Sexual Desires of a Woman (7 page)

I got up to make coffee and saw a letter from Doctor without Borders on the counter.  I wasn't aware that he had applied to go. I was shocked. I wasn't sure what to do or say at this point. I got dressed and headed over to Sarah's.

"You should not let him go. He could have an affair and find somebody else!" Sarah screamed.

Really? I can't believe she would even suggest something like that.

"I am not worried about that at all." I told her.

She started crying, "Brooke, I need to tell you something." she said.

This does not sound good at all.

"My husband is having an affair." she told me.

This couldn't be true. He would never cheat on her. He's been madly in love with her for years. This absolutely blows my mind that this could happen to her.

I took her in my arms and held her tight.

"How do you know he is having an affair?" I asked puzzled.

She stopped crying, sat up and said," The girl called her last night asking for him.

When I told the woman he wasn't home and asked if I could take a message she said, “Yes, tell him I am waiting in my bedroom."

Wow that is really weird.  Why would he give his lover the phone number to his house?

I mean that's definitely going to get him caught. I am not sure what words I should say to Sarah. She must be heartbroken.

"Sarah, I would ask your husband about this. “ I told her.

It could just be some stalker who is mad because he won't sleep with her or something. Think about it. If he was going to have an affair, he wouldn't give his lover his house number knowing that you would answer it if someone called." I explained to her and left.

Jake talked about wanting to do Doctors without Borders before at some point in his career. I encouraged him and told him he should. I can handle my own. Who am I thinking? My time with Jake is treasured. I savor every moment that I get with him. I'm hoping the way I feel around him will never fade away. I was so proud of him for wanting to do this and help people.

He had such big dreams and I can't be selfish by keeping him away from them. He deserves to do anything he wants to do in life and I will always support him in every decision he chooses to make.

As we were lying in bed I could tell that something was on his mind.

"Honey, what's wrong?" I asked. He looked at me and said," If I decide to go for Doctor without Border then I will be gone for at least 12 weeks and I am not sure that I can go that long without laying next to you."

Right then, all my doubt went away and I could tell this man truly loved me. He wouldn't do that unless he truly loved me.

"Jake, I will support you and any decision that you make in life." I exclaimed.  I leaned over and kissed him and then looked into his eyes and said, “I love you."

He handed me a letter and said I planned on reading this to you myself but right now I think I would rather you read it. I opened the letter to read:

Dear soul mate,

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.

Within you, I lose myself. Without you, I find myself wanting to be lost again. To the world, you may be one person, but to one person you are the world.

My love for you has no depth; its boundaries are ever-expanding. My love and my life with you will be a never-ending story.

You may hold my hand for a while, but you hold my heart forever. You give me hope in my times of trial, joy in my saddest hours and love in all I do. If you live to be a hundred then I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you because you are the one I want to hold till the last breath of my life.

Will you marry me?

I looked up and at him and he had a little black box and opened it. Inside was the most beautiful ring I had ever seen.

"So, Brooke will you marry me?" he asked as he slipped the ring on my finger.

"Of course I will. Yes!" I yelled and kissed me.

I couldn't believe it was finally happening. I would want to get married before he goes to Doctors without Borders.

I went over to visit Sarah to let her know what was going on and when I told her she looked at me dumbfounded.

"What is that look for?" I asked her.

She sighed and shook her head. I haven't even talked to him about the girl yet. She knows that she has to talk to him about it. She had she would wait until he got home from work tonight and confront him about it then.

I stayed a little bit longer and talked to her for a little while but I was ready to go to Jake.

When I got home, Jake was making dinner. I walked up behind him and put my hands around his waist and hugged him real tight.

"You look sexy." I told him.

He spun around and said I have 20-30 minutes to kill. He picked me up and sat me on the counter top. Jake pulled dress off and started touching my sweet spot while I was kissing him. It was hard to focus on kissing him while he was doing that to me.

He bent down and started kissing my spot. I was so aroused and then right as I was about to climax, he stopped, pushed me back on the counter, spread my legs an
d slipped his erection inside me.

Jake decided to go to Doctors without Borders for a trial run. He will be gone for a couple of weeks in Africa helping children. As I started to pack Jake's bags for his trips since he leaves tonight he decided to interrupt. He came in and started kissing me and touching me all over. I can't believe I won't be able to kiss him for a couple of weeks. I started caressing his erection thru his jeans and undid his button and zipper and took his pants off. I knelt down and took his erection in my mouth.

