Love Me Some You: A Complete Novel (16 page)

“You’re a liar, Jessica.”

“I’m not Forrest, please! All I want is you.”

“I don’t want you!” I snapped at her, irritated at her.

“I love you Forrest, please... don’t do this to me baby.” I had never heard her say those words to me before. And I had never told her I loved her, but she knew. Hearing them definitely shocked me and threw me off track. Jessica had just admitted that she loved me. She loved me, but yet she was willing to moan out her ex-boyfriend’s while we were fucking.

She didn’t love me.

“Get out, Jess.”

“I love you Forrest Xavier Tucker!”

“Get the fuck out now Jess! We’re over.”

~ 23 ~

~ Jessica ~

“Jess, I know you’re in there! Open up Jess, please. Everybody’s worried sick about you, girl! Jess! You can’t stay in there alone forever.”

Yes. I. Can.

There’s no point of me even bothering to go out and try to keep a brave face on, when I’ve just lost the best person that was in my life.

It’s been four days since he broke up with me. I’ve been constantly blowing up his phone with text messages and calls, trying to get him to forgive me.

He hasn’t replied to a single one or even attempted to call me back.

It’s been four days, and I already feel like I’m going to never be happy ever again.

Twenty-three. Lonely. Stupid. Depressed.

“Jess, open the door please!” Giselle continued to knock loudly on my door.

There was no point of her trying because there was no way that I was letting her in.

If she could somehow get Forrest Tucker back into my life, then I would let her in.

I reached for my phone that was on my bedside lamp stand, and decided to send another text message to Forrest, hoping he would respond.

Jess:
“Forrest, I’m sorry and I love you...”

I admit what I did was wrong. Very wrong. I shouldn’t have done it at all, because now I’m in deep shit with the man I love.

Over these past four days, I’ve been doing some very deep thinking.

I don’t want Ryan. I never wanted Ryan. Calling out his name was a mistake. I allowed him to get stuck inside my head and control me. I don’t want Ryan at all. He’s the one that ruined things in the past for us, so why on earth would I think that he would make everything good between us again.

I don’t know why he wants me back, but right now I don’t care about him at all.

There’s only one man that I care about because he’s the one that has stolen my heart. I know what I did to him hurt him, but I really am sorry. I was stupid, dumb and reckless.

If Forrest called out another female’s name while we were fucking, I probably would kill her and him. So I don’t blame him for being so angry at me.

I just want Forrest back. Is that too much to ask for?

~ Forrest ~

New text message from Jess:

“Forrest, I’m sorry and I love you...”

“Forrest, it’s been four days. Just go and talk to her,” Tremaine told me, as he peeped at the text message Jess had just sent me.

No.

I’m not going to talk to her. I don’t want to talk to her. I missed her so much! Lord knew, these four days have been hell without her. Even my clients had noticed that I’m not in my same, cheerful mood. It’s like she’d stolen all the happiness out of my soul and hidden it with her.

I’m still annoyed at what she did. I’m still pissed that she had the audacity to call Ryan’s name out while I was fucking her.

How the hell was I supposed to forgive her and forget about her calling another guy’s name?

She hurt me. She crushed me.

I didn’t mean to break up with her on her birthday, but what she had done to me had pushed me to the edge.

It was as if she thought that the only thing that she could do was say “sorry” and everything would be okay.

No.

It was obvious she still had feelings for her ex-boyfriend and no matter how hard I tried to make her forget about him, she’ll still love him with all her heart.

How am I supposed to compete with that?

I loved her so much though. I couldn’t stop thinking about her. I was struggling to even sleep properly. My food had no taste. Everything just seemed to be pointless right now.

“Forrest, you need to talk to her. You cannot keep your emotions bottled up. You need to make things right,” Tremaine advised me gently, clearly trying to get me to fix things with my girlfriend.

Scratch that - my ex-girlfriend.

I never would have imagined that she would become my ex-girlfriend anytime soon.

