Love Me Some You: A Complete Novel (15 page)

~ 21 ~

~ Jessica ~

So far, so good.

I hadn’t seen Ryan ever since he had come round to my apartment, causing trouble with Forrest. As far as I was concerned, I didn’t want anything to do with Ryan. We were over. He didn’t need me and I certainly didn’t need him. I wasn’t about to let him come back into my life and ruin everything that I worked on with Forrest.

Forrest and I were getting more and more serious every single day. He was everything I needed and more. He was the only man who knew how to care for me, sex me and handle me. I just couldn’t see myself having a relationship with anyone else but him.

My birthday was tomorrow and I was finally turning twenty-three. I knew that Forrest had a few tricks up his sleeves, but I was just looking forward to spending some time with him.

These past few days, we hadn’t been able to spend any quality time together, because of work. Forrest had trainer sessions to do and he had to keep going back and forth to Trey’s to see his mother, for some odd reason. He never said why, he just said he had to keep going to see her.

Anyway, I was busy with work because I was receiving more modelling opportunities. A very prestigious modeling agency called IMG Models were looking to sign me and I was preparing to meet them. So I had been busy making my portfolio better and doing photo shoots to improve my skills.

“Jess, I’m going out for lunch, you wanna come?” Stacy my manager asked me. She knew how tired I was from doing photo shoots back to back, nonstop.

“You paying?” I questioned her cockily, raising one brow up at her. It was my birthday tomorrow and I didn’t see the harm in being treated to lunch right now.

“Yes,” she rolled her eyes at me. “Let’s go.”

Thirty minutes later, we were having lunch at a nearby restaurant near work.

With Monique gone I was definitely missing my girlfriend. Giselle was far too loved up with Jayson to even bother to remember to come and spy on Forrest and I. Tasha was too tired fucking her man all the time, so there was no way she was going to call me.

Stacy was the only person I had to talk to.

“How’s your man?” she asked, before wiping the crumbs that had formed on her mouth with her napkin.

“He’s fine. Just busy...” I sighed deeply.

I knew that Forrest felt angered by Ryan coming over and trying to “claim” me as his.

“Hmm... What’s wrong Jess?”

She knew me too damn well. Five years as my manger and she could read me like a book. She always gave me great advice though and she knew how to get me a modeling gig within seconds. She was my angel.

“Ryan showed up three days ago at my apartment, Stace.”

“Wait, what?!” Her eyes widened with surprise. “Why?”

Stacy hadn’t first known who Ryan was. She only knew him as my mysterious boyfriend who always gave me problems. The only time she had met him was when he showed up to my workplace begging for forgiveness, for cheating on me.

“He says he’s back for me.” I shivered as I said that. Ryan knew exactly what to say and what to do to me, in the past, to make me fall back into his deadly trap.

“He’s stupid, Jess. You don’t need him. You have a wonderful relationship with Forrest, right?” she questioned me, already knowing my answer.

“Yes Stace, I do.”

“And that’s all you need. Don’t make a mistake and ruin something so good. Forrest makes you happy, I can tell. You come into work smiling all the time, glowing even. You’re happy, Jess. Don’t fuck it up.” She always gave me such good advice.

She was talking as if I planned to fuck things up with Forrest.

No way was I going to do that. Forrest was staying with me.

After lunch, I was free to go home as I had no more photo shoots for the day. I was hoping my baby was home so that I could finally get the chance to cuddle up with him for more than five minutes. I just wanted to stay in bed and talk to him.

Once opening my apartment door, I spotted a small note that had been pushed underneath. I bent down low to pick it up, before slowly opening the folded piece of paper.

“You know that you mean so much to me, right? And I never want to lose you. I’ve left a little trail of notes for you, just follow it and I’ll see you soon beautiful.”

No name.

This was obviously Forrest. He was being so romantic and I couldn’t help but feel excited going on this mini adventure that he had planned.

I placed my work handbag on my couch and quickly spotted the next note lying on my coffee table.

“Remember how much you like sushi? Well, I definitely do remember. Head to your post box downstairs and you’ll find a package of your favorite sushi, with another little clue from me.”

