arm around me and righted me.

“You broke the cycle,” he whispered in disbelief, his eyes bright with admiration.
 

CHAPTER
TWENTY-SEVEN
 

             
I’d been home two days and I had yet to see my parents. I couldn’t tell if it’d been because I was practically living in my bed, more depressed than I could have ever imagined missing Ian, or because they couldn’t be bothered to come by and see me even though I’d been gone for months.
              My heartfelt heavy the morning of the second, knowing I would have to appear in court, in front of Reinhold. I woke, dressed in jeans and a t-shirt, not giving a crap. I knew I would be thrown in jail that day. This was the moment Reinhold had been waiting for.

The courtroom was exactly as I remembered it.
Cold and desolate and devoid of hope. It felt as if my breath was sucked from my chest the second I placed a foot inside. I met Pembrook as his table and sat.

“This is a simple hearing,” he told me, arranging his satchel on the table. He poured me a glass of water and set it down in front of me. “The judge will state what you’re accused of and you will enter a plea, which, of course, will be a “not guilty”. I advise you not to say a word.”

“Pembrook,” I told him, taking in his stark appearance, “for once, can you not act as my “attorney” here?”

He smiled gently. “Stay quiet, love. I’ll take care of everything.”

This made my heart ache but I nodded my consent.
Take care of everything. Everything but the everything I want back
.
Reinhold stepped into the room, his robes billowing out from behind him. Immediately, I wanted to vomit.
              “All rise,” the bailiff said, “This court is now in session, the Honorable Judge Francis Reinhold presiding.”
              Reinhold sat and we followed suit. He began to filter through paper documents behind his bench and the quiet was deafening. My hands began to shake so I tucked them into my sides and stared at my feet. I glimpsed behind me when the doors opened and Spencer walked in, waving and sitting on a bench directly behind me. He was the only presence there but it was comforting enough that it allowed my body to calm a bit. I was still shaking but the nausea was gone.
              “Sophie Price,” Reinhold’s voice boomed. He looked right at me and pierced me with a penetrating gaze, “You’re accused of violating the terms of your sentence. How do you plea?”
              Pembrook and I stood. “My client pleads not guilty,” Pembrook announced.
              “I see. What say you, Prosecution?”
              “Your Honor,” the prosecutor said, addressing the court, “we move to dismiss Miss Price as time served.”

My breath whooshed from my lungs all at once I began to choke.
Pembrook comically slapped at my back to get me to breathe, shrugging toward Reinhold. Reinhold pinned me with a look that screamed
check yourself!
I coughed back my choking and pinned my lips together.

             
“Would you care to explain?” he asked the prosecutor.
              “Yes, we’d like to call a witness to the stand, Your Honor.”
              “Were you aware of this?” he asked Pemmy.
              “No, Your Honor.”
              “And do you object?”
              “If the prosecution moves to dismiss then my client and I are comfortable with their witness.”
Reinhold was quiet for a moment, contemplating whether he would allow the witness and I held my breath.
              “Proceed,” he said. “You may sit, Defense.”
Pembrook and I sat.
              “Pemmy, who is it?” I asked under my breath.
              “I’ve honestly no idea,” he said
              Just then, the doors opened and I thought my eyes were deceiving me. I blinked slowly before wiping my eyes. When I reopened them, I discovered what I’d only thought was an illusion.
Ian.
I’d stood and begun to run toward him but Pemmy stayed me with an arm. He shook his head back and forth and I was forced to sit. Seeing him for the first time since I’d left felt incredible yet overwhelming. I needed his touch but simultaneously, I was so afraid he still meant what he’d said. I didn’t want to know but I was desperate to know at the same time.
              He moved toward the witness stand with only a brief glance my direction, spearing me in the gut. When he approached the witness stand, the bailiff approached him, bible in hand.
              “Place your right hand on the bible,” the bailiff ordered and Ian complied. “State your name,” he said.
              “Ian Aberdeen.”
              “You do solemnly state that the testimony you may give in the cause now pending before this court shall be the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth, so help you God?”
              “I do.”
I gulped audibly.
              “Mister Aberdeen,” the prosector began, “what is your position at the Ugandan orphanage Masego?”
              “I’m technically a teacher there but I suppose you could also consider me a jack of all trades. I mend fences, birth the occasional calf, assist in medical emergencies, that sort of thing.”
              “Were you present at Masego for the lenght of Miss Price’s stay?”

