Broken (The Onyx Wolves Book 2) (4 page)

I don’t push him away.

Instead I run my thumb over the scar on his eyebrow before pulling his face towards mine for a deep, passionate, kiss.

Everything abruptly fades away as I wake up with a jolt.

I sit up in my bed and pant for my next breath.

My eyes drift over to where Blue was sitting up in his bed panting for his own breath.

My eyes widen as I take in the look of want in his eyes as he glances over towards me.

Next to me London moves and I look down at him alarmed before turning my attention back towards Blue.

He was standing now and quickly slipping on a shirt.

Not a word is said between us as he looks towards me once more before leaving the room altogether.

What had happened between us couldn’t have been real.

It just wasn’t possible to share thoughts like that.

My mind had just run away with itself, that had to be it, and we had woken up together because something had startled us both.

That was the only explanation that I could come up with.

To think it was anything else was dangerous.

T
he next morning was less than graceful.

Running under the full moon with London hadn’t stopped my mind from working in overdrive. I just couldn’t stop thinking about the dream that I had had.

My heart had pounded in my chest every time I had closed my eyes to relive it.

When London and I had called it a night and went back into our room to lay back down my eyes had met Blue’s as he lay in his bed across from me.

We didn’t say a word to each other. We had just stared into each other’s eyes until I had drifted off into a deep peaceful sleep.

Groaning I stretch my hands over my head before turning towards London who was sitting up in the bed reading something on his phone.

He grunts as I stretch again.

But as I realize the undress I was in he does too and looks towards me with wide eyes. “When did you get undressed?” He questions as his eyes heat.

I shake my head and try to think of when I had done it. “I honestly have no clue.”

London’s hands quickly move under the blankets but before he could touch me I jump out from under the covers to stand on my feet.

London smirks triumphantly as I try and fail to cover my bare body.

I try to grab for the blankets but he pulls them away from my grasp.

In a last ditch effort to escape him I run straight into the bathroom and slam the door shut in his face before locking it.

I turn around and close my eyes as I let out a deep sigh of relief.

That relief is cut short when someone coughs awkwardly in the room with me.

“You have got to be kidding me.” I groan before opening my eyes to look at Blue as he stands wide-eyed and frozen in shock at the sink with a toothbrush in his mouth.

His eyes roam over my body for a moment before he grunts and closes his eyes.

“Come on out, Parker. You have to get your clothes somehow.” London teases from the other side of the door.

I snort and try to cover myself.

“Just hand me my clothes and stop playing this game, London.” I clip out as I turn my back towards Blue and open the door just enough to peek out at London.

He only waves my clothes in the air from his spot on the bed.

Slamming the door shut again I groan and turn back around.

This time as I turn I come face to face with Blue.

He doesn’t say a word as we stare into each other’s eyes.

Want and need was clearly written on his face but anger was held deep within his eyes. He didn’t understand any of this any more than I did.

We were supposed to be enemies.

Blue’s eyes suddenly harden before his hand comes up to wrap around my neck. He moves his mouth towards my ear and breaths heavily for a moment before speaking to me. “Stay the hell out of my head, wolf.”

His warning both shocked and scared me.

It confirmed my fears that we had been sharing the same visions and it proved that we were somehow connected.

With his hand still at my throat Blue moves swiftly to place his lips against mine.

He kisses me with as much passion as Gage would have before he pushes back and then lets me free from his grasp.

I gasp for my breath and move away from the door before rushing back through it not caring one bit to be naked in front of London.

London sits up immediately alarmed as I snatch my clothes from his hands and hide behind him as I quickly put them on.

“What happened…?” London begins but trails off as Blue walks out of the bathroom.

He turns towards me. “Did he hurt you?”

I shake my head as I glance towards Blue. “No, he didn’t hurt me.”

London then turns his attention back towards Blue. “I swear to god if you hurt her I will kill you myself.”

Blue snarls. “Just keep her the hell away from me.”

With that Blue walks out of our room leaving me and London alone.

“What the hell happened in there, Parker?” London demands as he lifts my chin up to look at him.

“Nothing happened, he just scared me. I didn’t realize he was in there with me.” I lie.

He could clearly see that I was lying to him.

“You are pushing your luck with me, Parker. I don’t want to do something drastic in order to keep you away from him but you’re honestly giving me no other choice.” London growls frustrated.