~ Forrest ~

“So, Forrest, are you ready for Jess’s birthday?” Trey questioned me.

I nodded happily at him before looking down at my phone. Zero text messages from Jessica. I guessed that she was still at work doing her shoots. She was looking to get signed on by a very prestigious modeling company so she was going to be very busy this month.

However, tomorrow was her birthday and I had a little surprise for her, with the help of Trey and Mama.

“Trey, can I ask you a question?” I asked him. I wanted to find out something important from him.

He used to date Monique and she’s Jess’s best friend. He probably knew who Ryan was.

“Sure, bro.”

“Do you know who Ryan is?”

Ryan showing up like that on Jessica’s apartment door really pissed me off. He had no right trying to get past me. As far as I was concerned, Jess belonged to me not him.

“Yeah I do... We used to be really close. Best friends even. But he fucked up and I cut him off.”

“Wait... So you know him?”

“Yup. Known him for a few years. Why?”

“He showed up at Jess’s apartment three days ago, wanting her back,” I told Tremaine.

“Seriously?” He looked curious.

“Yes, and I almost knocked that nigga out. He thought he could just barge pass me and I would just allow it.”

“What did he say to Jess?”

“He said that he didn’t give a fuck about me and was coming back for her.” I sighed deeply. Ryan saying those words not only angered me, they scared me. “He’s not going to get her.”

“Forrest, all I’ma say is... Watch your girl. Ryan isn’t one to just back down so easily, trust me, I know him. He’s slid his way back into her heart many times before, bro. He’s determined and he’s very smart. So just watch your girl.”

Tremaine’s words only added to my anger and anxiety. I trusted Jess. I just didn’t trust Ryan. He was the one that was trying to steal my girl, and
I
needed to be cautious?

An hour later, I drove home to Jess’s apartment only to find that she wasn’t there.

It was now seven, meaning she should have finished work two hours ago. Where the hell was she?

~ Jessica ~

“Ryan... For fuck’s sake,” I sighed deeply, not liking this situation that I was now in.

Ryan was the one that had left me all those mini notes and now he had lured me into his trap. I was now currently sitting in my car, watching as Ryan stood in front, watching me.

He had lured me into a parking lot. A fucking parking lot!

“Jess, come out,” he said, still standing tall.

I didn’t want to come out and face him. He was an idiot, a cheater and a liar. I wanted to go home, but Ryan would probably follow me home to where Forrest was. I didn’t want that.

Forrest had called me six times in the last five minutes. I didn’t dare pick it up. He would sense that I was at a place where I was not supposed to be.

With Ryan.

Ryan looked fine. Very fine indeed, with his freshly waved hair and clean shaved face. I couldn’t help but notice how sexy he looked in his black suit too. He was looking very handsome and all I wanted to do wa-

No.

This is exactly what he wants. For you to fall back in love with him, and I refuse to fall into his trap.

“Jess, I’m not going anywhere until you come out.”

Shit.

I didn’t want to do this. I could already picture the things that could go wrong with this situation.

Reluctantly, I removed my seatbelt and unlocked my car doors, before stepping out into the cool, warm air.

Closing my door, I stood outside my car keeping my head bent low, leaning against my car, hearing his loud footsteps get closer.

“Jess...” He was almost near. Just a few more steps... “Baby.”

I looked up only to see Ryan’s handsome brown eyes, staring at me. My God...

I’m not his baby anymore. He lost the right to call me that. “I’m not your baby anymore, Ryan.”

“Jess... I’m sorry I hurt you.” He tried to lift his hand to my face, but I stopped him right in his tracks.

“Don’t fucking touch me, Ryan.”

“Jess, I’ve changed. I’m not the same old Ryan anymore. I got a new job, I’m different baby. And I’m here to get you back,” he gently said, moving his hands on to my waist.

“You cheated on me,” I snapped at him.

“I know, I’m so-”

“You lied to me.” Again, I snapped at him.

“Jess, I’m so-”

“And you fucked other girls while you fucked me! You never gave a shit about me and you don’t now!” I shouted at him angrily, removing his hands from my waist.