“I was.”

“And are you an authorized representative of Masego?”

             
“Yes, I am.”
              “Tell the court then, Mister Aberdeen, your experience with Miss Price during her stay at Masego.”
              “The day Sophie came to Uganda,” he began...
              For the next hour and a half, Ian told our entire story to the court leaving out the part where we fell madly for one another. It was an incredible story to hear all at once and I found myself crying at the tale. I peered around me and noticed there didn’t seem to be a dry eye in the room. But he never once made eye contact throughout the entire thing and that wounded my already bleeding heart. He was going to help me, yes, but he wanted nothing to do with me beyond saving my hide.
              When he was done, the prosecution dismissed him and he sat on the opposite side of the courtroom to await Judge Reinhold’s decision. I looked on him, begging him to glance my direction but his stare at the front of the courtroom was unmoving.
              “
Sophie
?” I heard.
              I turned to Reinhold. “Uh, I’m sorry, did you say something?” I asked him.
              Reinhold breathed deeply. With a brief tap of his gavel, “I dismiss your case as time served. You’re free to go, Miss Price.” Reinhold stood and the rest of the courtroom followed suit. He made a move to go but stopped himself. “Before I leave, Miss Price” he said, turning toward me, “know this, yours is the most satisfying punishment I’ve ever given.” He inclined his head out of respect and I nodded once in return.
              When Reinhold was gone, I turned, ready to run Ian’s direction. I sprinted around the table, pushing chairs out of my way, my heart jumping into my throat without ever taking my stare off his heavenly face.

Everyone rushed me at once, congratulating me and attempting to hug me. Spencer bombarded me, kissing my cheek, and picking me up. I struggled to get down, still staring Ian’s direction. Finally, he made brief eye contact before walking through the double doors and out of my eyesight.

I broke free and ran for him.

“Ian! Ian!” I kept shouting before a passing officer ordered me quiet.

I ran the length of the corridor but he was nowhere to be found. I pressed the elevator button for the first floor but was too impatient watching it slowly ascend for me so I ripped open the fire exit door and ran the four flights to the ground floor. I was panting when I burst from the door on that floor. My eyes searched for him throughout the marble lobby. He wasn’t there. I rushed to the wide, wood entrance doors and out onto the descending steps. I discovered him just as he entered a taxi. I sprinted down the steps calling out his name and waving my arms over my head but he was gone. My disappointment was crushing. I fell hard to the bottom of the steps and sobbed into my hands.

“Why did he just take off like that?” Spencer asked coolly beside me, looking the direction he’d fled. I peered up at him. His hands rested in his pockets.

“Because he thought I betrayed him,” I said.

He tore his gaze away from the street and observed me below him. “You didn’t?” he asked.

“No, I-I was blackmailed.”

“Scandalous,” he said, bending to sit beside me. He leaned back on his elbows. He looked back out toward the street, avoiding eye contact. “You’re in love with him,” he stated as fact.

“Yes.”

Spencer sighed, turning toward me. “Then what the hell are you doing here, Sophie Price?”

“I don’t know where he’s staying,” I explained.

“And when has something as small as that ever stopped a whirlwind force like you, girl?”

I smiled at him.
              “Never,” I told him truthfully. His smile faltered a bit. “I’m sorry, Spence.”
              He shook his head. “Don’t, babe,” he said, winking. “They’re all lined up. They’re waiting for me as we speak,” he said, extending his arm.
He teased but the sadness there troubled me. I loved Spence so much but knew I couldn't say as much, that it would be cruel. So I just smiled at him, shoving my shoulder into his.
              He picked himself up and dusted the back of his pants off. I stood and threw my arms around him. “Sophie Price, you’ll be the one that got away, I’m afraid,” he spoke into my ear. He pulled away. “You know how to solve that problem?” he joshed. I shook my head no. “With bigger problems.”
              He kissed my cheek and stalked off, twirling his keys in his hand and whistling as he made his way to his car.             
 

CHAPTER
TWENTY-EIGHT