Captivated by Your Love (The Blue Heart Series Book 2) (2 page)

Me: This morning isn’t good for me. I’m actually not feeling very well.

That would buy me some time. I would get them out of the house and then maybe I wouldn’t see Jensen until tonight when I could wash the smell of sex from my body and paint on a different face. And that was what I was doing when I was with him. I wore a mask to try and be the perfect girlfriend. The girlfriend that I knew he wanted.

My phone chimed again.

“For the love of God could someone just make this nightmare stop.” I looked at the text again. Yup, wasn’t getting out of this situation very easily.

Jensen: Be there in twenty better get your ass up and ready. You can be sick later.

He really wasn’t the nicest guy. I felt my stomach drop. How did I ever end up with him? The thing was I knew there were better guys out there. The way Justice treated me was a good example of that. Reeve had been so sweet and gentle as well. It was obvious they were raised right. I had met their parents and they were good people. Sydney spoke highly of them. I knew in my heart I should be with someone more like them.

I felt a presence over my shoulder and then I heard a growl again.

“He’s coming over here now?” Justice asked.

“Damn you. Quit reading my texts will you? Nosey.” I shoved him with an elbow into his gut and I felt a whisper of breath hit my back. I had packed a little mustard into it.

I climbed off the bed and went around to Reeve’s side. He was still lying down just staring at nothing; probably looking at the ceiling, if I had to guess. His eyes met mine and he smiled. I looked down at myself and realized why. I wasn’t wearing a stitch of clothing. I was butt naked standing before Reeve while he assessed me.

I wasn’t shy about my body. Unlike most women who were modest and self-conscious, I loved my body. Justice and Reeve had been over so much to hang out at the house that I was used to them so there was a comfort there. But he didn’t have to gawk at me. I didn’t have time to worry about him looking at me like he wanted to devour me. I needed to get his ass up and out.

Rolling my eyes at him, I reached down, took his hand in mine and used all my strength to get him up. I wasn’t exactly big so I had to put all my muscles into it. “Alright, Reeve, time to get up and get out. Up you go.” But when I pulled on him he pulled harder, causing me to fall on top of him. My breasts hit his face and I felt him bite my nipple. I quickly jumped off of him but his hand lingered. I slapped it away.

“Stop, now up you go.” But I won’t lie, that little nipple bite made my pussy tingle a little and my nipples grow hard.

“Oh alright. I need to get to the hospital anyway.” Great, one down, one to go. Now I know it won’t be this easy to get Justice out of here. I had a feeling I was in for the fight of my life.

I quickly made it to the other side of the bed and grabbed Justice by the hand, but when I pulled he did the same thing–– he pulled me down on top of him. Our faces were mere inches apart and my eyes flickered up to his, holding his gaze. I gasped. Being so close to him set my body on fire. I felt it deep in my belly. This man could be my complete and utter undoing. There were so many things I wanted to say. I wanted to tell him to stay and that I wanted to get to know him better. I wanted him to continue to be possessive with me. But most of all I wanted to slip under the covers with him and have my wicked way with him without Reeve. He had been amazing last night and I wanted to experience that again. But I couldn’t. I was now in the biggest pickle of my life. I was post threesome with two naked men in my bedroom and my boyfriend was going to be here in less than twenty minutes.

I quickly broke eye contact with him. I looked over my shoulder to see Reeve was just slipping on his shirt and already had on his jeans. I thanked God. I turned back to Justice. “Alright you need to get your ass up and leave,” I said rather sternly. If I was going to have any luck I needed to give it to him straight and stay firm.

He just looked at me and then kissed me tenderly on the tip of my nose. I inhaled deeply and felt shivers course down my spine. What he did to me. He was like my own personal aphrodisiac. I was heady with his scent and feeling him all around me as our bodies pressed into one another. I looked to the clock and knew I had to get my shit together. I quickly rolled off of him and this time I grabbed him by the leg.

“Justice, I’m serious, you need to get the hell up.” This time he rolled over and sat up on the edge of the bed. He just sat there staring at me.