As I let it slide in and out of my mouth, I moaned as he had my hair in his fist pulling. Finally, he pulled me up to him and positioned me on his lap. He took off my shirt and kissed my breasts, taking each nipple in between his teeth very lightly. Then turned around and laid me on the bed while undoing my jeans and taking them off. I laid there amazed by this man that one day would be my husband. He knew exactly what I liked and always made sure that I was satisfied. He opened my legs and started licking my sweet spot. I grabbed his hair and lightly tugged on it so he would know that it felt good. 

My legs started to quiver so I knew I was getting close to the end and right before I climaxed he stopped. He came up and kissed me on my neck and then thrusted inside me. He filled me completely up perfectly. It didn't take us long but 5 minutes to both reach our climax.

We lay next to each other scared for what is going to happen while he is gone. We haven't been apart since we reconnected and moved in together. This is going to be horrendous.  We both got to put our clothes back on. It was time to take him to the airport.

We put his bags in the back of the car and headed to DFW airport to drop him off.  The whole way there I was trying to think of what I should say to him before he leaves.

We pulled up to the airport and Jake got out and got his duffel bag.

"I am going to miss you but I will only be gone a couple of weeks."

I kissed him and he walked away.

Jake has been gone for weeks and it has been killing me. I have been drowning myself in cases so I don't get depressed. I didn't think it would hurt this much to be without him for a couple of weeks but it is.  He should be back tomorrow. I want to throw him a welcome back party and have Sarah and Preston over. You know what, that's exactly what I will do.  I called Sarah and told her my plan and she thought it was a great idea. She was in. She is going to have Preston go pick him up and tell Jake that I was stuck at work.

I went shopping at the Party Store so I could find a Welcome Home sign and some other decorations and then stopped into Victoria Secret. I needed a new lingerie outfit for Jake when he gets home. It's been so long since we had made love and I want to make it a little extra special for him.

I checked out and headed home to decorate the house. I was getting so excited to see him again. I was running around the house in a panic because I am tired but I need to get this done before I go to sleep since he will be here mid morning tomorrow.

After getting the house all set up for the Welcome Home party, I took off my clothes and climbed into bed.  I was out like a light.

I woke up to a banging on my front door. I put on my robe and headed to the door. Who the hell would be banging on my door this early? It was only 9am and Jake wasn't due until 10:30am.

"Brooke, you should be awake. Jake will be home in a little over 1 hour and your sleeping?" Sarah asked me.

She's right. I shouldn't be asleep. I should be up jumping for joy that the love of my life is due to be home after weeks in 1 hour.  I have been waiting for this for weeks and it's finally happening.

"Sarah, I am so excited to see him. It's been too long. I don't know if I can do this again and for a longer period of time. This was torture for me." I exclaimed.

She looked at me and smiled. I reminded myself about what I had told Jake. I would stand by him no matter the decision he made. Maybe he will decide to not go back. I would happy with that decision but I am almost positive that he will be going back.

I heard a car coming up the driveway and looked outside and it was Preston's car. They were early. I am not even dressed yet. I ran into my room and threw on a blue little dress and some wedges and ran to the door to be ready.

The door opened and there he was. The most handsome man I had ever seen. I missed him so much and I was overwhelmed with joy. Sarah and I screamed Welcome Home and I ran over and kissed him on the cheek before he could even put his bags down.

He was tan and his arms have gotten more muscular. He looked even sexier than before he left. Maybe Africa did him some good. He put down his bags and threw his arms around me and smiled and then kissed me passionately.

He missed me."I missed you so much, babe."

I am so happy to have him back in my arms. Everyone sat down on the couches and I grabbed a bottle of wine. Yes, it was early but we had to celebrate Jake being home.

"So Jake, tell us all about Africa." Preston said.

"It was thrilling and rewarding. There are so many words I could use to describe my time. I helped so many children and changed their lives for the better. It makes me so happy to know that I can do that." Jake said.

"So you want to continue going back?" He asked.

"Of course, I can help three times as many children there as I can here and they need the care more. Africa has more people that can't get medical attention they need. Here, they are hospital on every corner basically." he said.