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Chapter 8

Adam insists on coming up to my apartment, he takes my keys and opens the door for me; I follow him into the kitchen and watch as he sets about making me a cup of coffee.

“So how have you been Liv?”

“Ok, though I have been a bit spooked recently”

“Why?”

“I don’t know I just feel like somebody is watching me all the time…” I watch him as he pours the hot water into two cups, he places them on the table then walks off behind me

“Adam where are you going?”

“Nowhere” I hear him quickly walk towards my front door then the lock swiftly goes down and he reappears next to me

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

I must be drunk, I have no idea what he’s talking about “Why didn’t I tell you what?”

“That you thought you were being watched?”

“Oh two reasons, number one we are not together anymore and the second being it’s just a feeling, I haven’t seen anybody”

“Liv”

I look up at him as I blow on my coffee “What?”

“I need you Liv”

“You need me?”

“Yes I need to make love to you”

“Oh but we are not together anymore”

“So you keep saying, to me you will always be mine and I will always be yours, you know that.”

“Oh” He closes the distance between us

“Stand-up Liv” he makes me quiver just stood there giving me orders “Liv…stand-up” he repeats slightly louder

I slowly rise to my feet as his hand reaches up to my face and his thumb rubs over my cheek “Fuck I’ve missed you” he says as he lowers his mouth to mine

That’s it I’m lost, once he touches me I forget everything else I respond to his kiss and my mind goes blank as his tongue enters my mouth and his other hand finds the zip at the back of my dress and slides it down, my own hands reach under his shirt and run up his solid abs I know I moan because I feel him smile against my lips, he breaks the kiss

“Come Liv let’s take this to the bedroom” I nod giving my consent and follow him to the bedroom, I watch as he closes the curtains and turns pulling his t shirt over his head and undoing his jeans

“Adam?”

“Liv”

“What happens this time when your phone rings?”

“It won’t, I switched it off”

I nod my head as he lowers his jeans then kicks them off, wow he looks amazing

“You want to see more Liv?”

I think I’m speechless so I just nod my head and watch as his hands come up to the sides of his boxers, he slowly lowers them all the time his eyes are on me, once he is naked he walks towards me, he has that look in his eyes, he’s definitely going to fuck me.

He stops in front of me and my hands have no choice but to reach to his chest, I watch as my fingers trace his muscles down, I lean forward and follow my hands with my tongue, I know I’ve had too much to drink when I drop to my knees, my eyes are level with his very angry looking cock as I reach for him, he tenses, so I place a long lick up his entire length

“Fuccck Liv”

I have never doubted his feelings for me or what I do to him it’s just his secret that has pulled us apart, I think as I take him in my mouth, well the half that will fit anyway, I hold the bottom half in my hand and use the same motion my mouth is taking, I’m just getting into a good rhythm, when he grabs my head and pulls me back, I suck hard until he pops from my mouth, my eyes jump to his

“I need you Liv”

I slowly stand, and remove first my bra then my knickers, while he stands watching me with one hand slowly pumping his cock, once I’m naked I look towards his hand and notice the drip, I slowly reach forward with one finger and wipe it, I slowly bring the finger to my mouth and moan.

Before I know it, he has grabbed me and thrown me on the bed, I start to laugh until I feel his breath on my pussy, I won’t be able to hold back my orgasm for long, after watching him and tasting him I’m nearly there already. I think he can sense how close I am as he works at me hard and fast, I struggle to keep my body on the bed as his hands rest on my hips to hold me down, I grasp the sheet in my hands and almost scream as my pleasure peaks, as I slowly come back down I open my eyes and watch as Adam crawls up my body and lines himself up “Wait, you need a condom”

“Liv I never wear a condom with you”

“While you have secrets, you wear a condom”

I watch him as he jumps from the bed and picks his jeans up from the floor and retrieves his wallet, I watch as he pulls out a condom, he rips the packet open with his mouth and spits the piece out, he slowly puts the condom on and walks back to the bed, his eyes are a mixture of passion and anger, he grabs my hips and roughly turns me over, then pulls my hips up so my ass is in the air, he pushes my shoulders down until my head is on the bed, ok I quickly grab the headboard I have a feeling this is going to be rough, just as my hands reach out he enters me in one long hard push “Fuccck” I shout but he just continues with a fast and furious pace “Ah God Adam” he doesn’t say anything it just feels as if he pounds into me harder, I can feel my second orgasm coming as he reaches for my hair and takes a handful and pulls my head back, the bite of pain makes my orgasm even more powerful, he keeps going with the face past pace until I hear him shout then feel him collapse onto me

“Fuck Liv, I’m sorry, was I too rough?”