“Quit looking at me like that.” Damn the way he was looking at me made my entire body spasm.

“How exactly am I looking at you, Abbee?” He smiled at me, still not removing his eyes from me. It was like he was seeing inside my soul. Like he knew that I really didn’t want him to leave. It was like he had all of the answers to all of my problems, even the ones I didn’t know I had.

“It’s Bee and you need to get up and get dressed like your brother is. Please and thank you.” I left him sitting there and walked over to my dresser and got a pair of panties out, and then leaned down and pulled open a drawer to get a pair of shorts out. But when I leaned down I felt him at my back his warm cock pressing firmly against me. It took everything in my power not to throw him back down on the bed. I tore myself away from him and went and stood on the other side of the room.

“This, you and me.” I pointed to him. “It’s over. It was one night full of fun. Now it is time for you to leave.” I huffed out an exasperated breath.

“I’m not leaving. Reeve, suit yourself.”

Reeve walked to me, gave me a hug, and kissed me on the cheek.

“Thanks, Bee, I’ll see you soon.” He opened the door and exited and I prayed he would go unnoticed by my roommates. I would have a lot of explaining to do. Oh, who was I fooling? The more I thought about it the more I couldn’t wait to tell Sydney. She was going to die, but in a good way. I admired Reeve in the way he was a nice guy and followed my instructions. This is the way things were supposed to go down and apparently he had gotten the memo, but Justice was another story. I took my hands and placed them on my hips and gave him a glare.

“Justice, you have 2.5 seconds to get your ass dressed and out of my room or I’m going to go get Damien and have him remove you.” That was totally an empty threat. I wasn’t going to go get Damien. Plus with the way Justice was built, all fine lines and hard muscles, he could clearly take Damien. He had the perfect body. One that I wanted to lick all over.

He just smirked at me. Fucker. “I’ll get dressed but I’m not going anywhere. I told you, you are mine. When your boyfriend gets here I’m telling him to get lost.”

I huffed out a breath again. I could feel my face heat up as I clenched my fingers into my palms and rolled my head around. I was tight. “Justice, get your shit on and get out.”

“Why the hell are you acting all bitchy to me?” He bent over and grabbed his shirt. Thank God he was finally getting the message.

“I’m not. I just can’t have you here when Jensen gets here.” Damn, I was running out of time and was really going to be cutting this one close. “And I’m not a bitch.”

“Then quit acting like one.” He bent down, picking up his jeans and shimmied them up his legs.

I walked over to my dresser and grabbed a shirt out and threw it on over myself, sans bra. At this rate I was doing good just to get clothes on before Jensen got here. Granted, I smelled like sex. I grabbed a bottle of perfume of my dresser and spritzed myself with it hoping it would help, but all I felt was hopeless at the moment. “Fuck my life, I smell like sex, Justice.”

“You smell perfect, like me.” He walked over and sniffed me. The thing is, I kinda liked his smell on my body. I sniffed one last time and deeply inhaled his scent.

Looking over my shoulder, I noticed Justice went back to getting ready and was slipping on his shoes. I wanted to do a happy dance I was so excited. Hopefully I would get myself out of this sticky-ass situation. He stood up from the bed and walked over to me he slipped his arms around me and brought his mouth to mine. I didn’t stop him this time. Despite my morning breath I kissed him back. I didn’t know if this would be the last time I had the opportunity and I didn’t want to regret it for the rest of my life.

He fisted his hand in my hair and I grabbed him behind his neck, holding on to him for dear life while he deepened our kiss. It was sweet, wet and full of so much emotion. I didn’t want to let him go. I wanted to stay wrapped up in his arms and brave Jensen together. I wanted to tell Jensen that I wasn’t his and that I was Justice’s like I had clearly told him last night. I wanted to be his. To be owned and possessed by him. But I couldn’t.

I was getting so lost in our kiss and thoughts of a life with Justice that I didn’t hear the door crack open.

“Bee?”

“Bee, can I come in?” It was Sydney. Relief washed over me. Just Syd.

