Finding Trust (Finding Series, Book 2) (5 page)

He’d just managed to get the gauze free of the paper wrapping when Dane suddenly rose from his chair and leaned over him. Jax couldn’t even process what was happening at first because it seemed to be playing out in slow motion. Dane’s lips hovering over his, those warm, chocolate eyes watching him, the hand closing around the back of his neck.

“Jax,” Dane whispered a second before he closed his mouth over Jax’s. Desire shimmered and then sparked to life as Dane kissed first his bottom lip, then his upper one. The hand on his neck was gentle at first, the fingers stroking his skin. But then something in Dane seemed to shift and his fingers moved upwards until they were buried in Jax’s hair and Dane was tipping his head back. And the next kiss was anything but soft and gentle and the instant Dane slid his tongue over the seam of Jax’s lips, Jax opened to him on a moan. Dane’s tongue thrust into his mouth like he owned it and Jax closed his eyes at the overwhelming sensation that bombarded his body all at once. Dane explored every inch of him before sucking Jax’s tongue into his own mouth so Jax could do the same to him.

And then Dane surprised him again by swinging one leg over him and sinking down so he was sitting astride Jax on the wobbly kitchen chair. The move put their cocks in perfect alignment and Jax immediately grabbed Dane’s hips as Dane began to ride him and Jax took control of the kiss.

“Yes,” Dane hissed as his head lolled back when Jax dug his fingers into Dane’s hips and increased the pace. Jax bit into the sensitive skin on Dane’s neck before licking his way down the column of his throat. The man had way too many clothes on, but Jax didn’t even have time to contemplate removing any of them because Dane was suddenly in a frenzy as he frantically rubbed against Jax’s cock over and over.

“Fuck,” Jax snarled as he dragged Dane’s mouth down for another kiss. Both of Dane’s hands tightened in his hair as Dane ripped his mouth free and panted against Jax’s lips. He pressed his forehead against Jax’s and pumped his hips until he was shouting out his pleasure as his orgasm ripped through him. Jax gripped Dane’s upper arms hard enough that he was sure there would be bruises and gave in to the release that coursed through him as wet heat flooded his slacks. Dane collapsed against him as harsh gasps escaped him and his lower body continued to rock against Jax gently, each slide causing an aftershock to ripple through Jax’s sated body.

Holy shit.
Jax closed his eyes in disbelief at the realization that the man on his lap had managed to make him come harder than he ever had in his entire life and they’d been fully clothed and barely touched. He released Dane’s arms and let his hands glide down until they were resting on Dane’s thighs. He could tell instantly when Dane awoke from his haze of pleasure because the muscles under his palms tightened. And then Dane was scrambling off his lap, a look of horror passing over his face as he took in the wet stain on Jax’s pants, then his own.

“Shit,” Dane muttered. Jax steeled himself for the verbal wounding he knew would be forthcoming. “Jax, I’m sorry,” Dane whispered as he backed away.

Not exactly the words Jax was expecting, but before he could respond Dane was rushing out of the kitchen and hurrying up the stairs. Jax sighed. At least the guy hadn’t tried to kick him out yet again. It was something.

***

Dane felt shame course through him as he pulled his sticky pants and underwear off. What the hell had he done? Dane stepped into the shower and instantly began washing away the evidence that he’d just rutted shamelessly on a man he barely knew and hadn’t even managed to last more than two minutes before coming in his pants like some teenage virgin. God, even when he’d been a virgin, his first performance had been better than the spectacle that had just happened in his kitchen…in a fucking chair! And to make matters worse, his dick was already hardening again as he remembered how good Jax had tasted, felt.

He’d known that kissing Jax would be a mistake but that hadn’t even slowed him down when he’d gotten out of that chair and grabbed the other man. Part of him hadn’t wanted to give Jax a chance to refuse him. The other part hadn’t wanted to chicken out before he got that one taste he’d been craving since laying eyes on the gorgeous stranger. Dane leaned his forehead against the shower wall, careful to avoid putting pressure on his injury.

“Idiot,” he whispered to himself.

Suddenly he felt a breeze behind him as the shower door was yanked open and then Jax, fully dressed, was stepping into the shower and spinning Dane around to face him.

