Cowboy Desires: The Complete Collection (12 page)

“I have been almost completely honest with you, but there is one more thing that I have been keeping from you, and from everyone else, for that matter. My secret came out last night, so it’s only fair that I tell you. I’d never be able to start a relationship with you without telling you this.”

“Okay, I’m ready to hear it.”

I took a deep breath and let it out before speaking. It was now or never.

“Right before Mason left, I was pregnant.”

“He left you when you were pregnant? What an asshole! I knew I didn’t like that guy!”

I could see the anger creeping up his neck in a deep, red hue.

“Just listen, Austin, before I lose my nerve. I was just about three months along, and we were just getting ready to tell everyone. I was so happy, and I thought we were finally ready to settle down and commit to each other. But then everything fell apart.”

Austin was watching me intently, and I knew he could see the tears threatening to fall from my eyes. He grabbed my hand and held it in his, but he didn’t say anything.

“I started to cramp one day, and then there was blood. A lot of it. Mason rushed me to the hospital, but it was too late. I lost the baby. It was a girl, and her heartbeat had been so strong just a week before. I was a mess, and I couldn’t stop crying, so they sedated me and kept me overnight. When I woke up the next morning, Mason was gone. I waited and waited for him. When they released me, I called his phone 20 times, but he never answered. I ended up taking a cab home because I was too ashamed to call my sisters.”

“You have got to be kidding! That asshole left you broken like that? He ran like a coward?”

“Yes, he was gone without a trace. For a year and a half. He shut off his phone. I asked his family and friends, but they all insisted they hadn’t heard from him. No one knew about the baby, and I never told anyone. I was too ashamed. I sat in my house for weeks in a depression until I finally realized I needed help. I went to the doctor and got on some meds. Then I saw a therapist. I was just starting to feel like I would be okay when he showed up here last week.”

“What the fuck is wrong with him? How could anyone leave you like that? My opinion of him as a man has lessened to nothing. If he wasn’t already in a hospital bed, I’d have half a mind to put him there myself!”

I drew back a little bit when I saw the rage pouring off of him. He was a big man, and it scared me a little bit. Part of me felt like I needed to defend Mason. Did that mean I was forgiving him?

“He was broken, too, and he thought that I would be better off without him. He figured I would tell my sisters, and they would come and pick up the pieces that he couldn’t bear to see. But I didn’t want anyone but him. So I shut everyone else out and cried for him and our daughter every night. I figured I had done something wrong, and that’s why I had lost both of them. I just wanted my family back. That’s why you found me crying that day.”

The rage was still there, but it was slowly softening. Austin pulled me into his arms and held me close as the tears streamed down my face. I didn’t sob like all the times before. Maybe this meant I was starting to heal. It felt good to think about that and to be in Austin’s arms. Guilt crept into a little corner of my brain, but then I reminded myself that I wasn’t committed to anyone. I could do what I wanted.

I lifted my face to look up at his face, and he used his thumb to wipe away my tears. Then he leaned down and gave me the sweetest, most gentle kiss on my lips. It felt good to be cared for after telling my secret again. I felt accepted and wanted. Was Austin the man who would make me whole again? He was always so understanding, and he never failed to look out for my best interests.

He continued to kiss me, deepening it by pushing his tongue past my lips, asking for permission to take this further. I opened my mouth and welcomed him in, wanting to feel anything but pain and sorrow right then. He continued to kiss me while we moved toward the couch. He pulled me onto his lap, and I didn’t hesitate to join him.

It was as if this was his way of trying to show me that I was cherished and he would never leave me. He smoothed down my hair with one of his huge hands and rubbed my back with the other. I had my hands wrapped around the back of his neck. It felt amazing to be held like this. His kisses were passionate and I knew he meant them.

I shifted on his lap so that I was straddling him, pressing my breasts against his chest. I removed the cowboy hat from his head and threw it onto a nearby table. Then I rubbed the heat between my legs onto the most sensitive spot on his body, making him groan into my mouth. I lifted up and did it again, loving the way the friction made me feel. I was soaking wet and ready to have him.

“Woman, what are you trying to do to me? I can’t take much more of this without taking you.”

“Maybe that’s what I want you to do.”

I gave him a sly smile and broke our contact. Then I positioned myself on my knees between his legs on the floor. I grabbed his belt and slowly undid it while licking my lips. Once I got that undone, I unbuttoned his jeans and reached in to pull out his throbbing cock.

“Baby, you look so damn sexy looking at my cock like it’s the tastiest thing you’ve ever seen.”

I didn’t reply. I leaned over and spit on the head of his cock and then took the whole thing in my mouth in one movement. His hips immediately came up off the couch and he gripped the cushions.

I couldn’t get enough of him. I sucked him into the back of my throat over and over while I rubbed his balls. He was grunting and pushing himself into my mouth, clearly losing his control.

Suddenly, I was being pulled onto my feet in front of him. He undid my pants and pulled them off along with my boy shorts. Then my shirt and bra joined them on the floor. He took off his boots and the rest of his clothes quickly, and then he pulled me down on the couch on top of him.

He gripped his throbbing member in his hand and placed it at my opening; it was hot and soaking wet. I helped him out by lowering myself onto the tip, then taking him in inch-by-inch. He was so big, and it made me gasp with pleasure.

My breasts were right in his face, and he sucked and licked them while he guided my movements with his hands on my ass. Then he reached around and started to rub my clit with his thumb.

“Damn, Austin, you feel so good. I love having you inside of me. You know just how to touch me. Do you like it, baby?”

“I fucking love it, Jamie. You are so damn tight that it was all I could do not to come the first second I was in you. I want you to be mine!”