“Jess, I love you! I’m sorry I did all those things to you baby, I’m so, so sorry.” He slowly leaned into me.

“Fuck off Ry...”

One kiss and I was a goner.

His tongue began to dance with mine, a dance that was becoming more and more heated by the second. Ryan always knew how to kiss me. He knew exactly what to do to make me fall back in his trap, so easily.

And this is what I was so afraid of.

One hand traveled to my butt, another hand traveled to my waist.

I tried to resist. I tried so hard to resist him, but I just couldn’t. There were still feelings for him.

But there were stronger feelings for Forrest.

One push was all it took to get Ryan off me. I gave him one hard slap before saying, “Don’t you ever fucking try that again.”

~ 22 ~

~ Jessica ~

“Mmmm...” My eyes opened to a wet tongue sucking on my pussy. Lord... I thank you so much for letting him have such a talented tongue. He’s always had one. I knew from the very first day that I met him, he would drive me wild with that tongue of his.

My moans filled the room, as he went deeper and gripped onto my thighs tightly. My legs were shaking and my eyes couldn’t stop themselves from rolling back. Every lick, every swirl, every lap... Goddamn! This man is going to make me go crazy one day because of his talent.

“Oh baby...” He knew exactly how to work that tongue. He knew exactly all the right skills to make me cum. It was as if my pussy was his last meal for the rest of his life. He was eating me as if I was the only thing that could keep him alive. He wanted me to cum uncontrollably all for him.

Once I did, I couldn’t stop shaking uncontrollably. He had done this to me.

“Forrest... Damn.”

Once he licked up all my juices, he slowly came up from my legs, only to look me in the eyes and smile those pearly whites of his.

“Happy birthday, baby,” he whispered to me seductively.

Twenty-three. Taken. Successful. Beautiful. Smart. Happy.

That’s what I was, right?

The last one though, I’m not so sure about.

Ryan kissing me definitely made me feel some type of way. I didn’t want to feel anything for Ryan, but I did. I had fallen back into his trap again, I just knew it. What the fuck was wrong with me though? Why the hell had I gotten out of my car? Why had I kissed him back? Why had I allowed him to put his mouth on me?! Why had I allowed him to touch me?

“Thank you, baby.” Forrest giving me head as a mini birthday treat really turned me on. All I wanted now was the real deal. “I enjoyed that a lot... But...” I slowly pulled his shorts down, “I want more.”

“Hmm, well you are the birthday girl so... anything you want baby.” He allowed me to pull his shorts down and latched his lips on to mine.

I needed to forget about Ryan. I had to forget about Ryan. I was in a relationship with an amazing man, who adores me. I don’t need my ex-boyfriend who never gave two fucks about me. He never knew how to make me feel like a real woman. Forrest does though. Forrest drives me wild every single time I make love with him. He has me cumming before I even realize it. He makes me feel good.

I needed to forget about Ryan. But why can’t I?

***

“Baby... All this for me?”

“Yes baby, all this for you. Now strip those sexy clothes off.”

Forrest had not only prepared a romantic candle lit dinner for me at Trey’s mansion, he had also warmed up the hot tub and was ready for us to get freaky.

He was so sweet. He had prepared champagne, strawberries dipped in chocolate, hot oils, the whole nine. Mama Forrest had helped him with the delicious dinner and Trey had helped him set up the hot tub.

No wonder why he was always coming over to Trey’s mansion. He was trying to prepare my birthday surprise. Damn... he really went all out for me. He hadn’t even given me my official birthday present yet, but it felt as if this was all one big present for me.

As much as I wanted to enjoy myself on birthday with my man, I couldn’t. My mind kept wandering off to Ryan and how I hadn’t even bothered to tell Forrest about him kissing me.

He was going to be mad. He might even leave me if he finds out that I gave into his kiss. He might even kill me if he finds out that Ryan sent me a birthday text message this morning, and I almost smiled at it.

I was falling into deep shit and I knew it.

I didn’t want to be involved in an unnecessary love triangle with my boyfriend and my ex.

