Rock My Bed (26 page)

I stare at myself in the mirror, wondering what happened to the levelheaded girl I was a short time ago. Feeling this way is the very thing I wanted to protect myself from, and yet here I stand, miserable that the man I really want didn’t want me back. When I offered him my heart, he crushed it in the palm of his hand like it meant nothing to him. I refuse to let him do it to me again. 

I sigh. Why couldn’t he tell me he loved me back when I told him in the bar? Why now when I’m trying to move on and give Isaac a chance. He’s making me feel like the villain in this situation. 

The lock on the door clicks behind me and I see Zach step into view through the mirror. “What are you doing in here? You aren’t done torturing me yet?”

He shoves his hands into his jean pockets and nods. “I deserve that. I’m sorry for how I’ve been acting. It’s childish and I really don’t have a good excuse other than seeing you with him is driving me bat shit crazy.”

I turn to face him. “How do you think I felt when you said you were with those two women and then pulled the girl into your lap at the bar? Do you think this is easy for me? I’m trying to move on like you told me to do, but I can’t with you always making things so difficult for me!”

He takes a couple steps and wraps his fingers around my upper arms. “I’m sorry, all right. I’d take it all back if I could. I don’t mean to hurt you, Kitten. I fucking love you and I don’t know how to handle it.”

Shock registers on his face as he realizes what he’s said to me. He rubs his face and takes a deep breath before looking me square in the eye. “I love you.”

“You love me?” I whisper. “Why did you wait until now to tell me?”

He bites his lower lip. “I thought I was doing you a favor by pushing you away. As much as I hate to admit it, a guy like Isaac would be a much better choice than a piece of shit like me. I wish I could give you every part of me, but I’m so fucking broken that I’m not sure where to start.”

I place my hand over his heart. “Start by giving me this. All I ever ask is that you love me back just as much as I love you.”

“What if I can’t? I don’t know how to love someone.” 

Tears fill my eyes and when I blink the warm, salty liquid flows down my cheeks. “You can. You already have. You love your mom and Hailey. I see it every time you talk about them, what they meant to you. I want you to let me in. I love being with you. I love the way you make me feel. I do want to be with you, but I’m afraid you’ll crush my heart.”

“I swear I’ll never hurt you again. I’ll spend the rest of my life proving how much I love you if you let me.” He cups my cheeks in his hands. “I love you, Aubrey. I think I have from the moment you first turned me down.”

I smile at him and wrap my arms around him. It’s crazy and us together makes absolutely zero sense, but I can’t fight the feelings I have for him. “I love you, too.”

I close my eyes and focus on how good he makes me feel. It would absolutely crush me at this point if this doesn’t work out again, but I can’t worry about that, because right now I know he’s being sincere.

He kisses me like he’s never kissed me before. It’s like he needs me to breath. He grabs my hips and hoists me up on the counter. “Thank god you picked a dress to wear tonight. This would be a lot harder in if not.”

He reaches up my skirt and yanks my underwear down before sliding them the rest of the way off my body. There’s no time wasted as he circles my clit with the tip of his finger in a forceful rhythm. I bite my lip and throw my head back as I moan from the sheer pleasure of his touch. I’ve missed being with him so much. 

Within a minute my eyes roll back and my entire body shakes as I come hard against his hand. 

I gasp as I come down from the high. All the time we’ve spent learning each other’s bodies comes in handy during a quickie like this. 

Zach unzips his pants and shoves them along with his boxers down to his thighs before he grabs the base of his shaft and guides it into me. A long moans flies from his mouth as it pushes his cock all the way in. 

“Oh, god,” I cry as softly as I can while he plunges into me. 

We hold each other’s gaze and I chew on my bottom lip. Zach leans over and nips my ear, grazing his teeth along my skin. “I love you.” 

“I love you, too,” I breathe.

He grips my hips harder as he drives into me desperate to find his release. Small beads of sweat form on his brow as he works his way deeper inside me. I can’t peel my eyes away from his face as he rocks into me again and again in a steady rhythm. 

Long strands of my ponytail come loose and cascade around my shoulders. I can only imagine what a mess my hair must be after this.  

He wraps his arms around me and I arch my back against his hands. To make him come faster I clench my muscles around his cock and hold them as tight as I can. 

