Authors: Charlotte Swanpol
Faster and faster, he pulsed, and she couldn’t hold in her moans any longer. Louder and louder, they grew until finally, she exploded. She dug her nails into his back as they climaxed, and she could feel him throbbing inside her.
He kissed her neck once more as he slowed, holding her tightly. She didn’t ever want him to let go.
Chapter 6
The rest of the afternoon, the two of them drifted in and out of sleep, and in and out of the mood. They made love, and then fell asleep. They’d wake up, fuck, and fall asleep; repeat. It wasn’t until the early evening that Rocky had a realization. He had gone all day without a fix. Not only had he made the active choice to take a coffee instead of another hit, he had gone all day without needing to escape. He had slept. He had been unafraid to sleep. He was a drifting, degenerate fuck-up, sure, but in that moment, he felt as though there was a light at the end of the tunnel. He couldn’t yet see it, but he knew it was there.
“I’ve felt so lost for so long,” he whispered into the setting sun.
“And that’s okay,” Fern soothed. “I have, too. I’m learning, now, that we don’t have to have it all figured out. We can make it up as we go. Funny how the wanderers always seem to find one another.”
He thought about that for a moment, about a saying he’d once heard – something about wanderers not always being lost. He was a wanderer, one hundred per cent. It was a terrifying existence, riddled with uncertainty. But the idea of wandering with Fern – that didn’t seem so scary.
“What if we got lost – together?” Rocky asked.
“What?” Fern laughed.
“My whole life, I’ve lived in the shadow of my father’s disappointment, battling between who I thought I should be and who I wanted to be. Now I’m stuck in some fucked up limbo, neither here nor there. I’m lost in the dark, and trying to escape, but I think I’m beginning to see a way out.
“You said wanderers always seem to find one another. We have both felt loss, and lost, but we found each other last night. Something brought us together, last night. I don’t know what it was, or why, but all I know is when I’m with you, being lost doesn’t seem so bad.”
Chapter 7
Fern lay in Rocky’s arms, the fiery sunset blazing through the windows. Her heart beat faster now than ever.
Get lost - together?
she thought.
Where would we go? What would we do? I still have years of school left. What would my parents say? What would Kristen say?
Then she thought of how she got to this point, held tightly in Rocky’s arms. She thought of how she stepped out of her comfort zone, did something she’d never done before; how she had been spontaneous. She thought of Joel, and their disastrous relationship. She had spent her entire life planning, and look how that worked out for her. She was so tired of planning, only to have those plans fall through.
Fern took a deep, slow breath to steady her heart, and her voice. She turned her head to look up at Rocky’s nervous, smiling face. His handsome, sapphire eyes searched hers, craving an answer.
“Well?” Rocky breathed. “Do you want to get lost with me?”
Once more, Fern bit her lip, and looked up at him.
“I’d like that.”
THE END
Chapter 1
I stood in front of the stove in the kitchen of my business space, stirring the candle wax mindlessly. My mind was elsewhere and not on what I was doing.
Don’t get me wrong. I loved making candles.
I turned a fun passion into a booming online business. Bella’s Scented Delights was the name. My house had an addition on the side that I turned into my shop to make the candles.
It had a complete kitchen, a bathroom, and big working area with everything needed to make candles. I had big tables and smaller ones set up around the room with all the supplies.
Two of my best girls worked with me which made the business even better. I didn’t care what hours they worked as long as the orders got filled and the work got done. I paid them a good salary and they both were happy.
I was alone in the shop today and I just couldn’t shut my brain off. I needed a distraction. I walked over and turned the radio on that was sitting on the counter.
The music filtered through the room, filling my ears. Music was such a sweet release for me.
I was able to concentrate on work for a while, fulfilling many orders. I then headed to my office in my house and worked on the website and emails. Next thing I knew it was 7pm and I was starving. I finished up work for the night and headed downstairs for some dinner.
Damn, I felt so lonely today. Evan crept into my mind and I pushed him away.