“He doesn’t want to be near me, isn’t that enough?” I whimper as his hand clamps down onto the back of my neck.

London shakes his head. “You need to stay away from him too, Parker. It goes both ways.”

“I will.” I promise.

Searching my eyes for a moment London nods his head and lets me free. “I’m going to watch you and if I think for even a moment you two are getting close I will fix the problem.”

I nod my head in understanding.

His warning was loud and clear.

If I didn’t stop whatever was between me and Blue then he would by taking away my freedom, London would make me his.

Slipping on my socks and then boots I grab my keys to my bike and move to the door. “I’m going to go for a ride to clear my mind, okay?”

London nods as he sits on the edge of the bed. “Don’t be gone too long.”

I nod my head and then leave the room behind making my way towards the front where my bike was calling my name.

Hopping on it I look up just in time to catch glimpse of Blue as he watches me through the front window of the main office.

He quickly looks away and I start the bikes engine before taking off down the road.

The wind blows through my hair as I ride along the roads absently. I didn’t care where I was going or where I would end up.

I just needed time and space to think.

Of course I couldn’t pull my mind away from Blue.

Before I know it I’m pulling into a familiar cemetery. It was the one where Titus had buried Gage’s body.

I stop my bike and get off of it before moving towards Gage’s grave.

It was hard to miss with the large wolf statue standing guard over it.

Kneeling down I press my fingers into the dirt that yet had to grow any grass over it.

His headstone held a photo of him in it.

Reaching out I trace my finger over his lips.

“I’m so sorry.” I whisper softly. “I feel like I’ve lost my entire world. I wish you were here to tell me what to do next, I’m so lost.”

“Why are feeling lost?” Titus asks suddenly from behind me.

I turn to him and begin to tear up.

Reaching back I feel for the marks that should have been left from London but they were no longer there which meant I was feeling everything, raw and unfiltered.

He holds his arms out to me and I quickly move into them.

“Things are a mess, Titus.” I whimper.

He sighs softly as his hands run over my hair. “You know you can tell me anything, Parker. I won’t judge you.”

I nod and look up to the man who had become like a second father to me. “Did you ever have any other sons?” I ask.

Titus closes his eyes for a moment before opening them back up while nodding his head. “I did have another son. He was born to a human mother. He was born a year before Gage was born, why do you ask?”

“I think I found him.” I begin. “And I think I have some sort of connection with him.”

Titus breathes out slowly. “That could cause problems.”

I nod in agreement. “It already has that and the fact that he’s a Hunter.”

Titus curses as he takes in my admission. “I never wanted him anywhere near this life, damn it.”

“He doesn’t seem to know anything else but the Hunter’s life. He explained that wolves like us killed his family.” I explain. “Pops told me that they are searching for a sister of his who I’m guessing is also a Hunter.”

Again, Titus curses. “This is truly a mess.”

I nod my head. “What do I do, Titus? Why am I feeling a connection to him?”

“It has been heard of but only on a rare occasion. Sometimes it’s the blood that draws a true mate near. It might be the fact that the same blood that flowed through Gage’s blood flows through this Hunter’s blood.” Titus replies.

It sort of made sense but it brought up so many other questions.

“We shared a dream.” I blurt.

At this information Titus’s eyes go wide. “Did you ever share that kind of connection with Gage?” He asks.

I shake my head. “No, that’s something we didn’t have between us.”

Titus turns his back to me for a moment before turning around. Placing his hands gently against my cheeks he sighs softly. “Then the bond between you and Gage wasn’t a true bond. It was close but you may actually have a true bond with this Hunter.”

“How is it possible when I feel this much pain for Gage?” I whimper as I rub my chest over my heart.

Titus smiles sadly. “Sometimes a broken heart can hurt just as badly.”

“But what will I do considering he is human and a Hunter? It’s against all of our laws for me to be with him unless he is an alpha and a wolf.” I question.

“Let me figure that out for you, Parker. I’ll see what the Great Books have to say and I will come to you when I figure out a way.” Titus replies as he pulls me close for another hug.

As we part I turn and look to Gage’s grave. “Do you think he would want me to move on?”

“He would want you to be happy.” Titus replies.