I quickly untangled myself from Justice as the door creaked opened. She peered in, her eyes wondering, and then they grew wide with recognition and her mouth curved up into the happiest grin.

I was breathing so hard trying to catch my breath from the kiss that Justice had just laid on me; I thought my heart would thump out of my chest. Plus I had just totally gotten busted. Red handed. I was going to tell Sydney about what happened but I didn’t expect it to go down like this. I praised God that it was just Sydney, not Jensen. That was a close call. A really close call. If he would have been the one to come in here and see Justice and me with our lips locked in a passionate kiss, there was no telling what would have happened. Like me, he had a temper, but his was so much worse and it actually scared me at times. There was a time he got so angry at me that he grabbed me by the arm with such force it rocked my body and left a huge bruise the size of a silver dollar.

“Um…” I brought my eye to Justice and then back to Sydney. I didn’t know exactly what to say. I looked back at Justice again like he had all the answers in the world, hoping that he would rescue me from this situation. “Uh yeah, come in.”

“No worries, I can come back later. You look like you are in the middle of something.” She gave me a shit eating grin and then cooed at baby Lucy. “Right, Lucy?”

“Really, it’s fine. What’s up?” I stepped further away from Justice and he gave me a look like he didn’t like it one bit. I instantly missed our closeness. I knew I shouldn’t feel the way I was for Justice in this moment but I really liked our bodies being pressed close together; his warmth enveloping me and our lips seared together expressing our desires for one another. I couldn’t get enough of him and I realized I was in really deep.

“Well it’s just that I saw Reeve leave your room and I wanted to see what was up. I thought maybe you were sick or something.” My stomach was doing a dance flipping upside down and all around but no, I wasn’t sick. I was nervous and excited all wrapped into one. Plus, Jensen was supposed to be here any minute. I was fucked.

“Yeah, Syd, we’ll have to talk about that later. Justice, can you see yourself out?” He growled at me. Him and his growling were starting to crack me up regularly. I just looked at him and rolled my eyes.

“I told you, baby, I’m not leaving. Your boyfriend needs to know you’re mine.” Seriously, this man didn’t stop. He was bat shit crazy. I wasn’t his or anyone else’s. I was my own person. Plus, how many times would I have to tell him I had a boyfriend?

“Um, not that is not how it is going down. Now you need to leave.” I placed my hand on my hip and held firm.

“Bee, you up there?” Shit, shit, shit, that was Jensen calling from downstairs. I needed to think fast, really fucking fast.

“Justice, leave,” I said under my breath and then looked to Sydney. “Please help me.” I looked at her with panic in my eyes. My stomach was a complete mess at the moment and at this point I really did think I was going to throw up. Here I was in my room with one of the men I had just spent the night having sex with, who wasn’t my boyfriend and my boyfriend was on his way up to my room. Shit!

“Yeah, Jensen, come on up.” I gave Justice a pleading look and I could see that he was starting to relent.

I got up on my tiptoes just before Jensen entered the room and whispered in his ear, “Please. I promise I’ll make it up to you.” I didn’t know how I was going to make it up to him but I would if he would just let me get through this moment with Jensen. Recognition crossed my features as I thought about it. Hell I knew exactly how I would make it up to him. I was such a bad girl.

He just looked at me and then a look of agreement washed over his face. Thank goodness, I had won this battle.

Jensen entered the room. He looked like he had had a rough night much like me. He had a day’s stubble on his face and his eyes were bloodshot. He was wearing a black baseball cap that made his skin look pale. Guess I wasn’t the only one who wasn’t 100% this morning.

“Hey, hun.” He walked over to me and gave me a kiss. His breath reeked. I had to wonder if he had even brushed his teeth. But who the hell was I to talk, I hadn’t brushed mine either. Plus I had just been playing tongue hockey with the man next to me. “What’s going on in here?” He gave me a puzzled look and then his eyes roamed from Justice, to Sydney, back to Justice again and then to me again.

