Destined for the Star (Starstruck) (13 page)

”Olivia, you are so absurd!” He smiled, shaking his head in disbelief. ”How could you ever disappoint me? All I need from you is this, breathing the same air as you, preferably for the rest of my life. All the other stuff you give me is just icing on the cake.”

He peppered her face with soft kisses. Then he pulled back a little to look at her.

”Don’t think about the past. The past is no more. I’m yours if you’ll have me, and whatever has been in the past for either of us is of no consequence anymore. It’s just you and me and the future we’ll have together.”

She smiled through her tears and started kissing him, a new desperation to her need.

He responded in kind, and drew her down on top of him. His hands wound themselves around her waist, finding their way under her shirt, caressing her skin. She felt as if she was on fire, a ravishing need burning in her.
 

”Nate…” she panted. ”Please, I need you.”

He gently flipped her over, supporting his weight on his arms, and never broke off from kissing her. His lips trailed down her chin to her neck and left her skin tingling with pleasure and need everywhere his mouth touched her.
 

”Nate?” she murmured. ”I want to look at you. All of you.”

He stopped and looked down at her, his eyes glazed with desire.

Without saying a word, he rose and started removing the rest of his clothes. He hesitated for a split second when he only had his boxer shorts left on, looking a little shy.

”Please,” she whispered, stunned by his masculine, physical beauty; the perfect symmetry of his muscles and limbs.
 

He inhaled, and then he dropped his underwear too, and his manhood sprung free. She gasped at the sight of him. She had never seen anything more sexy than him naked - he was the quintessential man, perfect in every way.
 

”You are so beautiful,” she whispered and got to her feet.
 

Slowly she closed the gap between them, overcome with the desire to touch him. He stood perfectly still, his hands at his sides, as if he didn’t want to frighten her.
 

She looked up into his eyes and reached for his erection. She caught him in her hands and he groaned. The silky hardness of him was a surprise - she’d never held a man’s penis before. She touched the whole length of it, marveling at the overpowering moist ache between her legs. She wanted more than anything to feel him inside her.
 

”Olivia,” he murmured, his breath jagged and torn. ”Can I see you now, please?”

She smiled at him, and stepped back a bit. Her heart was pounding so hard she thought it was going to leap out of her chest, but she was through being a coward. He’d been brave and stripped for her, now she was going to do the same for him.

She pulled off her shirt with trembling fingers, standing there in her black lace bra and jeans. She didn’t dare look at him - she focused instead on undoing her jeans. When she stood there finally, in just her underwear, she peeked up at him. He stood there, perfectly still, as if frozen. She didn’t know if that was good or bad, but she couldn’t stop now. She drew a deep breath, then she unclasped her bra and let it drop to the floor.

Nate swallowed loudly. She blushed, her nipples hardening under his burning gaze. She brazed herself and slipped out of her panties. Then she pulled her shoulders back and looked bravely into his eyes.
 

”Olivia,” he whispered hoarsely, stepping closer to her, ”you are exquisite. Do you have any idea what you do to me? I…” he hesitated. ”I need you, baby. I want to make you mine in every way.”

She reached for him and pulled him down next to her in front of the fire.
 

”I want to belong to you, only you,” she whispered.

He started kissing her then, his fingers caressing her body as if to make sure she was real. She clung to him, feeling the silky steel of him pressed against her thigh. He paused and held her cheek in his hand.

”Sweetheart, do you want me to use protection? I’m clean, I just got tested back home.”

She looked at him and felt such tenderness.

”I’m clean too,” she said with absolute certainty, ”and I’m on birth control so you don’t need to wear a condom.” She reached up and touched his cheek. ”Nate, I want to feel you inside me with nothing at all between us.”

”God, Olivia, you’re too good to be true,” he said as he covered her mouth with his again. She opened up to him and felt the immense need she had for him spread from her stomach down between her thighs as he slowly claimed her mouth with his tongue.

”You’re trembling,” he marveled against her skin, slowly covering it in kisses.
 