Another failed relationship, probably doomed from the start. Was it my size guys didn’t like? I had curves for days and a much defined hourglass shape. I was on the bigger side but I loved how I looked. I had tried to do the whole diet thing but it never worked for me. I finally just accepted myself for the way I am. The man I am meant to be with will like me for who I am. I shook off the sadness and decided to call Liz, one of my best girls that worked at my candle shop.
She answered on one ring. “Hey Bells, what’s up chick?”
I smiled. I loved Liz; we were total opposites but clicked so well. “Hey love. What you up to?”
“Not much, just chilling right now. Wishing I had some company, you want some company?” Liz asked.
“Yes, I would love some. We can make some watermelon margaritas and have some girl chat. I need to get over Evan.” I sighed, wishing I didn’t care so much.
“Aw babe, you are still thinking about that asshole? I know it’s tough but just think of how much of a dick he was. I find hating them is easier.” She laughed. “I’ll be right over; I have some tequila and munchies I will take with me.”
“See you soon,” I said.
“Soon. Bye love,” Liz said as she ended the call.
About twenty minutes later, Liz was at my door, grinning with her arms full of tequila and bags of chips. And of course, a bag of chocolate. I grabbed a few things from her and hugged her hard.
“Thanks for coming over. I really needed the company,” I said to her.
“Of course, Bells. I know you’re hurting and we are going to fix that. Alcohol and junk food always works. Oh and Chloe is on her way over.” Liz winked at me and I laughed.
“Leave it to you, Liz. You’re the best, thank you.”
She smiled. “I love you, sweetie. I want you to feel better. I don’t like seeing you like this especially over an asshole. Besides, he had a small dick. You will find much better.” Liz winked as she poured us some wine and I laughed. I did have better at one point but that better was bad news. Never mind that.
“You are right. Fuck him. Fuck men. They don’t know what they are doing or how to even please us. Let’s drink and forget all men.” I clinked glasses with Liz just as the doorbell rang. I jumped up, opened the door, and wrapped my arms around Chloe, almost knocking her backwards.
“Whoa! Happy to see me, Bells?” Chloe regained her footing, hugging me back as Liz took the bags from Chloe’s hands.
I stepped back from Chloe, letting her enter the house. She headed towards the kitchen and I followed. “Yes, yes I am. I am just so happy and grateful to have my two girls here with me tonight when I feel like absolute shit.” I grabbed my drink and took a long sip.
Chloe, my other best friend and employee, looked over at me. “Bells, fuck Evan. His dick is small and the sex sucked. Why are you even fretting over him?”
“Well I did have a good time with him and the break up was just surprising I guess. But you’re right, he wasn’t for me.” I raised my glass to Chloe just as Liz handed her one. The three of us clinked glasses. “To us, we rock.”
“Hell yea we do!” Liz exclaimed. “Men would be lucky to have us.”
“So Liz, what’s going on with your love life at the moment?” I asked her.
“You know I don’t care for the relationship thing so I am still just hooking up and having fun. I have plenty of time before I need to settle down with one cock. And it better be a damn good one.” Liz laughed. “I have been hooking up with this one guy for a couple of weeks now.”
Chloe looked surprised. “The same guy?”
“Yes the one I met when I went out with some friends from high school. At The Tavern Bar? Tall, dark, and deliciously hot?” Liz answered.
I nodded. “Yes I remember you mentioning him, but I thought it was a one-time thing.”
“Do you mean you thought it was a one-time thing or you just figured it was? I am not that much of a slut girlfriend! When it’s been a while then yes I look for some sex but it’s not like I am taking home a different guy every night.”
“Oh, Lizzie, I didn’t mean it that way. I am happy for you and hope things go well. I did just assume because you always say you don’t see the same guy more than a few times. So has it passed those few times?” I asked her.
“Yes, I have seen him about five or six times now. One was a date he insisted on taking me on.” Liz shyly smiled.