I gave him a deer in headlights look and then I looked to Sydney. She asserted herself right into the situation. “We all were in here talking. Justice just got here to see the baby and I was up in Bee’s room hanging out. So now we are all up here.” Good going, Sydney, let’s hope he falls for it. I looked at Justice to see he wasn’t very pleased with Sydney’s lie, but he didn’t say otherwise.

“Hmm, well that’s a bit odd.” He looked at me through narrowed eyes, a brow raised like he didn’t believe me. I prayed to God that he wouldn’t figure it out.

The thing is, I could barely look at him. I felt so guilty for what I had done. He didn’t deserve to be cheated on. He had been faithful and loyal to me so far. A few unknown texts had made me suspicious a couple of times but I had never said anything. Not that it really mattered. Even if he had been unfaithful that didn’t give me the right to sleep with someone else. Let alone two someone else’s. I had so screwed up. But then I turned and looked at Justice and my heart sank. I was crazy about him and had been since the day I met him. Maybe I really was his all along and I just didn’t know it. Last night so many feelings had washed over me. Yes, it wasn’t the most intimate situation, but it was mine. I had done exactly what I wanted to do. I knew what I was getting into last night and I dove head first into it. I really needed to get my head on straight.

I looked back at Jensen. “Nothing odd about it. You know this house is a revolving door with Damien’s siblings; they’re over here all of the time.” And they were over here all of the time. There wasn’t a day that day didn’t go by that one of them wasn’t here. I had actually grown quite close to all of them. They were really good people. Destiny, their little sister, and I had grown quite close. She was a total sweetheart and a really good friend to me. I made a mental note that I needed to get together with her soon. If she knew what had happened last night she would be happy as hell. I think she was secretly rooting for me to date one of her brothers. She would flip if she knew I had slept with two of them last night.

“Yeah I guess you are right. So are you ready to go out for a greasy breakfast.” I heard Justice’s intake of breath and prayed he wouldn’t say anything. Shit.

“Well actually, I really don’t feel well. I told you that via text but you insisted on coming over. Can we just see one another tonight?” I really needed to get rid of him. Like in the worst way possible. My nerves were about shot from being in the precarious situation.

“That doesn’t make me very happy, Bee. And you know what happens when I’m not very happy.” Yes, he was mean to me. I thought back to the many times he didn’t get his way and he would yell at me or threaten me. I heard a growl next to me and I looked at Justice. I thought his eyes were going to catch fire there was so much heat radiating from them.

“Bee, I think Justice, Lucy and I will step out and let you two carry on without us.” She walked over to Justice and grabbed his hand. “Come on, Justice.” He growled again. Fuck, I really didn’t need this right now.

“No, I’m not leaving. Jensen, why don’t you tell me what happens when you aren’t happy? He seethed.

Shit.

Fuck.

Shit.

This was not going well. Not at all. There was going to be a blood bath if I didn’t stop this from going down.

I turned to Justice. “Justice, that is none of your business. Now please leave with Sydney and the baby.”

“Yeah, motherfucker, it is none of your damn business.” Justice crossed the room in a flash and instantly was nose to nose with Jensen.

“What did you just call me?” The thing was, Justice was a huge guy and Jensen wasn’t. He worked out and was fit but Justice towered over him. There was no doubt in my mind who would be the winner of this fight. It was my turn to perform damage control.

I stepped in between them and put my hands on both of their chests. When I touched Justice there was so much warmth in there and I felt a sizzle radiate up my arm. With Jensen it was just cold, there was no electric charge like I had experienced with Justice. It was more than obvious that what Justice and I had was special, rare. “Alright, boys, get your testosterone in check. This.” I pointed between them. “Needs to stop. Justice, out!”

“Like hell if I’m leaving you.” He growled again.

At this point, things were getting out of control. I looked for Sydney and she was gone. Fuck. How could she leave me in this situation by myself?

“We can go right now, asshole,” Jensen said to Justice. I looked between them to see both their eyes were laced with anger, raging and ready to fight.

“What the hell is going on in here?” Thank God. Damien entered the room and immediately became a part of the situation. I released a breathy sigh in relief.

“Justice, come with me.” Damien walked around to him and pulled him away from Jensen.

