Finally Heaven (Room 103 Book 4) (31 page)

‘HI. WELCOME TO Zoe’s birthday party. Sorry about the noise. I hope you can still hear me over the karaoke that Boss thinks is insane. Fucking hell, you wouldn’t think he used to sing for a living the way he rocks that mic. And since Jen bought him the drum kit for the Xbox, well… yeah you can imagine. Although we were all quite proud when we loaded up the game and Shocking Heaven was only fucking on there. Respect.

Can you hear Jakob? Driving me nuts he is. He’s discovered something new that makes his mother putty in his hands. ‘Love you.’

Oh yeah, amazing what he can accomplish when he widens his eyes on her and says those little words. Jesus, how she coos at him, her hands flapping excitedly as she turns to me. “Did you hear, baby. Did you hear him?”

Of course I bloody heard him. It’s all he says since he discovered the chocolate biscuits that are hidden in the cupboard.

Crafty little bugger he is. Although, I must admit, when he turns to me and says “Daddy, rock it!” Well, I’m gone. He thinks that drawing all over himself makes him like his Dad. Zoe is not impressed, let me tell you, when I high five him with every little perfect
tattoo
he shows me.

Harry’s over this weekend for the party, with Danny, his boyfriend. That’s him holding Amelia, my stunning baby girl. He’s a good kid, dotes on Harry so he’s okay in my eyes. I’m gonna miss him when he goes out to uni. But good on him. He wants to make something of his life then I’m all for it.

“Baby… the burgers need turning!”

Why is it always the men that work the barbeques? I’ve never understood that.

Well, I suppose I better get the burgers flipped. But what I invited you over for is to say thank you, really. Been quite the adventure hasn’t it. Some sad, some good, and some abso-fucking-lutely amazing.

Look at her, my woman. She’s so damn perfect, so fucking incredible. Her acceptance of me is simply awe inspiring. She accepts the bi side to me so easily. We’ve had a few flings with men, but so far, nobody has taken the place what Nick had. I miss him, every day. But I’m also so proud of him. He loved me enough to put his own life at risk. I will never forget that, never forget him. He’s with Zoe and me every day. Every time she has a period and pulls out her tampons does the biggest smile light her face. We don’t mourn, we remember and we hold onto the good parts. It’s how we need to be because otherwise, what’s the point. If we allowed the grief to swallow us, then Nick died for nothing.

Oh Bulk’s here now. He wants a quick word. So ladies and gents, thank you. Thank you for telling me to hold the fuck on when things got rough because you were right, it was all worth it. Ignore my smile, it’s not as sad as it looks. I’m just feeling damn grateful for my family. All of them. My mum and dad are now in my life all the time. My woman and my kids are what gives me the courage to breathe every day. But the guy’s, the guy’s are my brothers. And you, you will always remain in my heart for holding me up and giving me your hearts.

Thank you, every one of you.

Goodnight

“SPIRIT! GET OFF…” Oh hi. Sorry two minutes.

Right sorry about that. Fuck. Listen to the way my hand cracks her ass.

Anyway. Can you hear me? Damn Boss, he’s killing Gloria Gaynor. You’ll have to excuse me, had quite a bit to drink so I might be slurring a bit. God, it’s good to be home for a while. The centre is doing really good. Spirit is amazed at how many users we’ve seen come hung up and high and gone clean and hopeful. We can’t help everyone, we know that but for each one we see get their life back, it’s worth all the hard work.

Spirit has been fucking astounding. She hasn’t touched a drink or a speck of the bad stuff and I’m so proud of her. She says she needs to feel me all the time, and that I have filled the gap that only drink and drugs could fill. But she doesn’t realise that she’s the one that fills the hole in my own soul. I’ll never forget Shona or Dylan. They watch over me and Brandon, I know they do. I feel them, just as Spirit says she feels Amy watch over her. But now, I feel their smiles, their love and their happiness instead of the pain that I dragged around with me.

