Never Enough (11 page)

“What’s going on in that pretty little head of yours?”

I laughed. “Whatever do you mean?”

“You’re up to something.” He began laughing. “I know you better than you think I do babe.”

“Fine maybe you do.” I smacked his arm then moved in closer and touched his arm. “Will you stay with me tonight?” I felt so feisty and confident.

He looked me up and down
and pulled me into his arms before responding. “You want me to stay with you?”

“That’s what I asked isn’t it?”

“I would love to if that’s what you want.”

I grinned and gave him a peck on the cheek. Before he could return the kiss he got pulled away by Marcus. Dammit Marcus. But at least I got a wink before he got on stage.

Halley and I retreated to the bar where we each ordered crown and coke. It was always safer to admire them from afar because sometimes the crowd could get rough.

I took a big gulp of my drink.

"Hales, I just want you to know Trevor is staying at the house tonight."

"What?! Ohmigod!! Please don't be loud. I love you and all but I don't want to hear him smack your ass." Laughing hysterically she tried to sip her drink and spilt most of it on the bar. Looks like I would be babysitting until Marcus and Trevor were done. I accepted the
challenge; after all she had babysat me plenty of times before. What are friends for? I grabbed the rag behind the bar and wiped it up and tossed it back at the girl behind the counter. I swear I don't know where Gary found some of these people who worked for him. She literally saw the drink spill and stood there. My mouth started to open and I was going to let this girl have it but I remembered I was a woman in love and I didn't give a shit about her behind the bar.

"No
one’s ass is getting smacked you hear me?" I had started laughing now. The thought was just funny. What if he really wanted to do that though? Oh god this wasn't going to be pretty. “I doubt we even do anything Halley. I was just being nice and letting you know so you aren’t shocked when he walks out of my room in the morning."

“You, Macy, are such a liar! You won’t be able to control yourself around him especially when his shirt comes off."

I took a big gulp of my drink and glared at her trying not to laugh but I exploded into a fit of giggles. “Oh ok. So tell me again how long was it before you and Marcus slept together? Two days?”

“Make that two weeks for your information!”

“See hah, I know! And I can handle him with his shirt off I’m almost positive.” I lied straight through my teeth. My mind knew it probably couldn’t handle any of what was going to happen. Halley was still laughing. At least she was easing some of my tension but also giving me a slight panic attack at the same time. I downed my drink and then took two shots. The band was finishing their last song and then we would be leaving.

My eyes could still focus and I could see clearly but I was feeling pretty good when Trevor told the crowd goodnight. Several girls screamed his name and I wanted to shoot my middle finger in their direction
and inform all of them he was leaving with me. But I didn’t. Marcus scooped Halley up and she winked at me as they headed out. Gary came up to me and gave me a hug.

“You holding up kiddo?”

I gave him the most assuring smile I could come up with and replied, “Never better.”

“I’m glad. You don’t need to stick around you can get out of here. I’ll close and lock up. Have a good night.”

“If you’re sure I’ll go. Thanks Uncle Gary.”

“No problem kiddo.” He winked
while waving me off then went to start closing.

As soon as he walked off Trevor’s arm wrapped around my waist. “Hey you guys were amazing tonight
babe.” I met his lips and he explored my mouth like earlier. Teasing just as bad. Dammit.

He pulled away and grinned. “Thank you baby. You need to help close?”

“No, he said have a good night. You ready to get out of here?”

He intertwined our fingers and replied, “Whenever you are.” With that we headed to my car and drove home. My palms began sweating in the car, I was nervous. This next step meant everything and if I gave myself to him there was no going back. The past two months he’d been amazing. I loved him with all my heart and I wanted him to see that. Halley’s always told me that you don’t have to have sex to show love and I know that but I wanted him so bad.

We made small talk in the car and when we got home he opened the door for me and we let ourselves inside. Halley and Marcus must have already retired to the room. That was nothing new and I was determined to scurry into the bedroom so I didn’t have the chance to possibly hear anything. I was already basically scarred for life from my other experience. I didn’t need to be scarred any further from hearing my best friend get her groove on. I grabbed his hand and let him to the room and shut the door.

Chapter 8

Trevor kissed my forehead and looked at me with concern in his eyes. I hated that look. He didn’t say anything though. Just smiled and asked if he could shower. I showed him where the towels and everything he would need were located and he kissed me one more time and disappeared into the bathroom. If Halley were awake she’d probably tell me to go join him. I laughed at all the ways that could go wrong. Either I would slip and fall or he would reject me. Oh god, I wasn’t ready for rejection. Maybe all this was a bad idea. Maybe it was too soon. He probably didn’t even want to have sex with me yet. I slipped out of my jeans and threw on some soft shorts. I threw my bra and shirt in the hamper and put on a tank top. This was close to my normal sleep wear, I wasn’t going to sleep all bundled up just because he was here. He was my boyfriend for crying out loud.

I just finished putting my hair in a ponytail when he walked in wearing some dark gray boxers and a white shirt. He smelt amazing just out of the shower. I wanted to pinch myself like that one day but I looked crazy that day
and it hurt so I decided to relive it would be unnecessary.

He walked up to me and pulled me into him and kissed me long and hard. Finally. He finished the kiss he started in the bar. My heart was pounding in my chest. When he pulled back he smiled, “I love you. I’m glad you asked me to stay
the night with you.”

My mouth opened but no words came out. All we did was kiss and I was trying to catch my breath. After a few seconds I replied, “I love you too.”

I sat down and he sat beside me. I wondered who was supposed to start what but then my brain reminded me that he had no idea I had been thinking about this all night. I leaned over and wrapped my arms around his neck and began kissing him again. He didn’t stop me. He kissed me back just as passionately as before and placed his arms around my waist. His hand went under my shirt and brushed against my bare skin. His touch felt electric. I wanted more. I fumbled with his shirt and tried to raise it up. This was not as easy as the movies made it look.