“Back off, Damien. I’m not leaving Abbee here with this asshole.” Dear Jesus, Mary and Joseph, could this just end? I brought my fingers to my temples and rubbed them in hopes they would give me the answers I needed. But no, I didn’t get any answers.

Jensen looked at me. “Why the hell is this fucker calling you Abbee?” Of all the things happening in this moment, he wanted to focus on what Justice was calling me. Fuck my life.

Just fuck it.

“Jensen, you need to leave. I’ll call you later. Please.” I pleaded with him. My stomach was doing violent twists and I thought I might throw up; I was so nervous anticipating his response.

“Fuck it and fuck you.” He looked at me. “My time is worth more than dealing with this bullshit. Don’t bother calling me.” He stormed out of the room and I heard another all too familiar growl. The growl of possession that I loved so very much. But there was more meaning behind his actions. He was actually going to protect me from Jensen, to be my savior. Although I tried pushing him away, it really made me feel good that someone was looking out for me. But this was a huge cluster of a mess.

“Damn it.” I didn’t know what the hell to do. Should I chase after him? Things were clearly in disarray. I looked to Sydney and she just gave me an “I told you so look.” Then I looked to Justice and he had a look I couldn’t quite decipher. It was like he was happy and pissed off all rolled into one.

“Bee, you need to get rid of that guy. You can do so much better than him.” This was Sydney putting in her two cents. The thing was, she was right. I knew I could do so much better than him. Justice had clearly proven to be the “so much better” last night and this morning. He was everything I had dreamed of in a man. But I had already committed to Jensen. That is if he still wanted me. One would think that I would just let go of Jensen since he had basically just broken up with me, but for some reason I felt like I couldn’t. I really needed my head examined. He wasn’t good for me, not a good person at all.

“I think he just got rid of me, Syd.” I didn’t know if I should fight for him or let him go. I had already invested so much time into the relationship. I just didn’t know what to do.

“Well, he’s an asshole and if he ever talks to you the way he talked to you today, I’m going to take him down,” Damien chimed in.

Justice still hadn’t said anything. I had to wonder if he was processing everything that was going on or what his deal was.

“Damien, I was going to take down the asshole until you stepped in. Why didn’t you just let me do it?” Finally, Justice speaks.

“Not here with my baby in the house. Not gonna happen, bro.” I didn’t blame Damien. I didn’t want them to fight but I certainly didn’t want anything to happen around Lucy.

‘Yeah, I guess you’re right. I can understand that.” Justice conceded.

My stomach was still in knots, but I was beginning to calm down a bit. When I was with Justice, I felt this calm wash over me. It was like he cooled me down and chilled my senses and temper. Granted, this morning he had gotten me worked up. But there was just something about him. Like he was made just for me. I couldn’t exactly explain it. Perhaps one of these days I would be able to. I was just torn between what I wanted and what I felt like I needed to do.

“Alright, now that this nonsense is over, how about I cook everyone some breakfast?”

Sydney loved to cook and was always making us meals. She was one of the best roommates a person could ask for. I was so going to miss living with her. Damn it, if I could only get out of living with Jensen and stay here. I really needed to figure out a way to make that work. Or did I? I knew the choice I wanted to make. Could I make the choice that would make me the happiest woman alive even though I gave him my word?

Shit.

Hell.

“Damien, come with me and help me make breakfast.” She walked over to him, placed her hand in his, and dragged him out of the room. He had a look of confusion on his face. I was sure she was going to spill the details about finding Justice and me with our lips locked. I actually didn’t mind. I know that I had talked about being apprehensive about telling her about Justice and me, but now I couldn’t wait to sit with her and talk everything through. She was my best friend and I knew she would listen and be honest with me. But I had some leveling to do with her. She was going to flip out and probably jump for joy when I told her about my feelings for her future brother-in-law.

Feelings… I had to examine those. But maybe not right at this moment. I looked to Justice and he stared back at me with a knowing grin on his face and I smiled. He crossed the room, took my face into his hands and then smashed his lips to mine.