Waiting for you (Part 1) (12 page)

“Take your boots off, stay a while”

“Oh sorry, didn’t mean to put them on your bed”

She kicked her boots off while Liam lit the candles on the ottoman, giving a glow to the now lightless room. The lights of the city were shining through the windows. Liam pulled the silver and black satin curtains across the windows
, turned on some soft music on the stereo and came back to the bed where Cammy sat.

They looked at each other and were at a loss for words. He reached for her hand and she pulled away.

“Don’t be a tease.”

“I’m not Liam.”

“Don’t be mad, I mean, you know why we are here, why you are here”

“I know”

“Don’t be shy”

“I’m not”

Not knowing if it was the alcohol or the need to be held by someone Cammy reached for his hand and leaned into him with her body, putting her lips onto his. His lips were soft like Hayden’s but not as full, he felt different, but she closed her eyes and kept inviting him in. He tasted like the sweet cranberry juice, and he could taste the vodka on her breath. He caressed her back while they kissed and she felt her lust for him rise in her body. He pulled her closer to him so she was practically lying on top of him.

“Fucking gorgeous Cammy.”

He pulled her ponytail out of her hair and her locks fell into his face, covering his chest.

“You smell so good”

Not sure what to say, what to do, Cammy kept her eyes closed and felt him. Her hands ran down the length of his back under his shirt, her fingers touching the hard muscles, the soft skin. He lifted off his shirt to invite her to touch more, holding her hands and pressing them to his chest, moving them across his stomach, his nipples.

“Don’t be afraid of me”

“I’m not Liam”

“Look at me Cammy please”

Opening her eyes and seeing his looking back at her, she felt in another world, leaving her body and letting herself surrender to Liam, to her curious desire for him.

“I can give you the world”

He repeated it over and over in her ear as he carefully and gently pulled off her clothes and caressed every inch of her body. She watched his body move in the flames of the candle, sparking her all over. He tasted her and came back up to her mouth to kiss her again. He unzipped his pants and pulled them off, throwing them onto the floor. Liam laid his warm body on top of hers and she felt his heart racing against her chest. Brushing her hair from her face he asked

“
Do you want me?”

Nodding her head yes, Cammy waited for him to speak again, but he lifted himself from her body and got a condom out of his nightstand drawer, came back to the bed, removed his boxers and placed it on.

“We can do whatever you want Cammy, just tell me what you want and I’ll do it”

Motioning for him to lay back on top of her, Liam followed her direction. She caressed his hard back again as he ran his hands up and down her legs and felt the slickness of her
, he knew she wanted him. She did want him, she lost herself in his room, in the candlelight. She saw him as a sexy, eccentric man who vied for her attention, craved her, wanted her, almost needed her and that made her feel wanted, and excited. He was a star, he was with her, she was picked and put before anyone else, she was special and yes fucking gorgeous as he said. Taking her cue, Liam arched her back with his hand and spread her legs apart to enter her body, which he did with a quick, hard thrust. He was rougher than and not as attentive as Hayden. They were almost the same size, big and full. She moved with him as he pushed himself in and out of her with skill and raw, rough moves. Her nipples were hard and erect, her small hips were pressed into, and her skin was red and rashed from his stubble brushing up against it. He wrapped her hair around his hand and pulled it, pulled her neck back and kissed it hard, and grabbed and pressed into her body almost animalistic, at times it was too rough, but she still wanted to feel him, so not saying a word, and closing her eyes, she allowed herself to climb to her peak and let go.

“Come with me Cammy. Do it.” He whispered into her ear while pulling her hair again.

Putting a finger into her and commanding that she come, she did, holding her head back and quivering while he rode her hard for a few more moments, then Liam had his own release, yelling out her name and slowly letting go of his grip on her hair.

Liam still out of breath slid his sweaty body off of Cammy and went into the bathroom to remove the condom. Cammy just stayed in his bed staring at the ceiling, feeling good and bad about what she had done.

“How do you feel sweet girl?”

