Holding On (51 page)

I
felt
the
heat
from
his
body
as
his
hands
reached
for
the
hem
of
my shirt.
I
didn’t
hesitate,
knowing
what
he
wanted
and
lifted
my
hands above my head, giving him permission.   It took all of two seconds
before it hit the floor, and Ethan’s lips were on my neck. I turned in his
arms and stripped him of his shirt as well while he reached behind me
and flicked the clasp of my bra
open.

I
had
never
felt
so
alive
in
my
entire
life,
standing
half
naked
in front
of
another
person.
I
knew
that
I
could
say
one
word
and
this
would
be
over,
we
wouldn’t
go
any
further,
but
I
didn’t
want
to.
I
wanted
to
be with Ethan. At that moment, I felt like I needed to be with him as
much as I needed air to
breathe.

I knew in my heart of hearts that that was the moment I had
been waiting for and that Ethan was the person I had been waiting
for.
Every girl
wants
their
first
time
to
be
special.
Nothing
was
going
to
be
able to compete with that moment for me and
that’s
how I knew that it
was
special, that it was right. I would remember that moment for the rest
of my life and never regret a single
second.

I sat down on the edge of the bed and motioned him forward
with
my
finger.
He
gave
me
the
sexiest
grin
I
had
even
seen
cross
his
lips and
complied
with
my
small
request.
As
he
kissed
his
way
up
my
body,
starting at my navel, I started to feel my body unravel beneath him.
By the time he reached my neck, I was breathing
heavily,
and so was he.

As
our
eyes
met,
he
silently
asked
me
if
I
really
wanted
this.
I nodded my head once. As I waited for him to touch me again, my
body calmed, but I could feel him watching me, staring at my naked
body.
I found
his
eyes
as
they
swept
over
my
body
and
came
to
meet
mine.
I nodded
once
more,
letting
him
know
that
I
hadn’t
changed
my
mind.
He
leaned over and pressed a light kiss to my lips. I knew
what’s
coming next, and I was ready for it.

As I woke up, I wondered if it was all a dream. The fact that I
could feel
Ethan’s
naked
body
pressed
up
against
me
made
it
all
too
real. My
body
was
sore,
and
I
had
to
use
the
bathroom.
I
quietly
pulled
away from him and searched the floor for my underwear. After finding
them and tugging on Ethan’s t-shirt, I slipped out of his room. Of course,
his mother
would
begin
remodeling
his
bathroom
before
he
left
for
college. How inconvenient for me at this very
moment.

Down the hall, I could see a light under his parents’
door.
I
hoped they
weren’t
home.
I
couldn’t
hear
any
sounds
coming
from
their
room.
I headed
into
the
bathroom
and
cleaned
myself
up.
Looking
in
the
mirror, I barely recognized my own face. I had a wicked grin from ear to
ear,
and it didn’t even begin to describe how I felt at that moment. I
quickly ran my fingers through my hair and pulled it back up into a
ponytail.

I slipped back into Ethan’s room and checked the time. It was
only a little after five. My mom wasn’t expecting us for dinner until six,
so we
had
plenty
of
time
to
get
around.
I
sat
on
the
edge
of
the
bed
and stared
at
the
man
before
me.
He
looked
peaceful
in
his
sleep.
His
naked torso
was
begging
to
be
touched,
and
just
as
I
was
about
to
reach
for him, his eyes
opened.

“Hey,
gorgeous.
You
look
beautiful.”
Ethan
said
sleepily.
His
words made
my
heart
flutter,
and
I
couldn’t
keep
a
smile
from
spreading
across my
face.

“You
look
pretty
good
yourself.
We
have
to
get
dressed.
My
mom
is expecting us for dinner in less than an
hour.”
I moved to stand up
when I felt his arms wrap around my waist and pulled me down to
him.

Instead of resisting him, I snuggled up against him and rested
my head
on
his
chest.
I
could
spend
the
rest
of
the
day
like
this.
I
wanted
to spend the rest of the day like this. If we didn’t have to be at my
house for dinner, I would spend the rest of the day like
this.

“Are you okay?” Ethan asked concerned.

He
was
asking
because
he
cared.
He
did
everything
possible
to
make sure
that
my
first
time
was
perfect,
to
make
sure
that
I
was
comfortable. I
nodded
to
let
him
know
that
I
was.
I
stretched
up
and
gave
him
a
quick kiss
on
the
lips,
and
he
released
me.
He
knew
we
had
to
get
moving before we got caught. His parents usually get home by six, and if
they catch us in here alone, they would have a major issue with
it.

After we were dressed and ready to leave, he pulled me back
down on
the
bed
and
started
to
kiss
me
again.
Before
I
could
stop
myself,
I was kissing him too. His hands were moving slowly under my shirt.
I could
feel
my
desires
beginning
to
stir
again,
and
then,
as
if
the
heavens knew that we needed to stop, we heard the garage door
open.

We
pulled apart and both stood quickly. I smoothed my top
back down
to
cover
my
stomach,
and
we
quickly
exited
his
room.
All
the
rose petals and candles were picked up, but there was still a moment 
when
I thought that our actions would be obvious to everyone around us. If
I could feel a change, could
they?

We
said
a
quick
hello
and
good-bye
to
his
mother
before
darting
out to his
car.
We
were officially running late now due to our last
moments of weakness.
We
needed to hurry and get to my house before my
mom started to wonder where we
were.

Only
five
minutes
late,
my
mom
was
setting
the
table
when
we walked
in.
I
excused
myself
to
go
take
a
quick
shower,
knowing
that
the sweet
smell
of
sweat
and
Ethan
was
all
over
my
body.
I
was
back
in
less than ten, and dinner was just being
served.