“No” is all I can manage to say. He stays where he is for a couple of minutes before pulling out and walking off to the bathroom to dispose of the condom, I decide to pretend to be asleep when he comes back, unless he is going to tell me we don’t need to say anything else.

I hear him return and get into bed, he pulls me back like always so he can hold me, if he says anything I don’t hear as I fall to sleep.

I come to the next morning, Adam is stood by the bed fully dressed holding a cup of coffee

“Morning, I have to go, the deal goes through today”

“Ok”

“Thank you for last night”

“Huh Huh”

“I will call you”

“Ok”

“I love you Liv” I feel him run his hands down my back and then he leaves.

Chapter 9

I eventually get up and get to work, making it just before everyone else arrives, I know I’m sat here with a smile on my face; just thinking about Adam can do that to me. Hannah notices that I’m happier this morning

“So Olivia, did someone have something last night that can put a smile on her face like that this morning?” she says pointing at me

“Yes Hannah, I did” I say, feeling myself blush

“Oh ok, well I don’t need to ask anymore, I would bet a million dollars that Adam could put a smile on any woman’s face”

“Thanks Hannah” I say raising my eyebrow at her

“Don’t mention it, so it’s all back on then?”

“No not really, I think he just showed me what I was missing actually”

“Jesus you needed a reminder, I would thought he would be unforgettable”

“Yeah but sometimes other things happen, life gets in the way doesn’t it”

“OK, well here’s your coffee coming” she says nodding her head towards Adam’s PA

We both watch as Conrad knocks on the door and brings my coffee in

“Morning Conrad” I say

“Good morning Olivia, what a lovely day it is today especially when my boss has a smile on his face to match the one you are wearing” He hands me my coffee and a bag

“What’s this?”

“Adam says you might need some sugar this morning”

“Thank you” I might blush slightly as know everybody in my office knows we had sex last night.

I watch as they both leave the room, I pick up my cup and lean back in my chair, my thoughts returning to last night, I must almost be dreaming because I jump when my phone rings, I finish the call then hear a strange noise from outside, I pick my coffee up and walk up to the window, I look around, this office looks out over a large courtyard area, there’s a coffee shop with lots of white tables and monochrome umbrellas over them, shading each of the people sat underneath, I watch all the different kinds of people for a while, the mothers with their young babies, to the single man and an older couple holding each other’s hands as they eat lunch and it’s then that I spot them, Adam and that girl from the photos. I move forward and study what they are doing, she has a hold of one his arms, he’s not touching her but he’s not moving away either, he looks absolutely livid though, I wonder what’s happening… then I look down a little further and see her swollen belly, she must be at least seven months pregnant, I watch as she leans in and places a kiss on his lips. My hand jumps up to my mouth and my heart drops. He turns and walks back towards the building and she’s just standing there with a big, smug smile on her face and both of her petite, slender hands are cradling her stomach. All kinds of thoughts are flying through my mind like when Adam told me to “Give him a month or two” Oh my God, it’s his baby. 

I turn and walk back to my desk as the numb feeling of shock and despair washes over me. I hold back the tears as I shut down my computer and slam the doors shut on my cabinets and lock them. On my way out I pick up my coat and bag from the rail by my door and stop by Hannah’s desk.

“Hannah I’m not feeling well, I’m going home, I will call you later” I say I don’t wait for her to answer as I walk away to the door.

I hurry to my car and jump in, I notice Adams car is not there, but his bike is. As I pull away I can feel the tears running down my cheek. “How could he?” I shout

I pull up outside my apartment and my phone is ringing, I glance at the screen and see its Hannah

“Hello?”

“Hi Olivia, sorry Adam called in, I told him you had gone home unwell, he seemed worried, I told him you weren’t too bad, I hope that’s ok”

“Ok thanks Hannah”

I cut the call and look at my phone and see several missed calls from Adam and a few texts, would he know that I saw them? I get out the car, grab my bags from the back seat and lock the car. As I walk towards my building I have that feeling again so I hurry across the road and into the building, I let go of the breath I was holding and walk up the stairs, by the time I reach my apartment I am out of breath, I place my bags on the ground whilst I find my keys, I push the key in and turn, pushing the door open I collect my bags from the floor and pull my keys out, I walk just inside and drop my bags on the table.