Chloe’s whole face lit up. “A date huh? Good for you, Liz. Are you going to keep seeing him?”
Liz shrugged. “For a while, yes. But I just want sex, no relationship crap. I told him he could take me on one date and that was it. The sex is fucking awesome. I don’t want him going anywhere for a while. I am deliciously satisfied.” Liz grinned, winking her eye and licking her lips.
I laughed, feeling a bit jealous of Liz. I haven’t had mind blowing sex in so long. And it was with someone I don’t even want to think about. Damn though, he was so good. Our sex was explosive, and I would have multiple orgasms, over and over again. No. Stop. I can’t think about him any longer. That part of my life is done and over with.
“What about you, Chloe? Anything new with you and Jace?” I asked her.
She shook her head. “Nope, we are still doing well. He’s been busy with work, starting a new trial soon and I have been brainstorming so many new candle scents we could do.” I smiled.
Oh Chloe, always thinking of the business. I was so glad she took so much pride in it, as much as I did.
“I can’t wait to hear about them, you’re such an awesome chick. That brain of yours works wonders.”
Liz interrupted us. “Ladies, enough of the updates, let’s eat and drink! I am starved!”
We all began getting everything out and setup. Liz dished out the chips, Chloe fixed the dips, and I made the watermelon margaritas. I mixed frozen ones in the blender, blended with the margarita mix, ice, tequila, and fruit. I lined the rims of our frosted glasses with sugar and filled them up. I dropped in a slice of watermelon and a curly straw.
Liz and Chloe’s eyes lit up when I handed each of them one.
“Mm so delish.” I said as I drank the sweet frozen concoction, feeling it slide down my throat as I licked the sweet sugar off the rim. Tonight was going to be a good night.
Hours later, we were passed out on the floor, each of us having downed about 3 or 4 of those frozen drinks. We ate a ton of chips and dip; chit chatted about everything under the sun, and then passed out together on the floor.
As soon as I sat up, I felt my head spin. Oh shit, I was going to be sick.
Chapter 2
I was so hungover for the rest of the day but it was so worth it. I felt so much better than I did yesterday as far as Evan went. I worked side by side with Chloe and Liz today so we all suffered in our hangovers together.
Thankfully it was Friday. “Any plans for the weekend ladies?” I asked.
Liz smiled. “Probably getting some action from Cameron.”
“Jace and I have a wedding to go to on Saturday, and Sunday will be my usual Sunday shit chores.” Chloe shook her head a bit. “I hate Sunday chores.”
“I am visiting my parents down in Harbor Town. I do not feel like driving down there or even being in that town but I need to see them. It’s been a while. I am heading down tomorrow morning, coming home after dinner.” I concentrated on pouring the wax, trying not to think about going to Harbor Town.
I didn’t like the memories of my home town. My high school years were pretty crazy and I was so glad just to leave. Now I am successful and loving life with the friends I met in college. I was so glad I chose to go to college an hour away because my true colors were finally able to shine through. They weren’t dulled by my parent’s judgement any longer.
I rebelled while in high school. I was crazy in love with Joshua Bennett and I defied my parents in any way possible. I was so tired of living under their intense parenting; I just felt I needed to break away.
So I did that by coming and going as I pleased and having sex with Josh whenever I could. But when it ended, when Josh and I ended, I could never go back there. My whole world had been shattered by Josh. My parents were so caught up in themselves and my sister was already gone. There was nothing left for me. My break from the town turned into me starting a life away from there.
I shook the memories off and concentrated on the matter at hand. It was a quick visit with my parents, we weren’t going anywhere, and I wouldn’t be stopping anywhere with the risk of seeing someone.
The Bennett’s ran three liquor stores within the vicinity and lived closed by so there was always a risk. Aside from those three, they owned over five hundred other stores in the eastern states. They owned a small empire.
After finishing up the day with Liz and Chloe, we grabbed a pizza together and then parted ways. Just as I was unlocking my door and pushing my way in, my mother was calling.