Sitting down next to her on the bed, still naked Liam took her by the hands and led her to the bathroom and into the shower. He stepped in with her and washed her body with such detail and attention, massaging her shoulders with his creamy woodsy
body wash, and putting his hands thru her hair with shampoo, then conditioner, holding her head back in the shower stream to rinse it out, so gently. When she was washed he sat her on the bench in the shower and washed his self. Cammy hadn’t spoken a word, but was reveling in the attention he was giving her. He could tell she was feeling good and that made him happy. Continuing to dry her body and dress her in a pair of his sweats which were too big, and a tank top, he brushed her wet, long dark locks and wove her thick, dark strands into a braid.

“Why are you doing this Liam?” Cammy asked after he sat her back into bed and went into the closet to get dressed
himself.

“I want you Cammy. Like I said in my eyes you are already mine. I can take care of you.”

“Oh”

Not knowing what else to say to that, she smiled inside and let her body sink back into the bed.

“Tea?”

“Ok”

“Come with me and help me make it”

They walked from the bedroom to the kitchen and made tea which they brought back to the bed and both got in and sat
Indian style and talked more.

“How do you feel, really Cammy. Be honest.”

“I feel good Liam. You have taken care of me like no one has before. I have never been washed and dressed like that. Thank you.”

“That’s how it works with me. How do you feel about the sex?”

“It was nice obviously Liam, a little rough”

“I’m sorry Cammy, but that’s something I am into as well. I was very tame with you, once we know each other, you can see and feel more.”

“Oh, I see. Tame huh. I don’t know about that.”

“You got off. I’m going to make you love me Cammy.
I can show you how to love me.”

“Liam this is a lot to take in. I am still with Hayden, still waiting for him.”

“He won’t come back to you Cammy. Be with me.”

Cammy took a sip of her tea and felt her eyes start to well with tears.

“Don’t cry. Eyes as beautiful as yours shouldn’t be filled with tears.”

“I am so confused.”

“I know. Take some time and see what your heart tells you to do. I am a patient man, I can wait for you. I will wait for you. We can have such a good life together and I won’t share you or let you be with anyone else for my own pleasure, like…”

“Liam
, don’t.” Stopping before he said his name again and what he had done to her. Hayden.

“I’m sorry sweetheart. Come here.”

Pulling Cammy into his arms and coddling her, she buried her head into his chest and actually felt safe and warm from all the pain and confusion that she was going through. Reaching her head up to meet his lips and giving him a short kiss, she again buried her head back into him and he held her in the glow of his bedroom with the candles still burning, filling the air with  the heady smell of patchouli. Liam kissed her forehead and squeezed her so tightly.

Waking in the dark room, Cammy
got out of Liam’s bed and went to the bathroom. After she had relieved herself, she went out into the hallway and strolled through the penthouse, touching the walls again, looking at the pictures, staring out of the windows to the now sleeping city below her.

“Need anything sweetheart?”

A pair of arms reached around her and held her tight while lips grazed her neck.

“I’m ok.
I couldn’t sleep. Did I wake you?”

Staring at his reflection in the window and seeing his arms around her she felt good. For a moment Cammy thought she saw Hayden’s face in Liam’s.

“No, I have been waking up every few minutes, hoping that you will still be here.”

“I am here now Liam, for now.”

“Have you thought about it? Do you want me to leave you alone forever?”

“No.”

“No? What do you mean?”

“No, I need time please Liam. Go on tour, let me decide. I need to talk to him, see where we stand. I don’t want you to go forever though, I know that much.”

“Good enough for me right now. I’ll be gone for a few months. I can fly you to me if you want, anything you want.”

“How do I know this is real?”

“It’s as real as it will ever be. You don’t have to worry about me and anyone else either, ask anyone, once I am committed to anything or anyone, that’s it. I have to have control and all of the power or have nothing at all.”

“I see that.”

“I have an early flight this morning. Stay with me until I leave, then take your time here, take a key, stay as long as you like, come here as often as you want while I am gone.”

“I can’t Liam”

“You can and you will”

Sitting in the great room again, they sat and watched the sun come up. Liam got dressed and packed his bags for his tour. When it was time for him to leave, he gave Cammy her key and called the concierge giving her full permission of the penthouse and the car service. This was overwhelming for Cammy. How could he feel this much for her?

The attendant was on his way up to get Liam and his car was waiting to take him to the airport.

“You have my numbers, you have my place here whenever you want it and Cammy”

“Yes?”

