Cowboy Desires: The Complete Collection (4 page)

I rubbed myself back and forth against his semi-hard cock, enjoying the feeling it brought me each time my clit made contact with his soft skin. When he was ready, I reached down and grabbed his shaft by the base. Positioning it at my opening, I let myself slide slowly down on it. Despite the fact that he had just been inside of me, this angle made it seem even bigger. I savored every inch as I lowered myself until I couldn't go down anymore. Then I lifted up again and pushed down harder, grinding my hips so that my clit rubbed against his pelvis.

"Jamie, you look so fucking beautiful right now. Your pussy feels so tight and wet. I love that you're taking control, baby. I want to watch you drive yourself wild."

His hands moved to my tits, kneading them in his bag hands and then pinching my nipples. I leaned forward a bit to kiss him, still tasting myself on his tongue. When I moved my face from his and sat up a bit, he moved up to put one of my breasts in his mouth. His tongue sucked my nipple slowly, giving it a little nibble and making me cry out. He pushed my tits together so he could lick them both at once, and I closed my eyes to let the feelings take over.

When I sat back up for a different angle, his thumb moved to my clit and started to rub small circles around it. I started bouncing up and down on him as hard as I could. To return the favor, I reached behind me and started to rub his balls. We were both moaning loudly, and our eyes were locked. I couldn't look away from him because his face was reflecting every bit of passion and lust that I was feeling.

"Baby, I'm getting so close. I want you to come with me. I want to watch you lose it all over my cock, and I want to shoot my hot cum inside of you."

His free hand had a firm grip on my hip as he guided me up and down on his cock. I concentrated on the sensations that were building. I wanted to make him come. I wanted to feel him shoot inside of me and leave a part of him behind. With a few more movements, I lost it.

"Austin! Baby, I'm coming! Come with me!"

With those words, he thrust up inside of me hard and spilled himself deep inside of me. He was moaning so deep that it almost sounded like a growl. I kept moving over him until he stilled, and then I leaned forward to rest my head on his chest.

"That was amazing. I hope you don't mind me taking over. I just didn't know what to say so I thought I would show you. And I'm so glad I did."

"I didn't say all of that expecting you to say anything. I was just speaking from my heart. And that was fucking incredible. I don't deserve someone as sweet and hot as you. Watching you move above me like that was amazing. I wish you could see what I see."

"Maybe someday. Right now, I'm exhausted."

"Well, if it's all right with you, I'd rather not sleep alone. I want to hold you tonight. Again, I'm not expecting anything, I just want to have you right here next to me when I wake up."

I was so glad he said that because I didn't want to go. I didn't want to break the spell. A tiny part of me was worried that I would wake up and everything would be different, but I pushed it away.

"I would love to stay with you. I don't want this night to be over. You made me so happy tonight, Austin."

"Well I plan to keep doing it, babe."

I kissed him and smiled. We both got up to use the bathroom and brush our teeth, then we got back into bed naked. I laid on my left side, and he spooned me from behind. I was so spent from the emotional roller coaster of a day and the sex we had just had that I was asleep quickly.

When I woke up, I was still in the same spot I had fallen asleep in. Austin's arm was draped around my waist and he was snoring quietly. I had to pee pretty badly, so I carefully removed his arm and got up. I found one of his t-shirts sitting on a chair and slipped it on. I liked that he was so much bigger than me, making the shirt hang to the middle of my thighs. I walked quietly to his bathroom and shut the door. I took care of business then brushed my teeth again. I took a peek in his medicine cabinet and was relieved to see that it looked completely normal. No crazy prescriptions or other women's makeup.

I was thirsty, so I made my way to the kitchen. I poured myself a glass of orange juice and went into the living room to look around. I had been in there the night before, but I was preoccupied. The house was obviously decorated by a man, but it was clean and simple. The furniture was black leather, and there was a large flat screen TV on one wall over a brick fireplace. There were hundreds of DVDs on one wall that were in alphabetical order, and most of them were action movies.