I turn to close the door as it burst wide open, I think I scream as I see Tom’s face but then the door hits my head. I feel myself falling and the feeling of panic is shooting through my body but there is nothing I can do as I hit the floor hard.

Chapter 10

I’m slowly coming too unsure of where I am and what happened, I struggle to open my eyes as I hear voices, a man and woman. I remember Tom at the door and the panic I felt as I hit the floor has returned. I slowly try to open my eyes but my head is throbbing. I try to raise my hand to my head, hoping that if I press it, it will relieve some pressure but my hand is met with considerable tension and I can’t muster the strength to move it, all kinds of thoughts fly through my head, what if I broke my back and I’m in hospital? I try again to open my eyes, slowly prying them apart, I quickly glance around the room and notice I’m at home in my bedroom, I look down at my hand and notice it’s tied to the bed, the relief I was feeling at not being paralysed is shattered when it kicks in again, I’m tied to my bed… I hear the voices again and try to calm myself down fast so I can hear what they’re saying.

“Tom it’s the only way, you have to do this. If you want to make me and your baby happy”

I hear what she says and know instantly it is the woman who was talking to Adam, its gut instinct, even though I never heard her speak. What I don’t understand is does Adam think it’s his baby or was he waiting to prove it isn’t or is it Tom’s and she is lying, fuck what could they possibly want? I hear Tom’s voice again

“I love you but I just don’t want to do this”

I feel the vomit rise in my throat, shit what are they going to do

“You know what you have to do for this to work, I have set the camera up just take a couple of her with her clothes on and then with them off, once you’re done we will make sure Adam sees them and he won’t want her anymore, I need you to make it look like someone is taking them of her and that she wants them too and she’s enjoying herself I have crushed the tablet in the water and put a spare one on the side if she won’t drink it”

“But…”

“Oh for Christ sake Tom just fucking do it, it can’t be that difficult to take some photos”

She sounds vile, what the hell was Adam doing mixing with someone like that “How long does the tablet take to work?” a tablet, fuck, I presume it’s some kind of date rape drug or something

“Once she has taken it, no more than ten minutes”

“Ok, are you going to stay?”

“No, I don’t need to see her”

“What do I do once I have finished?”

“Just untie her, bring all the stuff and just leave her in bed. I’m going to leave you to it, ring me when it’s done”

I hear the door slam and it all goes quiet, then I hear footsteps coming towards the bedroom, I pretend to be asleep

“Olivia, time for a drink darling”

I don’t move but I hear Tom come closer, my heart is beating so fast it feels like it might combust in my chest and in this very moment I think I would welcome that.

“Olivia, you need to drink this” I feel his hand on the back of my neck as he lifts my head and places the glass to my mouth, I try to pull my face away from him but he’s so strong compared to me. I try to scream but that was an obvious mistake as he pours the water into my mouth, the more he pours the more I try and spit it out. Once the glass is empty he leans in close, I shiver as I feel his cold breath on my face and neck, his dead, glassy eyes staring at me intently “I will be back in ten minutes Olivia, then we are going to teach you a lesson and you will look like you love it” he pulls away from me and leaves the room.

I try my hardest to be sick but without being able to stick my fingers into my throat I just can’t do it,  I try desperately to keep my eyes open, hoping the drug won’t take effect.

Moments pass and I’m awake but struggling to stay that way when I hear footsteps and Tom’s familiar voice “Olivia are you ready?”

I try and shake my head but nothing will move, I can sense him picking up each arm and leg to untie them, I try with everything I have left in me to scream or move but nothing will work, I can vaguely make out what he’s saying to me

“I will get rid of your clothes then I will start to take photos of you and we can show Adam what a whore you really are”

I can feel the cold blades of the scissors cutting away at my clothes, my eyes are rolling and I can’t quite decide whether to give in so I don’t know what is happening or fight

“There, my, my aren’t you lovely”

I can barely make out Tom in the room, I feel the bile rise in my throat again as I hear him stand and his feet pad across the room then I hear a click of a button, which must mean he has switched the camera on.

“Olivia, are you ready, now is the time to say if not?” he laughs a deep, throaty laugh as he says it “I have to say you do look beautiful, after I’ve finished taking the pictures I might just teach you a lesson for running out on me”

I try again to scream or answer him but nothing, I feel so let down by my body so I take a deep breath and let the drug take me, I see the black rise in my eyes.