“You have my heart and promise. I hope that you will be with me. Sweet girl. I do love you.”

Sharing a long kiss, deep and wet, then finishing soft and slow, Liam got into the elevator. Looking so sad, his  amber eyes were red as if he were going to cry. He was tousling his black mane as always, so handsome, so sexy all five feet ten inches of him in his jeans, his signature black shirt and leather jacket, the boots, his silver hanging from his neck, the smooth skin that touched her body last night. Then he was gone and Cammy was alone in his penthouse with the morning sun. She felt lost yet again.

She had done it. She had slept with Liam Griffin, just like Hayden wanted, just like she wanted. Checking her phone in her purse for any kind of a message or sign from Hayden, she found none.
She tossed it back into her bag.

“Now what do I do?” Cammy said aloud as she headed to Liam’s bedroom. Smelling his scent on the blankets, like she did to her and Hayden’s bed, she breathed him in and missed him already. Walking through the penthouse, she imagined herself living there in all of the luxuries it had, in the luxuries that she had been promised if she were with him. Staying for a couple of hours, and exploring the penthouse further, looking for anything she could that would make her turn against Liam, she found nothing. Maybe he was true to his word and honest. Changing into her clothes she came there in and calling the car service and the elevator attendant she headed for home, her home, hoping Hayden would be there.

When the car pulled up to their home, it was exactly as Cammy thought it would be, no sign of Hayden anywhere. He really was gone.

             
                            Need

The next two months that ensued were brutal for Cammy. Hayden had not spoken to her, only by text saying he was sorry and that he needed more time. He would not answer her, he would not call. Packing up his computer, journals and some of his clothes, she sent it to Dr. Brock’s cabin where he was staying. He asked her not to come, so she didn’t. He spoke through Davey only. The
loneliness and silence that he gave her was driving her away.

“Davey, have you heard from Hayden today?”

“I’ll try to call him now if you want honey.”

It was a long work day at the store and feeling wrung out and sad, she just wanted to hear Hayden’s voice, one time. She would give him the space, but she was growing angry at his actions, at why he was doing this to her, what was his problem, what was he hiding from?

“Hayden, hey man, it’s Davey. Just checking in. All good here? Good man. Hey Cammy needs to talk to you, it’s time Hayden. Ok, hang on.”

Handing the phone to Cammy she ripped it from his fingers.

“Hayden, baby, it’s me.”

“Hi baby.”

Why haven’t you called me back, talked to me? What’s going on?”

“I’m sorry baby. I needed to work through some things.”

Going outside to get some privacy, Cammy couldn’t hold back anymore.

“You’re sorry? We are married, we share a home, we have a music store to run. You set me up, you leave me, y
ou don’t call and you’re sorry? You talk to me now Hayden Brock and tell me what the fuck is going on, I have been patient and have waited for you, but I’m done. Talk now or say goodbye!”

“Cammy, wait, hold on, I don’t know how to tell you, but I have been in rehab and couldn’t talk to you. I fucked up. I got into the shit in California and hid it from you until that birthday party. I’m sorry baby, I am. I had to treat you like that or I would have come back running to you and never have gotten clean. I’m good now. I’m almost ready to come home.”

“What? Why couldn’t you have told me that, trusted me to take care of you, got help together?”

“I did some bad things. I was cheating on you,
and that’s why I tried to send you away to Liam.”

“You asshole! Why would you do that? You belonged to me, and I belonged to you. You didn’t even call me for my birthday, help me with the bills, you didn’t do anything!”

“I love you Cammy, always will. I want to come home to you, I want to come back to you and spend the rest of my life making it up to you, please baby.”

“This isn’t some kind of a movie where you get the happy ending after fucking me over!”

“I know. I thought you would go to Liam and forget about me, then it would be easier to leave your life but you are my life, my world, everything that matters to me. I need you. I want you. I miss you so fucking much.”

Hayden was sobbing through the phone as he said that to Cammy. She didn’t know how to respond, what to say. She was quiet.

“I’m coming home this Sunday baby. Please, we will talk and I can’t wait to see your beautiful face and hold you.”

“I’ll be there Hayden, but I make no promises. You have really hurt me this time.”