Why couldn’t Ryan just leave me alone? Why didn’t he just fuck off back to where he was and forget about me completely.

I needed Monique. She was still busy in New York though, making all that big money for herself.

She sent me a voice message on WhatsApp this morning, wishing me happy birthday and apologizing several times for not being able to call me. She couldn’t get off work, but hey, I didn’t blame her.

Work pays the bills.

What the hell was I going to do about Ryan though? It was obvious to me that he wasn’t going to give up without a fight.

I don’t want him to fight for me, because I’m scared that if he fights for me, he’ll win.

Forrest and I have been together for a month.

Ryan and I had been together for a year and a half.

He knew how to make me fall in love with him over and over again. Even when he cheated on me, I still went back to him.

“You’re so tense, Jess,” Forrest whispered in my ears, as he gently massaged my naked shoulders.

He was absolutely right. I was tense, scared and worried.

“I’m fine, Forrest.” I turned to face him. We were in the hot tub, completely naked. All I wanted was Forrest to make me forget about Ryan. “Fuck me Forrest...” I gently kissed his soft lips, before reaching down in the lukewarm water to gently stroke his big dick with my wet hands.

He was getting harder and harder by the minute.

“Baby, please... I need you to fuck me.” It’s the only way I’ll erase Ryan from me. It’s the only way.

“Forre- Uhhh!” I gasped, as he quickly thrusted his long length deep into me. His fingers dug into my ass cheeks, pushing himself fully inside me.

“How... could I... not fuck... my beautiful girl on her... birthday?” he groaned, pushing himself in and out of me, between every panted word.

He held on to my ass even tighter, thrusting his hips with force into my wet pussy.

If dicks could kill, I would be dead.

“Oh baby... You know exactly what to do... You’re so good,” I moaned loudly. He was driving me insane. He buried his face in my neck and breathed heavily against my skin and used more force to slam his massive dick into my drenched pussy. “Yes baby... Fuck my pussy, just like that... Uh!”

Even underwater sex felt amazing.

My head was spinning. All I could feel was Forrest fucking me, faster and faster.

But all I could still think about was Ryan.

“Whose pussy is it?” he said as he gently kissed my throat, squeezing his strong biceps around my waist, as he fucked my brains out.

I couldn’t even speak. This moment right now, was mind blowing. Forrest was doing me so well. I couldn’t deny it. But still, pictures of Ryan popped into my head. I could just picture him holding me, kissing every inch of my body and fucking me.

I moaned softly, as Forrest continued to thrust deeper and harder. My nails were digging into his muscular back and I had wrapped my thighs around his to keep from having his dick slip out my pussy.

“Answer me, Jess,” he groaned deeply against my neck. Ryan had definitely clouded my thoughts. It was as if every single image of when I had sex with him had just chosen to pop into my head and slowly make me drift away from Forrest.

“Uhhh... It’s yours, Rya...”

I was almost close, I was almost close, I was almost close! But I had fucked up. And Forrest had immediately clocked because he stopped thrusting into me. As soon as I looked at his frustrated face, I knew I had just made the biggest mistake of my life.

Shit! Shit! Shit!

~ Forrest ~

What the fuck did she just say?

Lord, please tell me that my girlfriend did not just scream out her ex-boyfriend’s name while I was rocking her world.

While I was fucking her.

I immediately stopped. Jess froze too and I lifted my head from her neck, only to see the guilt in her pretty eyes.

“What the fuck Jess?” I questioned her angrily, slowly pulling out of her.

We were both on the edge of our release, and I knew that there was no way we were going to get it now.

She had killed the mood.

“Forrest... I’m so sorry! I really didn’t mean to say his name; it was an accident. Baby, please,” she tried to plead with me, but I wasn’t going to listen.

I wasn’t upset. I was fucking mad.

What the hell had she just done? Calling out Ryan’s name, while I was making love to her. This wasn’t funny.

I immediately pushed her off of me, before quickly climbing out the tub. I was still so horny, and so damn hard! But Jess had just fucked up. There was no more love making tonight, I knew that for sure.