We started grinding into each other in a frenzy. I could feel myself starting to come undone, and I needed it more than anything. I kissed him, letting our tongues dance as I moved up and down fast and hard. I dug my nails into his shoulders as my orgasm started.

“Austin! Oh God! I’m coming. I’m fucking coming! Don’t stop!”

I was shaking wildly, and he kept a firm grip on my hips as I rode out my undoing on his rock hard cock. Before I was done, he pushed up into me hard one last time and shot his cum deep inside me.

He was mumbling words, and I was looking into his eyes as we shared this wildly intimate moment. When we were both done, I rested my head on his shoulder, not ready to get off of him yet. He wrapped his big, muscular arms around me and stroked my back with his calloused hands.

I had let out all of the tension I was feeling, and I had him to thank. How did he always manage to make me forget all of the problems in my life and just let go?

While we were snuggling, his phone rang loudly from his jeans pocket. He jumped when he heard it, and the spell was broken. He lifted me off his lap, scrambling for the phone. I was a little taken aback by the fact that something could be important enough for him to toss me aside after what we had just shared.

The phone stopped ringing by the time he finally held it in his hand. He was still naked, and his face had a look of serious concern on it.

“Listen, baby. I gotta run. I’m sorry to do this to you. I promise I will make it up to you soon. Okay? Just call or text if you need me.”

I was still in shock that he was leaving, so I didn’t speak. He got dressed quickly and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek before rushing out of my house. Was this how it was going to be? Get me all riled up and feeling crazy things for him then running out? I was kind of pissed, but maybe it was an emergency. We were not in a relationship, so I had no room to speak.

I gathered up my clothes off the floor and headed upstairs for a shower. I had planned on going back to see Mason that night, but I thought it was best to stay away and let him rest after what had happened that afternoon. I decided to read a book and have some popcorn. I went to bed early because I was still tired from the night before.

I woke up early feeling a little bit refreshed. The night before had brought me some much-needed relief, but I was still annoyed that Austin had left so abruptly. What could have been so important? Maybe it had something to do with Jackson. But if that was true, why didn’t he just say it?

I shook off the bad feeling while I took a shower and got dressed in shorts and a tank top. I headed straight for my laptop with a glass of lemonade. The day was already humid, so I was thinking about staying indoors. I started a new story that was loosely based on the events of the last couple of weeks. It flowed quickly from my brain straight to my fingers, and I was done within two hours.

I got a text from Mason at around 11:00 asking when I was coming back to see him. He said he was sorry for the day before, and he was feeling much more like himself. I told him it was okay, and I would be there later in the afternoon. I also told him that I loved him because I felt like I needed to say it to him as much as possible after the accident.

I worked through lunch because I couldn’t stop writing. I needed to get my story out. It was a way for me to heal and shut out reality for a while. I finally finished around 3:00. I headed into the kitchen for a snack when I heard my screen door opening.

“Jamie? Where are you?”

It was Erin, and she was running around my house, frantically searching for me.

“What’s wrong? I’m right here. Are you okay?”

She was a sweaty mess, and her hair was falling out of the ponytail on the back of her head. It was obvious that she had come straight from work and that something serious was on her mind.

“I have something to tell you. Something…bad. I saw something that might make your decision a lot easier. I’m still fucking shocked.”

What could she had possibly seen? I know a lot went on every day in that store, but what did it have to do with me?

“Well, tell me! You come in here all sweaty and out of breath. Don’t keep me waiting!”

“I was working in the store and Heather was on register when a pretty young woman came in to pay for gas. She said her fiancée was waiting outside with their son. I don’t know what made me look up, but I did. I peeked out the window and standing at the pump waiting for her was a very familiar face.”

“Who was it?”

“It was Austin. And she was wearing a huge diamond ring on her left hand. She paid for the gas, and I watched her go out. When she got back to the car, he grabbed her and kissed her hard, like he couldn’t get enough of her. They are obviously very much together, Jamie. He’s engaged. I’m so sorry.”

“What? Are you sure that was him? No…it couldn’t be…That asshole! I can’t fucking believe him. I had sex with him last night, and he rushed out of here like he was on fire! Now I know the fucking truth. He took me to the house he shares with her! Oh, God. I feel like such a whore. I really believed that they weren’t together anymore.”

“I’m so sorry I had to be the one to tell you this. But honestly I’m glad that you found out before you decided that he was it for you. You don’t need to have your heart broken again. And even though I’m really fucking pissed at Mason for leaving you, I also think he might actually be it for you. I’ve seen the way you two are together. I’ve seen the look in your eyes at the hospital. You care about him more than I ever knew, and maybe even more than you know.”

“I’m glad I found out now, too. What a scumbag! And what an awful example for that little boy of his. Andrea must have no clue that he’s a cheater. He did it right out in the open, though! I hate feeling played.”

“Well, I don’t know if you can forgive Mason, but at least now Austin won’t be around making it harder. Do you want me to take care of him?”

“No, I’ll take care of him myself. He needs to hear this from me.”

“Okay, I gotta run. I have a date with Dave tonight. Darts again! Yay me!”

I laughed at her sarcasm as she ran back out the door as fast as she came in. But I was still fuming from the revelations of the past few minutes. I somehow managed to get screwed again in more ways than one. How the hell had I not seen through his lies? I guess I was just looking for something to get me over my past, and he said all the right things. My broken heart had made me vulnerable and open to a predator like him. I should have known the cowboy hat and sweet talk was too good to be true.

It was about time for me to go see Mason, so I had to put my anger and embarrassment aside. I prettied myself up a bit and drove down around the corner to the hospital. I got on the elevator and headed for the third floor. When I stepped out, I heard alarms going off and saw people running into Mason’s room.