“I know. I love you Cammy.”

Hanging up the phone without replying to Hayden, Cammy went about the re
st of the night routine, locking up and heading for home.

Liam and Cammy had talked a few times since he had left and she felt as though she were developing stronger feelings for him. Ha
yden had left, she had nowhere and no one to run to, but yet Liam always seemed to be there for her. He listened to her, didn’t try to sway her either way. She decided to call Liam. She needed someone to talk to.

“It’s me. Can I go to your place tonight?”

“Of course you can. I was waiting for you to tell me that you wanted to. I’m in Traverse City, I can meet you there if you like?”

“In
Traverse, really? Yes Liam I want to see you.”

“
Small gig for one of the bands friends. Go to the penthouse now, don’t go home first.”

“I need to shower and change.”

“No shower there, I have clothes for you too. Please go to my penthouse first.”

“Ok, I will”

Turning the car around on Woodward Avenue and heading back towards Detroit, she drove to Liam’s lair without hesitation.

The penthouse was as it always was, clean and huge. Food was already on its way up according to the concierge and Cammy wasted no time in stripping off her clothes and getting into the shower. Wanting to wash the day away, wash Hayden away, she scrubbed and stood under the water for minutes that turned into an hour.
Feeling like a prune and getting out, Cammy started drying herself off with a warm, fluffy towel. Hearing a noise and peeking out of the bathroom door she lit up inside at what she saw.

“Liam” She shouted, dropping her towel and jumping into his waiting arms.

“Cammy, my sweet girl.” He twirled her as she straddled him with her wet, naked body.

He covered her in kisses, his stubble scraping her cheeks, her neck. He pounced her onto his bed and began ravishing her, both of them pulling off his clothes at the same time. She wanted him badly and he couldn’t wait to be with her.

With no time to waste, he had plunged into her and she gasped at how good it felt, even with a condom on. She wrapped her legs around his waist again and kept her hands on his hard ass to drive him in deeper. He put her hands around his neck and stood with her still straddling him, still inside her and put her back to the wall. Holding onto him with all of the strength she had in her legs, he pounded into her again and again, her head and back hitting the wall over and over. Liam bit her lips, her earlobes, pounded harder and harder until she screamed his name and came hard on his shaft. He growled and kept biting at her wherever he could sink his teeth in and finally nailed her head to the wall one last time and came losing his grip on her for a moment, then catching her before she fell. With no strength left in his muscular arms and Cammy having no strength either, they were falling to the floor moments later.

“Oh my God, Liam”

“Fuck Cammy, I missed you.” He caressed her face and kissed her forehead. He reveled in her beauty, overtaken by the sight of her in his arms.

“Come on angel, let’s get us cleaned up”

Scooping her into his arms and still toting the condom on his dick, he put them into his shower just like before. Knowing he would wash and dry her and brush her hair, she let him, she anticipated it, and he did just that, even placing her hair into another finally woven and knotted braid.

“Let’s eat, it’s cold, but fuck it”

In one of the shirts that Liam had bought for her and had been waiting in his penthouse, Cammy put on the one that said Kiss and a pair of silk pajama bottoms, black like everything Liam owned, and waited for him to get dressed in black sweats and a Lyric tee, then they headed for the kitchen.

There was Ital
ian food waiting on the island, it was cold pasta and an antipasto salad with red wine. Not knowing if it was a good wine, since she hardly had a sip before, Liam let her know that it was a vintage wine, the different types, colors and tastes. He was well versed in his wine, obviously. They were sitting, once again on the kitchen island, Liam barefoot as always. He even performed onstage barefoot sometimes. Cammy thought that was pretty dirty considering how much crap was probably on the floors, but he said that he felt more of the vibrations of the music in his body and felt more comfortable that way.

“How long do I have you for Cammy?”

“When are you leaving Liam?”

“My question first.”

“Hayden finally talked to me, he’s going to come home on Sunday, or so he says.”

“Do you believe him?”

“Do you really want to talk about this Liam?”

“Cammy, it’s wrong of me to have pursued another man’s wife, but something captivated my soul somehow. I couldn’t forget your face, your body, your voice. I have never felt that before in my life. We need to talk about it, I need to know how you feel about this, him, me, you.”