On the opposite wall, there were several pictures. I didn't recognize any of the people in them, but I could tell that the young woman in the one picture had to be his sister. There was another one with Austin and an older man and woman that must have been his parents. One frame had several smaller pictures in it, and they were all of kids. Maybe they were his nieces and nephews. The very last picture on the wall was of a beautiful brunette standing in front of Austin with his arms wrapped around her. I could see a large diamond ring on her left hand. She was breathtaking, and they both looked so happy. I was stunned.

Seeing that picture immediately brought a ton of questions to my mind. She must have been his fiancé, but where was she now? How could they look so happy and not be together anymore? I felt my walls starting to go back up as I contemplated this gorgeous woman's place in his life. Who was she? Where was she? If they weren't together anymore, then why was this picture still on the wall?

I didn't have much time to think before I heard footsteps coming down the stairs. I quickly moved away from the wall of pictures and went into the kitchen. I wasn't ready to face what I had just seen, and I didn't want to ruin the night before by being too nosy.

"Hey, babe. What are you doing up already? You should have woken me up."

"I had to pee and I was thirsty, so I just helped myself. I hope you don't mind."

"Of course not. Make yourself at home. I thought maybe we could get dressed and I could take you out to breakfast before I take you home."

"That sounds great. I'm starving."

"Good. I know the perfect place. What do you think about showering together?"

I immediately felt something start to stir in me as he moved closer. He was only wearing his boxer briefs, and I was in nothing but his t-shirt. He grabbed me by the waist and pulled me close, letting me feel that his cock must have gotten up before him.

"I love seeing you in my t-shirt."

He reached down to grab my ass, and a look of amusement crossed his face when he found that I was naked underneath. The amusement quickly turned to lust as he moved his hand between my legs, rubbing me in just the right way.

"You're killing me. So wet already. Maybe the shower can wait."

He turned me around so that I was leaning against the counter, pulling the shirt up to reveal my bare ass. Then he surprised me by getting on his knees behind me, spreading my legs apart, and burying his face in my pussy. I had to hold onto the counter to keep from falling. He used his hands to spread me wide open while he stuck his tongue inside of me. His thumb rubbed my clit then moved inside of me when his tongue went to my clit. I was already seeing stars as this big man worshipped my most intimate parts on his kitchen floor. I was shocked when his tongue travelled back even further and started to lick my most forbidden hole. He slid two fingers inside of me, rubbed my clit, and licked my ass. Within seconds, I screamed out his name and came all over him. I never knew having my ass licked could feel so good.

Austin didn't give me any time to recover before he was on his feet. He thrust his hard cock into me from behind, placing his hands on my hips to hold me in place.

"Fuck, Austin. Your cock feels so good right after I come."

"Baby, you have no idea how good it felt to just push inside of you while you were still getting off. I almost came right away."

He started pounding into me hard. Gone was the gentle lovemaking from the night before, and I was fine with that. I was ready to be fucked hard like a bad girl. I could see his reflection in the microwave, and his muscular arms looked amazing as they held me firmly in place. He was flexing his jaw in concentration, and I was just holding on and letting him have me. It didn't take long for him to lose control, and he pressed his fingers into me hard when he came.

"Baby, look what you do to me. I can't hold myself back when it comes to you. You're so sexy."

"You're the sexy one. I can't get enough."

He spun me around after he pulled out and kissed me deeply. He led me to the shower where we both cleaned up quickly. He stayed in the bathroom for a few minutes while I went into his bedroom to get dressed. I used the emergency deodorant, perfume, and lotion in my purse. Then I threw my hair up into a knot on my head and put on some lip gloss. I slipped into the clothes from the night before, feeling a little bit guilty that I was about to do the walk of shame, but it was worth it.

When I was just about ready, Austin's phone starting ringing from the table by his bed. It was a country love song that I recognized from karaoke at the bar. Going over to grab it so I could bring it to him, I reached down to unplug it. I stopped in my tracks when I saw the screen. There was a picture of the same girl from the wall downstairs. The screen flashed with the name Andrea. Whoever this woman was, she certainly wasn't in the past. She was on his wall, in his phone, and most likely still in his heart. I was devastated.