“What exactly are you sorry for?”

“What?” Dane asked in confusion, still reeling from Jax’s intrusion. Jax crowded against him until Dane’s back hit the cold tile behind him.

“You said you were sorry. For what?” Jax snapped. “Are you sorry for what happened or sorry it was with me?”

Dane opened his mouth to speak but couldn’t force the humiliating words out. But when Jax cursed and turned to leave, Dane grabbed his arm and pulled him back. “I’m sorry because I practically assaulted you. And I couldn’t even hold out long enough to…” His voice trailed off and he dropped his eyes.

“Long enough to what?” Jax asked, his body once again pressing against Dane’s.

“To touch you the way I wanted,” Dane admitted, his humiliation complete. There was a moment of silence and then he felt Jax’s body shift against his.

“Then do it now,” Jax said and he looked up to see Jax working the buttons on his shirt free. Dane swallowed hard as the soaking wet shirt hit the shower floor with a splat. Dane tried to remind himself that not five minutes ago he’d been reprimanding himself for starting this whole thing with a kiss but the sight of Jax’s perfect chest made every thought leave his brain. Well defined pecs, hard six-pack abs, muscular forearms and huge biceps. Even Isaac with his model good looks couldn’t hold a candle to this man. Dane felt a flash of shame go through him at the thought of Isaac but forced it back. Isaac wasn’t here and Jax was and Dane needed to touch…be touched.

“You’re perfect,” Dane murmured as he reached out to trail his fingers down Jax’s midsection. Jax shuddered beneath his touch and Dane felt a rush of power go through him at the realization that he was responsible for it. He kept up his exploration, enjoying the feel of the hot, tight skin. Jax groaned when Dane’s fingers skimmed along his lower back and disappeared under the waistband of his slacks which were now stuck to the man like a second skin. He let the tip of one finger inspect the crease at the top of Jax’s ass and he wondered if Jax was exclusively a top or bottom or both.

“Yes,” Jax said.

Dane looked up in surprise and wondered if he had somehow spoken his thought aloud.

“I can see it in your eyes - you’re wondering if I’d let you take me. The answer is yes. Absolutely yes,” Jax said before he leaned down and kissed Dane hard. Dane moaned at the onslaught of feelings that rushed through him and then Jax’s hands were skimming over his shoulders and down his chest. A pang of insecurity shot through Dane and he grabbed Jax’s wrists.

“What? What is it?” Jax asked.

“I-” Dane started to say but then his mouth dried up and he couldn’t get the words out.

“I would never hurt you,” Jax whispered as he leaned down to press a soft kiss on Dane’s lips. God how Dane wanted to believe that but he wasn’t the first man to make such a promise. And he wouldn’t be the first to break it either.

“It’s not that,” Dane managed to admit. Then he bit the bullet and said, “I don’t look like you.”

***

It took Jax a minute to get what Dane was trying to explain to him and he was so keyed up that part of him wanted to brush away Dane’s concerns as nerves so they could get to the good stuff. But when Dane looked up at him he could see the insecurity deep in the man’s eyes. Jax knew he needed to tread carefully because someone had clearly done a number on Dane in the past.

“What do you mean?” he asked, allowing Dane to maintain his death grip on his wrists. Jax could actually see Dane’s skin flush red with his humiliation.

“I’m forty-two, Jax. I’ve got gray hairs and wrinkles. I can’t even remember the last time I went to a gym. I’m pale as a ghost because I wear sunscreen religiously and I think the episode downstairs proved just how little staying power I have.” The words came out in such a rush that Dane actually appeared to need to catch his breath afterwards.

“Can I have my wrists back?” Jax asked.

Dane looked down at where he was still hanging on to Jax before quickly releasing him. Jax didn’t miss the flare of disappointment flash through Dane. He grabbed Dane’s hands and lifted them above his head and pinned them to the shower wall with one hand.

“You ready to hear what I see?” Jax asked as Dane squirmed in his hold. He didn’t wait for Dane to respond as he trailed his free hand over Dane’s collarbone. “I see perfect, soft skin that I want to lick every inch of.” Jax continued his path of exploration down Dane’s side.