He paused and looked at me. “Mace, are you sure?”

I answered rather breathy, “Yes.”

He took his shirt off and damn Halley if she wasn’t right. Any
self-control I had just left the building. The ripples in his abs were amazing. I ran my hand over his stomach and brought them back around his neck. I noticed a few tattoos on his chest I’d never seen before, holy moly. He began kissing me again and slowly lowered me to the bed. His body was hovering just inches over mine. His lips moved from my mouth to my neck and I let out a slight moan. He kissed my collarbone and back up my neck and met my mouth again. My heart was pounding harder than before. It felt like it were going to beat right out my chest. He raised me up some and began to lift my shirt. Before he continued he met my eyes for approval and I nodded. My shirt came off and he kissed me again. His trail of kisses went back down my neck and his mouth went around my breast and I moaned again. He sucked my nipple while he caressed the other. Several moans of pleasure left my mouth.

“Ohmigod
Trevor..”

He continued then switched to the other. His hand brushed my stomach and met my shorts. My body wanted him. I raised my hips and with ease he removed my shorts. The fear I had earlier suddenly subsided. I know I was safe with him. His lips met mine again and he slowly slid a finger inside me. I moaned and fumbled with his boxers. I pulled them down as far as I could and he kicked them off. He slid his finger in and out and then inserted two. My hips rocked with the rhythm.

“Damn Mace, you’re so wet.” His breathing was ragged and he sounded so sexy.

“Don’t stop. I want you.” My breathing matched his. I kissed him again and he continued.

He slipped his fingers out and grabbed his wallet. For a second I wondered what the hell was going on but he pulled out a condom. Ohmigod, I silently sat there thankful he had one. I never thought about that. I figured he already had it on and I yanked him back down to me.

“Are you sure? We don’t have to do this if you don’t want to.”

I kissed his lips and replied, “Shut up and make love to me.”

He grinned and kissed me. My arms were around his neck and he slowly began to slide in. I moaned while he got positioned inside me and he slowly began our rhythm. He felt so amazing. His lips met mine as he rocked in and out. I kept up eagerly watching him watch me. I suddenly felt a wild burst of energy unlike anything I’ve ever felt before and I had to grab his arms to steady myself as I released. I swear to God my toes curled. He continued to slide in and out and I felt it building up again
ready to explode into a million tiny pieces. He looked at me and smiled then we both let out a moan and he collapsed onto me.

My eyes went from my naked body to his. This just happened. Wow. And it was amazing. No feelings of regret filled me and I was able
to breathe easy. I felt..normal, like this is what normal people do. They have fun, they fall in love, they have sex. Trevor smiled at me and kissed my lips. “That was amazing.”

I tried not to giggle too much as I replied,
“You can say that again.” I reached on the side of the bed and grabbed my shirt and shorts and quickly threw them back on. He put his boxers back on and lay beside me. He wrapped his arms around me and thoughts of feeling actually wanted filled my head. This is what it felt like to be enough for someone and to be loved. I definitely could get used to this. I lay there with my thoughts swimming around in my head for what seemed like forever and after replaying some of them again, I fell right asleep.

******

The sun was up. I know this because it was shining in my face. I groaned while thinking to myself I really needed room darkening shades. It’s not like they were expensive, I was just too lazy to go to the store and actually buy one. I didn’t want to even know the time, I just wanted to go back to sleep. I rolled over trying to get somewhat comfortable and try to sleep again but instead I found Trevor awake watching me.

“Good morning beautiful.” He brushed the hair out of my face and planted a big kiss on my lips. I didn‘t dare open my mouth. I had just woken up and no one should have to smell that.
Morning breath was foul, I didn’t want to scare him off after the amazing night we had.

“Good morning. How’d you sleep last night?”

He smiled and replied, “I slept like a baby.” He started looking around my room. He’d been in briefly before but never long enough to really notice anything. “You were a cheerleader in high school Macy? How come I never knew this?” His smile curved up. The picture of me and some of my friends from then before one of our football games was in his hand. I actually did used to have a life. I loved it.

“Yes I was a cheerleader all throughout high school. Hard to believe huh?” I let out a laugh then my expression turned serious. “But I quit the squad right aft
er everything began happening. It was my senior year and we had competitions coming up and I just let it all go. Nothing was ever the same after that night.”

“Well that’s a shame. You look hot in a uniform. Do you still have it? Maybe you could model it for me one day?” He definitely had no shame in his game. He gave the picture one more look and then placed it back.

I looked into those gorgeous eyes. A smile escaped my lips as he leaned in to kiss me. “I may still have it lying around who knows?” He threw me back on the bed and kissed me, tickling my sides and playing around.

I finally managed to escape. The living room was clear. Good. Halley and Marcus were still sleeping so I decided to sprint down to the bathroom and clean up. Trevor
lay in the bed watching me get my clothes and he smiled constantly. I left him lying on the bed and ran. The warm water was refreshing as it ran off my body. I loved the new body wash I bought. The smell of vanilla and brown sugar filled the bathroom as I washed up. I wrapped a towel around my body and my hair as I finished. I grabbed my clothes and went to put them on. I felt a wild streak come across me and I semi dried my hair as I ran my fingers through it. I opened the bathroom door and peeked out. The coast was still clear. I darted back to the room, shut the door, dropped the towel and jumped on Trevor.

We lay in bed naked holdin
g each other. Calmness filled my soul. I never knew what it was like to feel safe and have someone there for you. Someone to take care of you and love you uncontionally. These things were all foreign to me and I was trying like hell to adapt to it. I knew I was safe with him.