So, we come to the end, huh? Been a bit of a rollercoaster ride hasn’t it. But we all made it. Even you. Kindle’s make it? I bet there’s quite a few that have been bounced around.

But life is good, very good. I miss the guys but we skype constantly and we’re always to and froing to each other’s so all of us are still pretty much tight. We always will be. We’re each other’s family, each other’s support. One of hurts, then we all hurt. One of
is
hurt, then the rest of us hurt whoever hurt one of us. That make sense? I hope so.

I hope our journey has given you a smile and a laugh… well we have Boss, of course you’ve laughed. He’s on his way over by the way. But I just wanted to pop in and say thank you. For taking me and my family and seeing us through to the end.

Life is so unpredictable but it can also be full of the most amazing love. Spirit has taught me that, but so have the guys, I’d die for them, every one of them and I have no doubt they feel the same for me.

So, anyway, you all take care, Boss has finally put down the mic. You’re honoured. I hope we leave you with a smile and a full heart. Because you all made sure that mine was full before you left.

See ya’

THE BOSS IS here. Sit down, you don’t need to stand for me. Hi. Let me introduce you to Tristan and Tillie, the latest addition to the family. Jen still wouldn’t back down and let me call them Batman and Robin but… get this, for Christmas I’ve bought them their very own little Batman and Catwoman costumes. Awesome huh. Don’t tell Jen though, I like my bollocks where they are, and not swinging off the washing line. Oh and we have a single, yes you heard that right, just a single one, coming in about six months. Told you my shooters were tough little buggers. No one listened. Super sperm you see.

Anyway, life is good, actually it’s better than that, it’s great. Well it is for Jen, she has me as a husband.

So how are you all? Been quite a while hasn’t it. I just wanted to pop my head in and say Hi before you all bugger off to bed.

I miss the band but then I don’t, you know what I mean. We still all get together as much as possible. The girls still do their weekly facial shit and we still do beer and games.

We’re off to the cottage for Christmas, all of us. Be a tight squeeze but the girls will be in the kitchen for the most time so there’ll be more than enough sofa space for me and the guys to watch TV and chill.

Oh have you seen my latest scar. That one there. I’m proud of that one. I managed to catch Jen before she slipped in the shower. Yeah, get me, holding up my woman in the shower. We have come quite the way. Although she says she only slipped because I clung on to her when my foot shot forward. That’s not true. She dropped the damn soap. It wasn’t my fault I stood on it. Anyway now she understands my reluctance to dip my dick in a place that was made for cleaning my dick and not sex. But saying that, the sex was actually worth it.

So… we come to the end of the road. Oh God. Jax is coming so I need to be quick. Then again, he might have all of three words for you, you lucky devils.

I just wanna say, I love you all. Yeah, but you all know I’m a soppy shit by now. I’m gonna miss you all. Well not when you’re all watching me take a leak, that’s not a good thing… but I don’t mind you sharing everything else.

Oh, I almost forgot. Jen has mastered that strip tease. I know, your smiles are as big as mine. She’s fucking awesome. Come here, lean closer, I don’t want anyone else to hear this bit.

She’s learnt to pole dance. I know!!!! Fucking – hell!! My dick dances with her. Fucking brilliant. She did get me to try. That didn’t work out so well, but the plaster only had to stay on for six weeks then I was as good as new.

Oooh God. Jax ‘the fuck babe’ Cooper is here. Time for me to go. But… well, cheers. Your love and … oh and I have to say thank you to Sav for the sausages… fucking hell, baby, they were fucking amazing. Can you get me some more? We can’t get that flavour over here. Let me know anyway, just leave a message with DH.

Right, that’s me done. Smile… we had fun didn’t we? Of course we did. I’m gonna miss you all though. Oh god stop it, I’m filling up. Shit. I don’t wanna say goodbye. It’s sad. Bloody hell, I’m fucking off.

Luv ya’ all