“Fuck, Kitten.”

Both of his hands find their way into my hair after he pulls the elastic band from it, allowing it to fall around my shoulders. I wrap my fingers around the edge of the counter and brace myself as he picks up speed. 

“You’re so fucking sexy,” he says against my lips. “Shit.” 

His entire body tenses under my touch. I squeeze my legs around him as he lets out a string of curses as he releases inside me, groaning so loud I’m sure the entire wedding party heard us.

He kisses my face all over. “You’re fucking amazing, Aubrey.  Every time keeps getting better. I promise I’ll love you until the day I die.” 

I kiss his lips and rest my forehead against his. “What am I going to do about Isaac?”

He rubs my back. “Tell him you’re with me and he needs to go home.”

I shake my head. “I can’t be rude to him. He’s my boss I still have to deal with him.”

He kisses my neck. “Fuck that job. I want you to stay with me all the time anyway.”

“I didn’t work hard for my degree to flush my first job opportunity down the damn toilet. Can we play it cool for this weekend and I’ll let him down gently Monday.”

He sighs. “We can do that, but if I see his lips touch you, I’ll rip them off his face.”

“You’re impossible,” I say.

After a few last kisses I slip on my panties and try to fix my disheveled hair. We leave the bathroom together while still adjusting our clothes and I freeze in my tracks. Isaac waits down the hall from the bathroom with the gift he had at the table in his hands, waiting for us to come out. The moment our eyes connect, he starts shaking his head and turns on his heel.

Instantly, I feel like total shit because I know what it’s like to want someone who doesn’t fully want you back. I always swore I would never be that person, yet here I am doing the exact thing I hate.

 “Isaac?” I call his name as he blasts through the door to the parking lot. 

He marches out towards the car, but doesn’t stop as I keep calling his name. When he reaches Lanie’s car he jerks on the locked door handle a few times before yelling, “Fuck,” loud enough for the entire state of Texas to hear him.

I touch his arm. “Will you give me a chance to explain?”

 He jerks away from my touch. “Jesus. How could you do this to me? Why did you ask me to come down here if you still have a thing going with him? I ask you point blank and you told me there was nothing going on.” 

Tears well in my eyes and my entire body shakes. The look on his face crushes my heart as I realize this game Riff and I played has finally caught up with me and is affecting someone else. I never meant to hurt Isaac and right now the harsh words from his beautiful lips are deserved.

I drop my head, unwilling to face him. I deserve his cruelty, so I don’t defend myself. 

The wedding gift he’d bought for Noel and Lane slams into the ground at my feet, tearing open. The crystal vases inside the box shatters upon impact and shards of glass litter the parking lot.  

“How long Aubrey? How long have you been sleeping Riff behind my back? Did this go on last weekend, too?” 

I lift my chin and find Isaac’s usually delightful blue eyes dark and narrowed. There’s no excuse for me to be crying other then the guilt I feel as the tears glide down my cheeks. “I—I’m sss…orry.” My words are a weak stutter, but I suddenly have no control of the panic wrecking havoc on my body. 

He shakes his head. “Sorry? You’re sorry. That’s the best you can do? You lead me on for nearly two weeks and all you offer is a half-assed apology.” He throws his hands out. “And that’s only because you got caught! What? Were you planning on stringing me along until he got tired of you? Because you know he will. You told me yourself he’s the biggest manwhore in the band. What makes you think you’ll be any different? That you mean anything to him?”

This is the most angry I’ve ever seen Isaac and it’s hard for me to witness the nicest man I’ve ever known lose his head right in front of my eyes. The one thing I never wanted to happen did. I’ve ruined this relationship, but I love Zach. I can’t fight my feelings for him. 

“I don’t know what else I can say,” I whisper, still at a loss.

“There’s nothing you can say. People at the office were right to gossip about you and call you a fucking whore.” His words tear at my heart and I bury my face in my hands.

“That’s enough!” Zach’s voice cuts across the lot and I suck in a quick breath. “Don’t you say another goddamn word to her or so help me…”

Isaac laughs. “So help you what? She’s
my
date. I can say what ever the fuck I want to her, so butt out!”

“She is mine,” Zach growls as he steps between Isaac and me. “And she’s been mine long before you ever came into the fucking picture. She’s only with you because I couldn’t get my shit together. You were a distraction.”