“Trey, have you ever had a girl call out another man’s name while you’re making love to her?” I questioned him, already knowing his answer.

“No, bu-”

“Exactly. So you have no clue how I’m feeling right now, Trey. You wouldn’t want to talk to Monique if she had done what Jess had done to me.”

“Maybe... but I’d still talk to her eventually. I would want to make things better again because of how much I love her. She means everything to me. I know everyone makes mistakes and shit, we’re not perfect. We’re just human. I wouldn’t just leave things and not talk to her at all. Jess is your girl and you need to find out why she called out Ryan’s name and how you can make sure it never happens again. If you have to fuck his name out her brain, then so be it. But you just can’t leave things like this. You need to talk to her, Forrest.”

He was right.

Honestly, I wanted to fuck Ryan’s name out her brain. I wanted to make her forget about that nigga completely.

He was the one that had ruined things between Jess and I. We were absolutely fine, until he came from nowhere and started messing with her. It’s all his fault.

I know I need to talk to Jessica, but not now. I’m not ready to face her. She just needs to give me a little more time.

I decided to respond back to her text message.

Forrest:
“I just need some more space away from you.”

I sighed deeply, before sending her another text.

Forrest:
“I love you.”

~ Jessica ~

“You did what?”

“Giselle, please. I’ve already had Forrest shouting at me.”

I had finally let Giselle in. Only because she threatened to break my door down, and I didn’t have time trying to replace my broken door.

“Jessica... That’s not cool. How the fu-”

“Giselle, I know! I was stupid, I shouldn’t have done it. I regret it so much because now Forrest doesn’t want to have anything to do with me.” I sighed deeply, again regretting what I had done four days ago.

“I wouldn’t either.”

“Gee. Thanks Giselle for making me feel so much better about this whole situation,” I said to her sarcastically.

“Look, I’m sorry babe, but I hope you understand that what you did to Forrest was foul. You don’t do that to a man. Ever. You not only crushed his self-esteem, you knocked down his confidence and he’ll feel reluctant to fuck you, because he’ll be afraid you’ll start bringing other males’ names into the bedroom.”

She was right.

What if Forrest never wanted nothing to do with me ever again? How would I cope without my Forrest? Only Lord knows how I’m coping right now.

Suddenly, my phone’s LED light flashed brightly, telling me that I had a notification come in. I was praying that Forrest had replied to my text message. I needed to know that he was okay.

New text message from Forrest:

Forrest:
“I just need some more space away from you.”

Forrest:
“I love you.”

Seeing his message just made me melt inside. He loved me. He just needed me to give him some more space. I understand and I’ll respect his wishes. All I know is that I’m not giving up on him. He means everything to me and I’m going to make sure that everything goes back to the way it was before.

There was just one thing I needed to take care of.

~ Ryan ~

I hadn’t seen Jessica since I managed to get her to meet me at the parking lot and frankly, waiting for her was getting tiring. I just had to get some pussy and I knew that if Jess hadn’t contacted me soon, I would go looking somewhere else.

The thing about Jess that I’ve always loved about her, is the fact that she was such a good rider. She knew how to ride me so well and honestly, I missed that. That’s all I wanted. That’s all I came for. I wasn’t looking for some damn commitment, all I wanted was a quick hit and run.

I didn’t even know she had a boyfriend. He just happened to get caught in the crossfire. I was only going to seduce Jessica and leave her. There was no way that I was going to be in a relationship with her, or anyone for that matter. I just wanted to be free, single and wild. I had been traveling all over the world, to different countries and meeting so many beautiful women.

But none of them could ride me as well Jessica.

I just couldn’t get her out of my head. I needed to make sure that before I left LA, I fucked her. I was leaving in two days, and I wasn’t planning on coming back.

I had no family here, no friends. Well, I used to have Trey as my best friend, but after we got into an argument about a business opportunity, I decided to choose him over money. So I lost my best friend.