I decided against bringing him the phone and quickly moved away from the table. I decided that I would just enjoy breakfast, go home, and never let him take me out again. Probably never even talk to him again. Maybe Austin wasn't as single as he claimed, and I wasn't about to be someone's other woman. Should I ask him about her or just let it go and walk away? Could I be overreacting? I wasn't sure what to think, but I knew one thing. Austin had a secret, just like I did.

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~Vol. 2 – The Visitor~

The girl from the engagement picture had just called Austin’s phone. Andrea seemed like she must be someone really important to him if she was still calling him and he hadn’t taken that picture down. What kind of man would bring a woman into his house when he kept pictures of another woman wearing his ring on the wall? I was so curious about it, and still shocked, but how could I ask him when I barely knew the man? Sure, I had shared his bed and he had brought me to places I thought I may never go again, but that didn’t give me the right to question him or look at his phone and try to snoop around for the answer.

When I heard him approaching from the bathroom, I quickly set his phone down and acted like I had just returned from downstairs. I was sitting on his bed in just his shirt and my boy shorts when he came into the room.

“Feeling better?” I asked the question as innocently as I could. I was a little taken aback by the sight of him in just a towel. He was hard to resist and I wasn’t sure that I wanted to, despite his secrets.

“Much better, thanks to you. You made me so happy last night. You’re a beautiful girl with curves in all the right places. I’m so glad you’re here. I still can’t get over how any man could let you go.”

“You’re too sweet. I guess I’ll never know what made him leave, but I do know that I will get over it someday. Being with you last night was a huge step in the right direction. I just take things one day at a time.”

“I’m glad I could help. There are things I need to get over, too. I may not have aired all of my dirty laundry, but I have a past, too.”

“I don’t expect you to tell me everything. All I want is for you to respect me and be kind to me. I don’t want to play games or be used. If you’re planning on doing either one of those things, please tell me now. My heart can’t take another big break like that right now.”

“Jamie, I have no intention of ever hurting you. I’d like to see you again and let things fall as they may. I can’t promise that it will be easy and perfect, but I do promise to be honest.”

I was dying to ask him about Andrea, but I didn’t. Here he was promising honesty, so it was the perfect time to ask him about Andrea. Did I really want to know?

“I appreciate that, Austin. I like where things have gone so far. For now, why don’t you get your sexy ass dressed and take me to breakfast? I’m starving!”

He laughed and did as I asked. I sat there and enjoyed watching him put clothes on almost as much as I loved watching him take them off. He was ready in about five minutes, but not until he had doused himself with body spray. I liked how it smelled, but it still made me giggle that he took longer to get ready than I did. Weren’t cowboys supposed to be rugged and dirty?

We headed out to his truck and he helped me up and closed my door. Then he hopped in and put more of my favorite country music on his iPod. He placed his hand on my knee like we had known each other forever, and I didn’t ask him to move it. Even though I worried about getting too attached, too quickly, and about Andrea, I liked the way Austin was making me feel for now.

He drove for about 15 minutes and pulled into a diner I had passed a few times in my travels out this way. There were several cars parked outside and it smelled of bacon and coffee. After he got me out of the truck, he took my hand and led me inside. It was nice to have a man take care of things every once in a while, even if I liked my independence. Patrons could seat themselves here, so he took us to a booth in the back corner. I sat down with him across from me. The waitress took our orders, and we each had coffee and an omelet. He ate way more than I did, and we talked the whole time.

The dimples in his cheeks that appeared when he smiled made my insides mushy, and I got distracted more than once by the sight of them. He asked me a lot of questions about myself, and I was completely honest. That is, until he asked me if I wanted children, and I had to take a deep breath so I wouldn’t break down.

“Yes, I do want kids. At least two of them, maybe three. I want them sooner rather than later, too, but I don’t know if that will happen. I’m not getting any younger, you know, and being single doesn’t help. What about you?”