Isaac’s eyes narrow. “Whatever. You’re probably right. She’s not worth it anyhow.” 

Without warning, Zach draws back and blasts Isaac square in the nose with his fist, shattering Isaac’s glasses. Isaac grabs his face as blood pours from his nose while shock registers on his face. “Don’t you ever talk about her like that again you son-of-a-bitch.”

“Not a problem.” Isaac’s watering eyes flick to mine. “Aubrey, you’re fired. Don’t bother coming back to the office. I don’t ever want to see your face again. I’ll have your personal belongings shipped to you.”

I nod as the realization I’ve lost more than my companionship with Isaac hits me hard and tears flood down my face. 

Zach watches me cry and he growls, “Shut the fuck up and leave already you fucking Ken doll want-to-be or I’ll make sure you never speak another word to her or anyone else ever again.” 

Isaac shakes his head and throws his hands up in surrender, clearly not wanting to test Zach’s threat. 

The tension in Zach’s drawn fists relaxes as Isaac heeds his warning and walks away. Tears keep falling as I hate myself for being an awful person, but know deep down being with Zach is the right thing to do. 

“Don’t cry.” Zach pulls me into a tight hug, wrapping his strong, tattooed arms around my small waist. “I’m sorry you had to go through that.”

I sniff. “Me too, but if that’s the price I have to pay to be with you, I’d do it all over again.”

“I want you to know, I meant what I said earlier. I love you with every inch of my broken soul. I know it’s a mess, but I’m giving you all the pieces, hoping you can make sense of it. I love you, Kitten.” He kisses my lips and warmth surrounds my entire body and a sense of security flows through me as we stay wrapped in one another’s arms.

Chapter 23

AUBREY

I fluff out Lanie’s wedding dress as we stand in her kitchen waiting for the signal it’s time for her to walk down the aisle. Her dress is bell shaped, showing off her naturally tiny waist and slim arms. The side of the dress has black designs in the tulle and looks very befitting for a rocker wedding.

This is the most beautiful I’ve ever seen her. She’s practically glowing.  

“I wish they’d hurry up. I’m starting to sweat,” Lanie complains as she fans herself with her hand to keep the newly applied makeup from melting off.

I lift an eyebrow because I think the temperature is perfectly fine. “It’s not hot in here. You’re nervous.”

She shrugs. “It could be, I guess. I’m thinking it’s because my hormones are all out of whack.”

What dumb luck. “Oh, damn. Did you start your period? That will so suck for the honeymoon.”

She shakes her head and giggles. “I won’t be having another one of those for a long time.”

My eyes widen as a grins spreads across my face. “You’re pregnant? I knew it!”

“Shhhh!” She laughs. “Yes! But no one knows except for our parents and now you.”

“Oh, my god!” I wrap my arms around her and squeeze her tight. “I’m so happy for you. I’ve been having the feeling you were. No wonder you wanted to rush this wedding along.”

Lanie steps back and pats her flat stomach. “Who knew I would be the one having a shot-gun wedding.”

To say I’m stunned is an understatement, but I’m still ecstatic that everything is finally working out for them. I know she’ll be a great mother. 

A throat clears behind me and I turn around. 

Noel’s father and Zach walk into the kitchen together both sporting black tuxedos. Zach is dapper with his hair styled into a short all-black Mohawk to match his outfit. His eyes rake over me and linger on my chest a few seconds too long before we lock eyes.   

He lets out a low whistle. “You two look amazing. Lanie, Noel is going to lose his shit when he sees you.” He leans in and gives Lanie a peck on the cheek. “I’m really happy for you guys. You’re perfect for each other.”

Lanie smiles and touches his arm. “Thank you, Riff.”

Zach steps back and wraps his arm around my shoulders, tucking me into his side. 

Noel’s father takes his turn hugging Lanie and whispers into her ear. I think it’s sweet of Noel’s father to walk Lanie down the aisle since her own father had passed away last year. I know she would give anything to have him here today.

Mr. Falcon pulls back and kisses her other cheek. “You’re father would’ve loved to be here.”

A tear leaks from her eye as she quickly grabs a tissue from off the counter and blots her face. “I miss him so much.”