”Nate, I’ve never felt anything like this before.” She caught his gaze, feeling wonder and fear at the same time.
 

”Shh, baby,” he whispered softly, ”I’ve got you. Don’t be afraid, love.” He soothed her with his voice and loving touch and she felt the fear melt away.

”But if you’re not ready, if you need us to slow down, it’s all right with me. Just say the word,” he murmured after a little while, and tried to slow his breath.
 

”No! I want you so much, Nate. Please, I
need
you.”
 

”Oh, God, Olivia, I’m using every ounce of my self-control right now to not rush this,” he grunted.
 

His lips resumed their journey across her skin. His hands caught her breasts and they ached heavy and ripe with his touch.
 

”So beautiful,” he murmured as he covered her skin with soft kisses. His thumbs brushed slowly, exquisitely over her nipples. She gasped and grabbed hold of his hair with trembling fingers. The emotions he evoked in her when he worshipped her body like this with his hands and mouth were so raw and primal she felt completely overwhelmed and could do nothing more than hold on to him. His mouth blazed a trail to her nipple and he caught it carefully between his teeth. His tongue traced her areola and she moaned his name. He sucked her into his warm mouth, tasting her and caressing her hardened nipple with his tongue. She grabbed his neck and held on as shivers of pleasure ran down the length of her body. All the while his mouth didn’t let up, only moving to her other nipple, while caressing the first one with his thumb. She pressed her pelvis up against his erection and he groaned her name.

His mouth continued its trail down across her stomach as his fingers kept making love to her nipples. His tongue dipped into her navel and she moaned again as the heat between her thighs flowed and made her grind her hips against him. His hands caught her hips and held her still as his mouth found the top of her mound. His fingers started slowly tracing circles on the inside of her thighs and her legs fell apart in welcome to him. He nuzzled her soft feminine curls.
 

”Shit, baby, you’re so sexy,” he grunted, tenderly spreading her soft folds with his fingers and then his tongue found her and she cried out with the overwhelming sensation. She had never experienced anything like the pleasure he gave her now.
 

She called his name in wonder, pressing herself up against his mouth. His strong hands held her hips in a steadying grip as she started shivering violently.
 

”Come for me, love,” he murmured between strokes and then when she felt as if she was going to shatter into a million pieces he closed his mouth over her engorged nub and sucked gently and with a scream she didn’t even recognize as her own, she slipped off the edge and came in his arms. Still it wasn’t enough.
 

”Nate, please,” she begged breathlessly, ”I need to feel you inside me. Now,
please
, Nate.”

All of a sudden his face was close to hers again. He lowered his head to kiss her at the same time as she could feel his finger gently feeling its way inside her wet heat. She locked eyes with him and she could no longer feel the fear that had crippled her before.
 

She felt the tip of him pressing into her. ”Shit, baby, you are so incredibly tight,” he groaned as he tried to ease his way into her.
 

”I… I’m sorry,” she stuttered, embarrassed.

”Sorry? No!” he exclaimed. ”It feels amazing, for me, but I’m worried I’m going to hurt you, baby.” He looked down at her with tender concern.

”I’m fine, Nate, you’re not hurting me,” she gasped and felt herself grow even more slick as he pulled out a bit and then carefully pushed a little further in. She squirmed a little beneath him, feeling an intense desire to be filled up by him, all of him.

”Please, Nate,” she breathed, ”please, I want you so much.”

He groaned and locked her gaze in his and then he thrust all the way inside her in one smooth push.

She gasped and cried out as the sharp pain caught her by surprise.

He froze then, suddenly still as ice above her.

”Olivia,” he murmured, looking confused. He searched her face, as if looking for clues. ”Baby?” He seemed dazed.

”Please, don’t stop,” she implored.
 

”Are you sure? I didn’t know, I would have been more careful. I had no idea. Did I hurt you, love?” He held her gaze, worry mixed with utter tenderness in his eyes.

”I’m fine,” she smiled at him, ”please, Nate, don’t stop,” she moved a little beneath him, tentatively.