“Get out. Dry yourself. Wear your clothes and get in the car,” I quickly snapped at her, before heading inside Trey’s.

She had called out another man’s name while I was fucking her. Her ex-boyfriend’s name. How the hell was that possible?!

Had they been fucking? They must have been, because why on earth would she call out his name?

She’s cheating on me? Fuck!

I’ve been so faithful to her. Never once did I look at my female clients in a sexual way, no matter how hot they were. All I kept thinking about was her! I never once said to myself,
oh, I wonder how good it would be, to fuck one of my female clients. I could fuck their brains out all night and Jess would never find out
. I never once looked at their butts too long, or body, not matter how sexy they were. All I kept thinking about was Jess! I could have cheated on her. I could have crushed her. I could have broken her heart. I could have snapped her heart into two, just like that.

But I fucking loved her.

Fifteen minutes later we were both in Trey’s Land Rover that he had let me borrow for the night. As far as I was concerned, there was no more night. Everything I had planned for her, she had ruined just as she was about to orgasm. She clearly didn’t want me in the first place. She called out Ryan’s name by accident, so she clearly wanted him.

She kept silent in the car, paying attention to the road ahead of her.

She knew exactly what she had done to me, calling Ryan’s name like that in the middle of our sex session. She had crushed me. She said to me that I was the one she wanted. She said she didn’t want him anymore.

I guess she lied.

Once back at her apartment, I expected her to get out the car so I could drive back to Trey’s. I was not dealing with her tonight at all.

Birthday or no birthday, she had fucked shit up.

“Forrest, I’m so-” She reached for my hand that was holding onto the driver’s wheel but I moved it away from her. “Forrest, please, I didn’t me-”

“You didn’t mean to what, Jess?! Call out your ex boyfriend’s name while I was fucking you?!” I shouted at her, anger definitely clouding my thoughts. I was boiling.

“I didn’t mean to, Forrest, I swear,” she said quietly, her voice filled with sadness.

“Are you cheating on me?” I asked her. I needed to know the truth.

“No, nev-”

“Are you fucking your ex-boyfriend behind my back?” There’s something going on between them two, I just know it.

“No, I’m not!”

“Then why the fu...” I took a deep breath, trying to maintain my composure. I didn’t want to lose control. “Why did you call out his name while I was fucking you?”

“He led me to a parking lot yesterday, with a bunch of notes and mini gifts. Then he kissed me Forrest but I swear we didn’t slee-”

“And you didn’t feel to tell me?” Why?! Why?! Why?! Why doesn’t my own girlfriend trust me?!

“I didn’t want you to get angry, Forrest. Baby, please,” she tried to plead with me. “It’s my birthday... I’m sorry.” She had no excuse. She wasn’t drunk because we hadn’t had that much champagne.

“Sorry just doesn’t cut it, Jess.” My hands went up to my forehead, feeling how hot I was. I needed to remove this dumb suit I wore for her, as soon as possible. Her birthday was now officially over. Done.

“Forrest, please, I...” Her voice was starting to shake, but I didn’t care.

“Get out the car, Jess.”

“No, Forrest, just come upstairs. We can talk abou-”

“Get out!” I snapped at her again, not bothering to look at her. I knew by now she was crying, but I wasn’t going to allow her to manipulate me with her tears.

“Forrest, it’s my birthday. You’re supposed to stay with me.” Oh, so it was her birthday? Her first birthday with me and she fucked it up.

“Get out the fucking car and go and be with Ryan!” I looked straight at her, seeing the tears running down her soft cheeks. I wanted to wipe them away, I wanted to comfort her again. I couldn’t though. She had fucked up.

“No! I want to be with you!” she shouted back at me, not willing to give up.

I on the other hand, had given up.

“Do you know how much it hurt to hear you moan his name in my ears, while I made love to you? While I fucked you Jessica, you were thinking of him!” My eyes started watering. If she stayed any longer, I knew I would burst into tears.

She was thinking of him while I was making love to her, and knowing that made my blood boil.

“I couldn’t help it... It was an accident. I don’t want him, Forrest!” All this persuading of hers was useless to be honest. “I want you.”