“Yes, I definitely want more kids. I didn’t tell you this until now, but I have a son named Jackson. He’s two, and he’s my little buddy. I try to see him as much as I can, but I have some issues to work out with his mama. She likes to use him against me. I was afraid to tell you because I didn’t want to scare you away.”

I was completely surprised to hear this, but then I remembered the pictures on his wall that I assumed were all of his nieces and nephews.

“Wow, I had no idea. That’s awesome that you have a son, but sad that you have drama with his mother. What happened?”

“I caught her in bed with one of her coworkers. In our bed. When Jackson was just a little guy. I couldn’t stand to be betrayed like that. She swore it would never happen again, but once the trust was broken, I couldn’t go back. I moved out three weeks later and she has been using Jackson to try to get me back ever since. She can’t stand to see me happy, and I’m pretty sure she talks bad about me to our son. But that little boy has my heart and I would do anything for him. It just about kills me when I have to leave him with her.”

“So I guess your heart has been broken just as badly as mine. How sad for you and Jackson. But at least you know why your relationship ended. I don’t think I will ever know. Mason just left.”

“Again, that man must have something wrong with him. It couldn’t have had anything to do with you. On another note, I’m so glad you’re not gonna run from me over this. I was really scared to tell you.”

“You can’t scare me away that easily. But I have to ask you something. What is her name?”

“Andrea. Why?”

“Because I saw the picture on your wall. And I saw her picture come up on your phone when I was getting dressed today. I wondered about it, but I figured it was none of my business.”

“Yeah, you probably thought I was in a relationship, huh? We were engaged when she got pregnant with Jackson, and we were so happy. I thought that was it for me. I guess I haven’t taken the picture down because I don’t want to forget what it felt like to be happy. And I haven’t had another woman in my house at all, so I didn’t think to hide it. I’m sorry if it upset you.”

“It didn’t upset me. It just reminded me to be extra cautious. But you don’t owe me explanations. We can walk away from each other today and be happy in the fact that we shared an amazing night that made us both forget for a while.”

His face fell when I said this, and he reached across the table to grab my hand.

“Jamie, that is not what I want at all. I don’t just take women out for sex. I don’t take women out at all. You are the first girl that has made me feel anything since Andrea. I didn’t want you for sex. That was a bonus. I feel like there is a lot more in store for us. Please don’t walk away.”

I looked into his eyes and could tell he was sincere. But my heart was still so fragile. How could I let anyone knowing that it could happen all over again?

“I don’t want to walk away, but I don’t know if I am ready for more, either. It would take a lot to prove to me that you aren’t going to up and leave with no warning.”

“That’s not the kind of man I am, Jamie, and I will prove it to you. You don’t have to promise anything now.”

He continued to hold my hand as we finished our breakfast in a silence that was full of words that needed to be said eventually. He paid the bill before I could protest and we headed to the truck. When we were both inside, he patted the spot next to him. I slid over so that he could put his arm around me, and I lay my head on his shoulder. He held me close enough to listen to his heart beating, and for the first time in a long time, I felt safe. I felt like this man could be the one to pull me back from the edge and show me how to love again.

We stayed that way and didn’t talk until he pulled into my driveway. I went to open my door and get out, but he held me there. He placed his hand on my face and looked directly into my eyes. His whole face was pleading.

“I will call you later today. Please don’t doubt me, darlin. I don’t make promises I can’t keep. I have no intention of hurting you. Will every second be easy and perfect? No. But it will be worth it. Just let yourself have a little bit of faith in me.”

He leaned in and pressed his lips to mine. His kiss was full of meaning and longing, and I kissed him back with just as much want. We broke apart, but we both hesitated.

“I’m going to try my best. Bu you have to be patient with me. I’ll talk to you soon, Austin. Thanks again for last night.”

I gave him a quick kiss and got out. When I got onto the porch, I turned around and gave him a quick wave. He waved back, and he didn’t pull out of the driveway until I was safely inside.