I’m not even going to lie, I missed Tremaine. He meant a lot to me. He was always there for me. He always listened to me, but I never treated him like a proper friend. I used him for my own personal gain, stealing business ventures before he even knew, using his house for my crazy parties, and fucking some of the girls that wanted him.

In a way, I did him a favor. He never would have fucked Monique at Jess’s house party if it wasn’t for me. But when the dude fell in love with her, I just knew that he wasn’t going to be single Tremaine with me anymore and that the player Tremaine, was long gone.

Suddenly, a small knock came from my door.

I was currently staying at my old apartment that I hadn’t been bothered to sell or rent out yet. But I was planning to as soon as I left L.A. for good. I had no use to be here anymore.

“I’m coming.” I said, reluctantly getting up from my couch and heading over to my door.

I opened it only to be faced with the one woman who I had been craving to see and craving to fuck.

“Jess.” I was surprised that she had actually come to see me. After I had kissed her in the parking lot it was as if she wanted nothing to do with me. She looked pretty. Her long jet black hair was slicked back into a ponytail. She was wearing skinny blue jeans and sporting a white Celiné top.

“What ar-”

One hard slap was what she gave me.

I was shocked, pissed and turned on all at the same time. Her slaps always hurt! What was she doing coming round to my apartment and slapping me?

“You are a fucking idiot. I hope you die alone,” she snapped at me, before trying to give me another slap. However, I stopped her before she could deliver the hard slap.

“Why are you trying to slap me, Jess?!” I held onto both of her hands tightly, struggling to keep her from hitting me again. When it came to fighting, Jess was no joke.

“Because you got into my head and you made me lose the best thing that’s ever happened to me, Ryan. You are the reason why I haven’t seen my boyfriend in four days. You’re the reason my boyfriend wants me to give him some space. I hate you!” she shouted at me, still trying to wiggle free out of my tight grip.

“I didn’t do sh-”

“Yes you did! You led me to a parking lot, and then kissed me. You tried to seduce me Ryan, and you almost succeeded.” She broke free from my grasp, and delivered the hard hit.

“Ouch! Jess!”

“You deserve all the pain in the world Ryan, and to think that I almost wanted you back again. I’m never ever going to get back with you. Not in a million years, Ryan. You ain’t never getting all of this again.” She slid her hands down her sexy body, letting me know that I was never getting a piece of her again. “You are not the one for me. You never were. I’m just glad that your phone was the one that proved to me that you were not the one for me. I’m glad you got caught by accidentally dialing my number. I’m glad that I’m not your girl anymore. And I pity any other girl that falls into your trap. You are a loser. An idiot. A CHEATER. I hope you live a very sad life, all alone Ryan, because you’re not a good person. Don’t ever come and see me ever again. I will kill you. Don’t text me, call me or even try to put your dirty mouth on me. Just make sure you stay far away from me. Or I’ll get my boyfriend to beat your ass. Fool!” She gave me one last dirty look, sucking her teeth rudely before walking off, leaving me to stand by my door, ashamed.

She had really just fucked up my confidence with her words. She had cut deep. But I didn’t care about her. She could do whatever she liked with her new boyfriend. As for me? I’ll be with a new chick soon, completely naked in my bed.

Fuck her.

~ Jessica ~

I sighed happily, feeling good about what I had just done. I only wished that I had done it sooner. I was done with Ryan.

All I needed now was Forrest. I was going to respect his wishes, of course. He wanted space, I would give him space. But I was definitely going to get him back. I love him so much and I just want him to know how sorry I am. I was just being so stupid and naive falling back into Ryan’s trap, but that won’t happen ever again.

I’m done with Ryan.

I’m getting my baby boy back. I missed him so much and I know he misses me too. It’s been four days without him and the first two days were hell. I was crying constantly and I even fell asleep in his shirt. I can’t do this anymore. I need him. I love him.