“Hi, Mom.” I answered
“Hi darling, just confirming we are still on for tomorrow right?” She asked.
“Yes,” I replied. “Do you need me to bring anything? I should be over by 1pm.”
“No, no love, we should be good. Oh! Wait, yes. Can you stop at the Bennett liquor store and grab that wine I love? You know the one they only sell with the house on the bottle? It’s a pink blush. I never can remember the name.”
“Yes mom, I will get a bottle. If you think of anything else, just let me know. I love you, goodnight.”
My mom said goodnight as well and I ended the call.
Fuck. Now I have to go to the Bennett liquor store. Why can’t she just go? I swear she makes me do this stuff on purpose. I’ll make sure I go to the one that Josh doesn’t run and pray to God they didn’t switch stores.
First though, I am going to stop at my neighborhood liquor store because they must sell this wine somewhere else. Why only the Bennett liquor store? If only I knew the exact name, I would Google the wine and see who sells it.
I sighed. I will just pray I won’t see anyone there. Even if I do, what’s the worst that could happen?
The drive to Harbor Town from Weston wasn’t too bad. There wasn’t much traffic this early Saturday morning and the weather was nice. Not too warm but not cold either.
I had stopped at the liquor store by my house but of course there wasn’t the kind my mother wants. Unfortunately, I had to stop at the Bennett liquor store. I pulled into the one Hailey, Joshua’s older sister, owned and ran. We used to get along just fine so what would be the big deal if I saw her? She might tell Josh but oh well.
I headed into the store but didn’t notice anyone around besides a few other customers and an older gentleman at the register that I didn’t recognize. I located the wine and grabbed two bottles. I loved this wine myself and wanted a bottle too.
The name read Rosewood Fine Wines. Good, now I could look up where else I could find it instead of here.
I quickly checked out and hurried out the door. I couldn’t believe I just got in and out of there without seeing anybody. That never happens. I sighed in relief and took off to my parents.
The visit with my parents went well. Nothing much is new with them. I filled them in on what’s been going on with me and my business. We had dinner, drank some wine, and had a scrumptious chocolate cake. It was an enjoyable time. I wished my sister could’ve been there but she was currently in China for work. She investigates news stories, always traveling everywhere around the world. My parents still ran their medical practice together, both being family care doctors.
As I headed back home, I couldn’t believe I still got away without seeing a Bennett. I had looked up the wine while I was at my parents and it can be found in a liquor store across town from me. Perfect. I will get it from there from now on. I will never, ever have to see a Bennett again.
As I went to pull into my driveway, I gasped. Joshua Bennet was standing there, leaning against his sexy black BMW, looking dangerously mouthwatering.
Chapter 3
I put the car in park and tried to take some deep, steady breaths. I glanced over my shoulder and saw him watching me. Then walking towards me.
What the fuck? How did he know I lived here? And why was he here?
He was now standing in front of my car window. I didn’t want to open the door so I rolled down my window.
“Well, well, well at last Isabella Sill, I have found you, my long lost princess.”
I tried not to roll my eyes as I listened to his bullshit. “Joshua, what the fuck? Why are you here and how did you find out where I live?”
I stared at him with a glared look. I was ready to punch his lights out. How dare him. How dare he just show up here and think he can talk to me like nothing ever happened. Like we were some big joke.
“Jeez, Bells. Calm down. I missed you and wanted to say hi.” He winked at me and I tried not to melt under his gaze. I focused on my anger. I was seething inside but he knew how to make me fall under his spell.
“Are you going to get out of the car and greet me properly or are we going to stand and talk through the car window all night?” he asked.
“What does it matter to you? I want to know the answers to my questions.” I crossed my arms, set my lips firm, and waited.
He sighed. “Fine. If you must know. Hailey saw you come into her store today and she told me you were in town. I figured the only reason would be to visit your parents, because why else would you come back? So I waited a bit, headed over there, and then proceeded to wait for you to leave, and then I followed you home. Which by the way wasn’t that easy since you drive like a bat out of hell.”