I nod and close my eyes. “I wish he was still here.”

“He is and will always be in your heart no matter what happens.” Titus replies as he pats my shoulder in a comforting way.

“I must get back before London misses me.” I sigh after a brief moment of silence.

“Be careful until I figure things out for you, Parker.” Titus orders.

I nod once and walk over to Gage’s headstone before placing my hand against the cool grey stone.

A moment later I walk towards my bike with a heavy heart.

There was no way to know what was going to happen next but at least I wasn’t completely alone, I wasn’t going to be on my own.

And I wouldn’t be lost forever.

There was hope.

T
he whole ride back towards the hotel my heart remains heavy.

Parking my bike in the back of the hotel I slowly make my way towards my room.

My hand pauses over the knob for a moment before I turn it and walk in.

I look around quickly and spot Blue in his bed, but he wasn’t alone. There was a blonde haired girl lying under him.

Frozen in shock I watch with my heart breaking in two as Blue looks back at me with a glare.

Thankfully London grabs me and yanks me back out of the room before slamming the door shut.

The damage had already been done though.

And I suddenly had to hide that pain behind the pain I still felt for Gage’s loss.

The odd thing was that Gage’s loss was becoming bearable.

I could handle the pain that his death had caused which meant one thing.

Our bond hadn’t been a true one.

London tugs me along towards the front of the hotel before someone hands him a bottle of alcohol.

I snatch it from his hand and down half of the bottles contents before following London inside a room with a group of other Hunters.

Two of them were familiar.

“It’s about time you joined us, little sister.” Alex slurs as he wraps his arm around my shoulder.

I shake my head and grab the glass of alcohol from his hand before swallowing it down.

If I had any hopes of getting the image of Blue with another girl out of my mind it was going to have to be drowned out by alcohol.

London slips me a fresh bottle of alcohol and I grin to him as he places his arm possessively around my waist.

I was going to try and enjoy this as much as possible.

Music begins to surround us as we laugh and sing along while getting drunk.

London moves closer as the night moves on.

It felt good to be wanted by him, but it still felt wrong.

Feeling drunk I sway on my feet. “I have to go to the bathroom.” I slur.

London nods and begins to lead the way but I stop him. “I can go on my own. I’ll be right back, I promise.”

He grins and nods before pulling me in for a long kiss before letting me go again.

Laughing I walk slowly through the room and outside before making my way around the building.

I don’t know why I wasn’t using a nearby bathroom but I had the need for privacy.

The thought of Blue still being with that other girl doesn’t hit me until I turn the knob to our room and walk in.

Thankfully no one is in either of the beds.

Swaying slightly I make my way through our room and into the bathroom.

Before I can even get to the toilet my legs give out and I crumble to the floor.

I laugh and fight to get to my feet before strong arms lift me back up to stand.

“London, I told you I could do this on my own.” I argue.

“Think again, wolf.” Blue’s voice rings out in response.

I groan. “Why can’t I have a little bit of luck on my side?”

Blue snorts as he turns me around to face him. “Exactly what are you trying to do?”

I give him a goofy grin. “I have to pee.”

He smirks. “That’s attractive.”

I nod and then try to unbutton my jeans to pull them down.

I didn’t have a care in the world about who saw me. I just needed to go to the bathroom.

When I fail at getting the button undone I growl.

“Let me help you.” Blue grunts and quickly unbuttons my pants for me before tugging them down my thighs.

His eyes remain on mine the entire time until he pushes me back to sit down on the toilet.

I lean forward and close my eyes as I go.

“You are completely wasted, aren’t you?” Blue asks.

I nod my head and then almost fall off the seat.

“How much did you drink? I didn’t think wolves could get drunk this easily.” Blue then inquires as he holds me upright.

Holding up my hand I tick off the drinks that I had had. “I had two bottles of vodka, a bottle of jack, and then a bottle of something that glittered.”

Blue scoffs in disbelief. “You had whole bottles?”

I nod and then try standing to my feet. Blue once again holds me steady as I take care of myself and then pull up my pants the best that I could.

Blue then buttons my jeans for me before I try to push past him.

“Hold on, Parker, you can’t leave. You’re too drunk and you’ll get yourself hurt.” Blue grunts as he stops me.

I laugh harshly. “You already hurt me enough today.” I admit against my better judgment.