“He said that he’s been in rehab and he’s ready to come home. How could I have missed him doing drugs?”

“Maybe he was doing them at night when you were asleep.”

“No, he said it was in California, then he was doing them here, he was taking ecstasy and popping vicodin. I guess he got them from his Dad, who is a doctor. I could never tell.”

“I did check his story, Davey told me, he was in rehab. So you know it’s true.”

“Oh.”

“Do you want him to come home?”

“No”

“Why?”

“I don’t know if I trust him anymore. He said he cheated on me, a lot. I understand how that is with the ecstasy, look how we wound up, but why keep doing it, hiding it from me, exposing me to who knows what, I gave him everything I had.”

“That’s serious. I don’t know. I have never been that type of guy.”

“Come on Liam, with all the girls that flock to you and your band, and you took the x too.”

“Cammy, I told you before, I am disciplined, controlled, I have never indulged, I choose who I want to be with and when. As for the x, it was my first time when I took it that night. I won’t ever do it again. I’m glad that it led me to you that night
.”

“Really Liam? That disciplined? Are you for real?”

“Yes, it’s true and I am for real. I want to live a good life and not have too many skeletons in my closet or addictions, or health problems. I’ve seen it all. That’s not me.”

“Why couldn’t I have met you first?”

“You were underage when I met you anyway, wouldn’t have happened until it was supposed to.”

“You feel this was meant to happen?”

“Yes Cammy I do.”

“I felt so dirty when he told me the first time that he had hooked up with some random girl, I went and had m
yself checked out and tested. I never told him though.”

“That must have been hard on you.”

“It was, still is.”

“
Cammy I am here until Saturday. Will you stay with me? It gives us tonight and the next day and a half.”

“I want to. I can’t believe I am saying this.”

“You’re saying it because you want to, you want to be here.”

Thinking to herself for a moment, then drawing in a deep breath and exhaling
, Cammy answered what she knew was so true.

“I do Liam, I want to be here. I want to stay with you.”

“I want you to want me like I want you Cammy”

“I do Liam, I do”

“Enough talk, we can continue this conversation later. I don’t want to waste a minute with you. Let’s go into my room and watch a movie together, listen to music, just sit in the dark, I’ll sing to you, whatever you like, I just want to hold you in my arms, comfort you, let you feel how wanted you are.”

Overwhelmed with emotion Cammy let Liam lead her back into his room, where he did fold her in his arms and she felt the comfort from him that she needed and wanted. They watched random television
shows from a screen that appeared from behind the mirror in his room.

This was all too much to take in. Cammy felt safe and wanted in Liam’s arms, yet used
and hurt by Hayden, whose arms she hadn’t been in for a long time. She was wrong to be with Liam, she was a married woman, but didn’t feel married anymore. Did she still love Hayden? Was Liam her savior, the one to take her away and give her a life that she would never have with Hayden?

“Cammy, stop thinking right now. There’s no one here but you and I, whether it’s rig
ht or wrong, it’s happened, it is happening.”

“I know Liam, I know.”

With that answer he kissed her mouth and she was once again filled with the desire to be with him. She pulled away.

“What’s wrong? Did I do something wrong?”

“No, Liam, not at all. I just want to you to make love to me, not control me.”

“How do you know I wasn’t going to?”

“The minute you start kissing me, I can feel the strength in your hands taking control over my body. I’m sorry, I like it, I just haven’t been like this with anyone else besides you know who, so, I..”

“It’s ok Cammy, I understand.”

Still taking her over, Liam touched her more gently, pulled her braid back with less force, ran his teeth along her neck, her breasts, her face, so softly. She succumbed to his actions and felt herself let go and forget all of the things that were wrong with her being with Liam. He did make love to her, passionately, less forceful, he let her lead the way and show him where to go, what she wanted and where. Liam filled her and waited for Cammy to respond, which she did, losing herself to the heat between them, to the way she was feeling about him. They stayed in his bed for the rest of the night and until the mid-morning hours of the next day, making love, sleeping, then waking to do it again. The connection was real.

Waking and opening her eyes to the piercing sunlight in the windows of Liam’s room, Cammy picked up her phone and saw it was almost 10:00. She panicked. The store was opening and she wasn’t there.