He groaned in response and started moving inside her, thrusting in and out. She wrapped her legs around him and dug her fingers into his muscular back, oblivious of anything but the exquisite pleasure of him filling her so completely. So gloriously.

”You’re mine, Olivia,” he groaned, looking deep into her eyes as he thrust. ”Mine alone, love, I will never let you go,” he vowed and threw his head back as the fire drove him over the edge.

As he plunged himself as deep inside her as he could get, she felt herself losing control, falling again. She clawed him to her, trying desperately to take him even deeper, and then she cried out at the same time as him and suddenly they lay there, in a sweaty tangled mess, breathing heavily.

”Olivia, are you okay?” he murmured in her ear. He pulled himself up a little so he could look at her.

”Nate, I have never been better,” she smiled at him, tears spilling down her cheeks.

”Don’t cry baby, please,” he said, alarmed. ”Did I hurt you that much?” he asked, self-loathing tinging his voice.
 

”No,” she protested fiercely. ”These are happy tears, Nate. It hardly hurt at all. It was the best experience of my life. Thank you,” she murmured, catching his face in her hands. ”Truly, Nate, I can’t imagine it gets any better than this. Not for a woman, at least.” Suddenly she felt nervous it hadn’t been as good for him. ”I will get better at this with time,” she whispered, blushing crimson with embarrassment.

”Are you afraid it wasn’t as good for me?” he asked incredulously, staring down at her. ”Please, look at me, sweetheart.”

She did as he asked. He looked at her with a tender awe in his eyes.
 

”This was by far, without comparison, the best experience of my life too, Olivia. I didn’t even know this kind of complete fulfillment existed until now.”

”Really?” she whispered.

”Really, truly, my love.” He bent down and kissed her tenderly.
 

Then he made as if to move away from her.

”No, please, stay inside me a little longer,” she protested.

He obliged her willingly.

”You are amazing beyond words, sweetheart. You have no idea how incredibly special you really are, do you, Olivia?” he asked, astonished. ”Any man would kill to spend just one night with you, and here you are in my arms, giving all of yourself to me in the most beautiful way imaginable, holding nothing back. I don’t understand why, but it’s as if the gods made you especially for me,” he marveled.
 

”We fit together perfectly, don’t we?”

”Yes, we sure do. As if I needed any more proof you belong with me.”

Without pulling out of her, he spun them around so that she lay on top of him instead. She rested her head on his shoulder, reveling in his scent.

”I wish we could stay like this forever,” she whispered, her fingers exploring the masculine planes of his torso. She felt whole, and she knew that after this she would always feel cut in half when he wasn’t near.

”I do too,” he murmured, kissing her hair. ”I didn’t know I could feel such bliss. Everything I thought I knew, everything I’ve worked so hard to have, feels insignificant compared to this, to having you here in my arms, love.”

She smiled, tears spilling over again.

”I know it’s too early to say this according to convention and sort of the wrong setting maybe, but I can’t hold it in anymore.” He pulled up and took her face in his hands so he could look into her eyes.
 

”I love you, Olivia. I have fallen utterly, hopelessly, head-over-heels in love with you.”

”Oh, Nate, I love you too, more than I know how to express,” she exclaimed through her tears.
 

He started kissing her and she forgot how to breathe again. He pulled her down next to him and continued kissing her as if he’d gone an eternity without her kisses. Her heart sang with joy.

They lay there, kissing and talking for hours, everything outside their perfect bubble of happiness forgotten. She felt so content, lying there encircled by his strong embrace.

”Baby, why didn’t you tell me you were a virgin?” he asked at one point.
 

She squirmed a little and blushed pink.

”You are gorgeous when you blush, love,” he murmured and touched her cheek. ”It’s a great way to distract me, you know,” he smiled. ”But I’m far too eager to hear your answer to let you get away with it this time,” he teased. ”Why didn’t you tell me? I would have been a lot gentler if I’d known it was your first time, sweetheart,” he said, concern in his voice.

”But you were gentle, Nate,” she protested. ”You were perfect, it only hurt a little. And after that it started feeling really good. At the end I lost touch with reality, I think.”