“A strong, healthy body that will line up perfectly with mine when we’re fucking.” His hand caressed Dane’s ass. “An ass that’s going to take every inch of me and surround me in fire.”

Dane made a harsh sound when Jax pushed between his cheeks and brushed his hole and he bit back a smile when Dane actually cried out in frustration as Jax removed his hand. But as soon as he wrapped it around Dane’s cock, the man was moaning and pushing into him.

“A cock that’s going to ream me until I can’t do anything but lay there and take it.” He gave Dane a quick stroke, then released his dick and moved his hand up to rejoin the other in pinning Dane’s arms to the wall. He intertwined their fingers and said, “Hands that gave me more pleasure in the last five minutes than I’ve had in a really long time.”

Jax brushed his lips over Dane’s. “Lips that are going to be so beautiful wrapped around my cock.”

Finally he lifted his eyes to meet Dane’s. “Eyes that go so dark they’re nearly black when you come.”

He kissed Dane once more before finally admitting, “I’m thirty-six years old, Dane, and I’ve never come as hard as I did downstairs and that scares the shit out of me. But what scares me more is you telling me to leave again.”

Jax knew the rest was up to Dane so he released him. Dane hadn’t said a word for several long moments and Jax hated the vulnerability that was snaking through his body. But when Dane pulled his head down for a searing kiss, his doubts fled and his lust came roaring back to life. He let Dane control the kiss for a few minutes and enjoyed the feel of the other man’s tongue caressing his lips and exploring every surface of his mouth. Jax had never been much for foreplay or kissing, but Dane was stealing that away from him too. Jax let his hands roam Dane’s body and swallowed Dane’s moan when Jax pulled him tight against his erection. Fingers worked to release the button on Jax’s pants along with the zipper and then a hot hand was closing around his length.

“Fuck,” he snarled against Dane’s neck as he pumped into Dane’s grip. His fingers bit into the globes of Dane’s ass and Jax wished to God he had a condom handy so that he could feel what it would be like to have Dane riding him as he pinned him up against the wall. But a tiny bit of common sense had prevailed before he’d gotten into the shower and he’d left his wallet on Dane’s bed. And there was no way in hell he was going to give Dane the chance to rethink things while he went in search of it so Jax went to plan B and dropped to his knees, forcing Dane to release him.

Jax kept his grip on Dane’s ass as his mouth searched out Dane’s cock and licked over the head. Dane groaned and Jax looked up to see the other man watching him intently. Jax took his time exploring every inch of Dane’s length before he went back to the tip and made love to it with his mouth. He alternated between swirling his tongue around it and pulling it briefly into his mouth for a quick suck. Dane’s hips kept trying to punch forward but Jax kept a tight hold on Dane’s ass. He heard Dane groan in frustration, but Jax wasn’t about to be rushed. Who knew what the hell would happen when this was over? If this was all he would get of the vet, he was going to make it fucking memorable for both of them.

Jax pressed his tongue into the slit on the end, then ran it all round the flared head before drawing back. He made sure Dane was still watching him when he dribbled some saliva on the crown.

“Jax, please!” Dane whispered harshly as fingers grabbed him by the hair and tried to force him forward.

“What do you want, Dane?” Jax asked as he looked up. Dane’s dick actually bounced against his chin as Dane squirmed against him and Jax kept his lips closed when the hard flesh rubbed over his mouth.

“I need you to suck me!”

“Like this?” Jax asked as he took the tip in his mouth again and gave it a light tug. “Or like this?” he said right before he sucked Dane down to the root, forcing his jaw to relax so he could take him in.

“Yes,” Dane screamed as he began thrusting in and out of Jax’s mouth. Jax drew back nearly to the tip before taking Dane in again. The grip on his hair was painful, but he loved every second of it. He released one of Dane’s ass cheeks and lifted his finger to Dane’s mouth.

“Open,” he ordered as he released Dane’s dick. Dane did as he asked instantly. “Show me how hard you want me to suck your dick,” he said harshly. Dane’s mouth was like a vise on his finger and Jax smiled at how fervently Dane was going to town on the digit. God, if Dane gave Jax’s cock that kind of treatment, Jax would be the one lasting less than a minute.