“I didn’t want to hurt you.” He whispers.

Shaking my head I push my way past him so I could at least get to my bed.

Stumbling a little I make it to the edge of my bed before sitting down. “Let me guess, you didn’t want to hurt me but you had to, am I right?”

“It’s for the best. I’m not who you want me to be and I will never be him. I see the way you look at me.” Blue replies.

“I know you’re not him. You will never be half the person he was. He loved me no matter what. I went through heaven and hell to get to him.” I yell. “I went to the depths of hell to pull him out only to have him killed right in front of me.”

“A Hunter just like you killed him with a single shot, and as much as I should hate every Hunter out there for what happened to him, I don’t.” I cry.

“I should hate you.” I then growl as I stand to my feet and get into his face.

Tears flow freely down my cheeks as I look deep into his eyes. “I should hate you for looking like him, but I don’t.”

Once that confession is out I fall back to my bed and place my head into my hands as I begin to sob. “I hate me. I hate who I am, and I hate the hole in my heart.”

Suddenly London bursts into the room and snarls at Blue. “I told you to stay away from her.”

“I did, she was just drunk and needed my help.” Blue replies.

Grabbing onto London’s hand I pull his attention towards me. “I’m fine, just really drunk.” I reassure.

Tugging him down on the bed next to me I grab him into a hug as I look at Blue over his shoulder. “Make me yours like you did before.” I whisper into London’s ear.

He pulls back to look into my eyes. “Why, why do you want that now after you’ve fought me on it so many times before, what’s changed?”

I answer him while staring right at Blue. “Because I can’t live like this anymore, I need to belong to someone.”

London glances back to Blue before shaking his head. “I will only do it if you ask me when you’re sober.”

Growling out in frustration I shove London away before laying back on my bed.

Within moments I close my eyes and drift off to sleep but not before I hear London and Blue talking together softly.

“She is a mess.” London sighs.

“I messed up earlier. I didn’t think that it would affect her like this, I thought it would force her away from me, to make her realize I’m not her mate.” Blue replies.

“She knows you’re not, there’s something else going on.” London sighs and the bed dips next to me. “There has to be more to it, she knows our laws.”

Their words fade as I fall deeper into the darkness.

G
roaning I wake up and toss London’s arm away from my body before slowly sitting up on the edge of our bed.

My head was pounding.

Moving slowly I walk into the bathroom and strip down before making my way into the shower.

I needed the hot water to sooth my body.

With my hands against the wall I close my eyes and think about what I had said and done.

I had confessed too much.

There was only one real way out of this and I needed to push Blue as far away from me as I could.

I could chalk everything that I had said to him up to me just being drunk.

Making up my mind I shut the water off and climb out of the shower before drying my body off quickly.

Quietly I make my way back out to my bed before slipping under the covers naked.

London stirs a little but with a few soft strokes of my hands he comes to life and snuggles his nose into my neck to take a deep breath.

His hands slide down my body and set every inch of me on fire.

I moan softly and he quickly covers my lips with his to keep me quiet.

Moving quickly he strips out of his clothing and then climbs over me.

His yellow eyes flash in the low light of the room as he looks down at me for my response. “Are you sure you want to do this, Sweetheart?”

I nod and glance over at Blue’s sleeping form. “Make me yours.”

London smiles and moves with one smooth motion deep inside of me.

A loud moan falls from my lips before either of us can cover it up. It’s just enough to wake Blue up from his sleep.

He sits up for a moment as he rubs his eyes until they land on me and my position under London.

London moves again and I throw my head back as another moan falls from my lips.

I close my eyes as my heart breaks as the door to our room opens and then slams shut with Blue’s departure.

It was like placing a knife through my own heart.

“It’s for the best.” London reassures softly as he moves again.

Soon he reaches his hand to the back of my neck before his claws dig in deep.

“I love you, Sweetheart.” London grins.

“I love you too.” I reply as my heart warms with love for the wolf in front of me.

Any thoughts of others fade away so only the bond between us remained.

“That’s my girl.” London sighs happily as he brings me to the peak of bliss before pushing me over the edge.

I cry out with pleasure as he rides the waves with me.

As we finish I snuggle into London’s arms both feeling content and empty at the same time.

My heart felt as if it was longing for someone else.