Now I was even more furious. In fact, I was pissed. I yanked my door open, stepped out, and slammed it back shut, just my purse in my hand. He backed out of the way, knowing I was pissed.
I stood up to him, leaning in close to his face and then I let him have it. “Excuse me, Josh? What the fuck is your problem? You stalk me over to my parents’ house, wait around all day until I leave, and then follow me home? I didn’t want you to know where I lived on purpose. You ruined my life, not to mention, you broke my heart. I don’t want anything to do with that fucking town we grew up in and I don’t want anything to do with you. Stay out of my life. I am happy and I don’t want it ruined by the likes of you.”
With that, I spun on my heel, marched to my door as fast I could, unlocked it, slipped inside, and slammed it shut. I didn’t even give Josh a chance to say one word. I wanted to punch him. I wanted to strangle him. I slid to the floor, letting the tears flow, as I heard his car roar away.
High school was a crazy time for me. My best friend Emily and I were rebellious and a bit out of control. Our families had been so strict growing up; we just wanted to break free. We still kept our grades good, always going to school and doing extracurricular activities. But we partied and drank and loved boys. And partied and drank and loved boys some more.
Then I met Joshua Bennett my senior year of high school. He was attending the community college across town, in his third year, and we ran into each other at a party. Our connection was undeniable. The sparks and electricity flew. Josh was one of the most drool worthy men I have ever seen. He was tall, in great shape with muscles clearly defined and well-toned. He had tattoos all over his body in various shapes in sizes, each one having some meaning to him. He even had one nipple pierced that I loved to play with and suck on.
I was 18 at the time and I couldn’t believe the attraction I was feeling. It was unreal, unlike anything else I have ever felt. I didn’t believe it at first, feeling far two young and Josh was older by 3 years. What would he want with me? But he wanted me alright. We fell head over heels in love.
It was mind-blowing. The sex was unbelievable. Joshua learned my body and could bring me to orgasm over and over again until I was lost, on another planet. We devoured each other every chance we got. Our kissing was so hot, so electric, we just couldn’t get enough. He would pump into me over and over again, both of us losing sense of anything around us. I loved sucking his cock, taking his hardness into my mouth.
We went everywhere together - on dates, shopping, out to eat, to every party together. We were so in love and I thought he was the one. He told me he felt the same.
My parents warned me I was rushing into it. That it was first love, teenage love, and it wouldn’t last. I didn’t listen to them. When I went off to college in the fall, things got weird. Joshua was now very pre-occupied in starting the family business of the liquor stores and began to grow distant. I had heard some rumors he had brought a couple of women home from some bars but he denied everything. I believed him. I kept hope that our love was still alive.
Things continued into my second year of college, getting worse as time went on. We would reconnect and the heat would explode, losing ourselves in each other once again. But then when we were apart, Josh didn’t act like a boyfriend. He acted like a distant friend. And I hated it. I knew what we had was special, something not everyone finds. I wasn’t going to give up.
When I headed home for Christmas break that sophomore year, I wanted to surprise Josh. I hadn’t talked to him in a few days and he didn’t know the exact date I was coming home. I pulled up to his house and saw his car in the driveway. I was so excited to surprise him; I even had special lingerie on underneath my outfit.
The door was unlocked so I slipped inside quietly. But then I heard a woman. And it sounded like she was moaning. The moaning got louder, as she cried out Josh’s name. A cold chill went down my spine. That voice was so familiar, it couldn’t be. It just couldn’t be.
I ran up the stairs and swung the door to Josh’s bedroom open. Sure enough, there was Emily riding Josh’s cock. I couldn’t believe it. The two people in my life who had meant so much to me betrayed me in the worst way.
I screamed and ran down the stairs, out of the house, and into my car. I drove off, never once looking back. I vaguely remember Josh throwing Emily off him and running after me but I didn’t care. It was over. I would never forgive either of them.