I set my purse down but took my phone out. I realized that I had turned it off the night before, and my sister was probably sending out a search party. There were five texts from her when the phone finally came back on, ranging from teasing to worry. I quickly dialed her number.

“I was just about to file a missing person’s report! Why haven’t you answered me?”

“I was a little preoccupied. I turned my phone off so I wouldn’t have any distractions. I’m sorry.”

“Well, at least you got laid! I’m guessing that’s what you mean, anyway. How was it? Did you climb that hot piece of ass like a tree? Was he good? Did he go down on you? Where did you stay? Was he nice to you?”

“Jesus, Erin, calm down. We had sex. I stayed at his house. It was amazing. He took me out dancing last night and to breakfast this morning. He is a true gentleman, and I had a great time. I have no idea where it is going from here, if that is what you are about to ask.”

“Well, I have a million questions, but it sounds like you don’t want to answer them right now. I will grill you again later. I’m happy just knowing that he didn’t kill you and dump your body out in the middle of nowhere. Love you!”

She hung up before I could get another word in. She was insane sometimes but I loved her.

I checked my phone for more messages, but all I had was a missed call from a number I didn’t recognize. I figured it must have been a wrong number. I headed up to my room and lay down in my bed. My mind was full of everything that had happened in the last 24 hours. I closed my eyes and let myself think and drift off to sleep. I was woken up by the sound of my phone ringing. It was the same number that I had missed the call from earlier. I reached over in my half asleep state to answer it.

“Hello?” There was no answer. “Hello? Is anyone there?” There was still no answer.

After trying a couple more times, I hung up. Either someone was trying to prank me or it was a wrong number. I put the phone back on the nightstand and went back to sleep.

When I woke up again, it was 4:00 in the afternoon. I had slept half the day away. I figured the crying from the day before and all of the sex had taken its toll on me. Luckily it was Saturday and I didn’t have any plans. I looked at my phone again and found a text from Austin.

Hey darlin. I hope your day is going good. Is it wrong for me to say that I miss you? I came home and found that my bed smelled like you. My truck smells like you, too. Did I tell you before I left that you are so beautiful, and I’m so happy you’re in my life. I’m thinking about you…every second…

Wow, he was good. I was smiling like crazy, and I read it about five times. I got up and finally decided to change my clothes. I put on a pair of cut-off shorts and a tank top. I pulled my hair out of its knot and redid it in a long braid down my back. Since it was close to dinnertime, I headed downstairs to find something to eat. I was starving since I had skipped lunch, so I made up a plate of crackers and cheese. Then I grabbed some wine out of the fridge. As I was pouring it, there was a knock at the front door. I figured it was probably my sister, so I yelled out some profanities and told her I would be right there. But it wasn’t her at all.

When I opened the door, my heart stopped and I couldn’t breathe. This was a face that I hadn’t seen in over a year. A face I thought I may never see again. I had no words, and I didn’t know if I wanted to punch him or throw my arms around him. He looked the same as the last time I saw him, and the butterflies still swirled in my stomach. But I was frozen in place with my hand on the doorknob.

“Jamie. You are a sight for sore eyes. Even more beautiful that I remember.”

He was speaking, but he wasn’t moving. He looked just as unsure of what to do as I felt. The dark hair. The blue eyes. The tall, thin frame. I had dreamed of him so many times and planned what I would say if I ever got the chance, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. When I finally found my words, they weren’t what I had planned.

“Mason. What are you doing here?”

I felt my voice start to break, and I had wanted to put up a strong front. I didn’t want him to have the satisfaction of knowing what he did to me. I didn’t want him to see my heart breaking all over again from his mere presence on my porch.

“I missed you. I have so much to say. I was a coward for leaving and for staying away so long. Please let me in. I won’t ask you for anything. I just want to talk to you. To try to explain.”

For some reason, I stepped back and let him come in. Part of me knew I would regret it, but my body worked on its own. It worked from familiarity and memory. From so many sweet moments shared with this person who was almost a stranger at this point. I followed him into the living room, taking a big swig of my wine. We sat down across from each other.